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Kieran McAnulty’s Neo-liberal Pig Sty – latest poem

Kieran McAnulty of corruption is guilty
Neo-liberal extremist, authoritarian & racist

Kieran McAnulty is the one who is faulty
Neo-liberal extremist, cruel global terrorist

Kieran McAnulty ignores and insults me
Neo-liberal extremist, Mental Health is his fist

Kieran McAnulty is the one who is faulty
Neo-liberal extremist, handing power to richest

Kieran McAnulty ignores and insults me
Neo-liberal extremist profits from war on the poorest

HATE starts HERE !!

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Saw what this lying piece of garbage said on his facebook page about suicide and mental health services, that I know are going to make things even worse.  Half the NZ local population driven to suicide and these Labourites just love to create jobs from the suffering American neo-liberal economic extremism causes.  Grrrrrrrr.

The MP who promised before he was elected (over two elections) to help me get mental health care ACC supposed to reinstate nine years ago & the $10,000 in Independence allowance they brag about withholding from me.   So angry, had to write this poem  and will be putting it up everywhere to cope – pen is mightier than the sword they reakon.   His facebook page is full of his neo-liberal Labour (USA version of democrats ewwww) mates making comments about how great he is, its sickening.

Half the NZ population (2.5 million of us, 99% born in NZ)  being driven to suicide due to poverty, fear and HATE caused by AMERICAN neo-liberal economic extremism.  Profiting and creating jobs from the economic suffering our own government is creating is about as depraved AND ILLEGAL as you can get I reakon.   Counsellors and social workers doing our governments DIRTY WORK, listening to the suffering of the poorest WHEN THEY SHOULD BE GOING TO HIM DIRECTLY AND PARTICIPATING IN OUR DEMOCRACY – TAKING TO THE STREETS – LIKE POOREST IN EVERY OTHER COUNTRY IS!!

Its Kieran and your politicians you need to be talking to, not some poorly trained/brainwashed unemployable self-righteous ignorant young person.  Who doesn’t know what NZ was like BEFORE neo-liberals took it over – and that’s exactly the way those abusers in power like it.

Do your own research, ask Kieran why counsellors ARE NOT considered health workers and yet Social Workers were made health workers only a few years ago.  It helps them UPLIFT children from families and although sometimes this is justified, the abuses of power and complete failure of the complaints system means many decent people now being terrorised.   My knowledge of how bad ACC and system is for victims of crime/rape and abuse makes me rage at this generalisation and denigration of mental health services – when these people need and are entitled to extensive PROFESSIONAL support.

What they are doing is purely experimental in the area of suicide and mental health.  THERE Is ABSOLUTELY NO medical evidence to suggest very unwell suicidal people in inhuman living situations (caused mostly by housing crisis) will benefit from phone ‘counselling’.  YET ANOTHER THING OUR CORRUPT GOVERNMENT DO TO VIOLATE OUR HUMAN RIGHTS – experiment on people!!

Mental health services neo-liberal Labour govt want are going to deprive the most unwell and deserving victims of crime the extensive treatment care rehabilitation and homes they are entitled to under ACC and many other laws.  Instead people who commit violent and sexual crimes, who are addicts and dangerous are going to GET EVEN MORE HELP.  Along with affluent spoilt brat children who can’t get their own way as adults and use unfounded threats of suicide to get it.   World has gone mad – if I didn’t believe in the bible before, what I’m seeing around me sure looks like end of days to me.  LETS HOPE SO!

 

Alan Pollard Trust House Wairarapa PLEASE CONTACT ME URGENTLY

Here is my latest email to Trust House

From: jrouthan@hotmail.co.nz
Sent: Friday, 14 June 2019 11:49 AM
To: info@trusthouse.co.nz
Subject: Attention: Alan Pollard

Dear Alan,
I have yet again left you a message to contact me, which you have failed to do many times before.

The reason this time is my absolute disgust and trauma watching your latest marketing propaganda on Wairarapa TV.  If you look up the word propaganda I am using it correctly.  I know this marketing is in response to my latest graffiti art exposing the corruption, greed, suffering, suicide, social dysfunction, violence, crime and extreme harm being caused to our community in the Wairarapa region.

Harm that is caused by Trust House and their appalling immoral (criminal as all neo-liberal advancing rich and persecuting poor for profit is) behaviour giving money to middle class and rich people though extravagant COMPLETELY UNNECESSARY WANTS through sports, arts, tourist and business promotion.

It is interesting how my years working on getting the treatment care rehabilitation, safe home and justice I am entitled to from ACC alerted me to the gross corruption, suicide, violence, crime etc neo-liberals like yourself were perpetrating in our society.  How you had in fact committed cultural genocide on our unique Pakeha/Maori country that from its inception rejected English elitsm and inequality at its most vile.  Your demand for Trust House properties to have houses removed and filled with high rise apartments for us filthy disgusting poor is proof you are doing this.  I know for a fact 1/4 acre sections are MY PAKEHA CULTURE, these were so people could be self-reliant even if global financial trade and markets crashed and NZ became impoverished.  We could still grow food for ourselves and each other.

Anyway enough of me telling you what you are, you know what you are – that is why every time I do a protest you come back with an intensive advertising campaign to try and brainwash (which is illegal under UN international law) the majority of people with your propaganda.  Backed up of course with the propaganda experts in New Zealand Mediaworks.

Seems to me those in power are starting to realise those being harmed (which is more and more people as immigrants are welcomed to NZ when the government know there is nowhere for them to live and they will be driven into more dangerous and inhuman living situations).

I have many ideas on how corrupt cruel neo-liberal criminals/terrorists like yourself can get out of your predicament.  It will help you all save face a little but it is still going to require admitting what you have done to INCITE hate, suicide, violence, unemployment, elitism, terrorism, homelessness and TERROR into the hearts of the most vulnerable and poorest citizens.  NOTE: THAT DOES NOT INCLUDE ADDICTS – I don’t like addicts, they are the people who most hurt me – I’m sick of addicts getting so much when I GET ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.

Corrupt government officials have purposely made sure I get no health care whatsoever, I havn’t seen a doctor in over three years, I get no professional mental health services, I am not even allowed to go to the foodbank, I am not allowed to phone 1737, I am not allowed to phone Healthline.  When I go to the hospital for anything – which I am terrified of doing because of the police violence and how I was treated after it by nursing staff – things are made very difficult for me.  After a recent accident the A&E doctor ordered x-rays and when I went to get them they had been cancelled and even requests for why and who were refused.

What they are doing to me to hurt me for trying to get ACC care I am entitled to and home I am entitled to under multiple NZ laws is deeply disturbing in the 21st Century.  Proves without doubt, just on my case alone, that New Zealand IS NOT a democracy and DOES NOT follow Rule of Law.  You must of course know this because you do everything you can to censor and oppress the truth I am telling.  That is what happens with bigoted new immigrants, its comparative to the number of step parents who serious abuse step children – they have no connection to them so they find it more easily to be abusive without guilt.

I’ve been talking with Toby at Wairarapa TV who is freaking out currently because I warned him, out of courtesy, I was going to make a complaint to the Broadcasting Standards Authority about your horrendous propaganda about how you are Commercial Strength for Public Good – even saying it now makes me dry reach and cry (that is a literal comment by the way).  The art I am creating in response to this is Corporate Power for Public exploitation.  Corporate power for public persecution. Corporate HATE for public VIOLENCE.  So so many things I will be doing, new process I have is so cheap to do and so effective according to people I know.

Two weeks ago my daughter who lives in Whakatane had a bad car accident and could have died, she is very lucky.  She didn’t end up with any permanent injuries just a lot of bruising whiplash etc.  I was the first person Megan rang the day after, it was her birthday yesterday, she turned 24.  Ask a mother you know how they would feel if they couldn’t go to their child – no matter what age – and hug them.  Like those people around her are doing, like her boyfriends parents are doing, her boyfriends mother who she doesn’t know that well is their holding my baby comforting my baby.  I can’t go because I am too poor because ACC refuses to reinstate my care after winning two court cases nine years ago so I can return to work and afford to live.

Her father has been to see her and her sister (who just built a house in Solway) is going to see her.  I can’t send her a present and Megan only feels sorry for me, so both of my children barely speak to me and nobody ever asks me how things are because they know I would say OK when I am not copying and highly suicidal because of it (on top of the rape trauma that set this ball in motion 17 years ago – 17 years begging ACC for what I know I am entitled to and need).

She was down here several months ago because her father who lives in Palmerston North had a bad turn.  She came to Carterton for the night with her boyfriend and stayed with a friend, not with me.  I met her for a quick coffee first day they arrived.  We organised for them to come for brunch before they left to go back to Palmy the next day.  I had no money, someone had loaned me money to get my car warranted and three months rego, I used that buying food for brunch, only bacon, some nice bread and eggs and a few other things so they wouldn’t see I had no food in my cupboards BECAUSE I WAS SO ASHAMED AND DIDN’T WANT HER BOYFRIEND OR HER TO KNOW.  Why should my children be forced to buy me food when ACC are currently holding $10,000 in unpaid Independence Allowance they were supposed to reinstate 2010/11 when I won the two ACC court reviews.  Money they hold and gloat about it to WINZ who then tell me to go to the food bank because I’ve used up all my food grants.

This is just one of hundreds of inhuman living situations I am being subjected to, one of the hundreds of reasons to have absolutely no hope for the future, for being safe from dysfunctional and addicts in the community as well as violent abusive neo-liberal police.  I can’t save for my retirement like other people do, so when they talk about it I become extremely distressed knowing how dangerous and inhuman my living situation is going to be forever.  Killing myself would be the end to the suffering for myself and my children – rest of my family are just like you so I don’t care what happens to them.  I don’t have any friends who work any more after the last one (who I saved the life of during a heart emergency and was executor of her will) violently assaulted me and subjected me to a tirade of abuse so bad it could easily have been you standing there.  Telling me I was a loser who didn’t want to work, it was my fault I was poor, etc etc etc etc etc.

I look forward to your phone call to arrange a time, but I have no intention of doing anything less than a face to face meeting with you and whoever you think necessary.   It is essential that this meeting is recorded for my protection.  That includes local police or preferably Jason, the security guard at Masterton Court who I trust to protect me and you.  It is part of my extremely life-threatening disability Complex PTSD that I have violence issues.  Nothing I can do about it except understand our government purposely drive terrorised victims of crime and economic violence to physical violence against those around them, police etc.  To create jobs in your CORPORATE TERRORIST world and of course to create self-righteous indignation against those you know are being purposely persecuted and exploited and disenfranchised and marginalised and……….  I also developed a tourettes type aspect to my disorder and had it confirmed by medical professionals, I cannot stop the insults and swearing in my head from coming out of my mouth when I am insulted or patronised.

For 17 years taxpayers have been paying my wages and I have worked tireless and at great personal expense to do EVERYTHING within my power, knowledge and experience to ensure justice and right is upheld in New Zealand.  I have worked for below minimum wage and suffered the most horrific long term persecution, degradation and discrediting in my community because of my work.

I will be making this email public and again try to rally myself from the depths of suicidal hell in the neo-liberal darklands of Death Valley Wairarapa.  You can choose to ignore it or you can choose to stop persecuting people who DO NOT DESERVE IT and work out with me how to change your violent abusive behaviour and that of others who perpetrate HATE, rather than just respond with HATE SPEECH.

Hopefully this email won’t result in further economic, housing and police violence – which I am thinking it has about a 50/50 chance of doing.

To start the ball rolling getting my art, poetry, music etc into the faces and minds of the people I identify as harming people when they don’t understand the consequences of what they do is top priority and imperative.  Ensuring I am not financially disadvantaged for doing this is also important.

PLEASE CONTACT Toby WAIRARAPA TV if you want to engage with me and what I am trying to do – to help all New Zealanders and restore civil society in New Zealand.  Please reassure him my idea of doing shows that explain all the constitutional laws and UN treaties etc NZ government are supposed to act under would be OK with you.  Explaining to people about human rights, disabled rights, civil rights to protest, economic social and cultural rights, how to participate in a democracy and what Rule of Law means etc is actually supported by Trust House and he can go ahead and start to organise it.

You should also go to my website and see my latest idea about redirection of ALL CHARITY MONEY into people in need – where it always should have been, not in extravagant sports, arts, tourism and business projects.  Where Trust House has become a neo-liberal abomination due to this insane focus away from people in need, victims of crime, people hurt at work, home sport etc, people who get sick, etc etc.  You really must know how many people in this community completely despise Trust House, they’ll take money from them of course, but most people in this community are ashamed.  Trust House might have worked when NZ had a mostly decent society prior to 1984 neo-liberal takeover but not now – now what you do is sickening and deeply disturbing.    Tell me do you come up with those marketing phrases to brainwash yourselves that what you do is good, or does someone else????  Ewwwwwww

NOTE: I will be continuing and stepping up my non-violent graffiti, along with encouraging others to do it.  However I know how angry people are right now, angry and unwell after years of this elitist insanity, so make sure you don’t blame me for people blaming you for the HATE you incite.  I’ve spent 17 years trying to stop it and over that time told Trust House many times what was happening, only to be ignored.

I truly hope you are deeply ashamed in the part you and others have played to drive suicide in our region, I truly hope you have the courage, ethics and morals to take responsibility for the violence and harm you have caused with your ignorance and bigotry.  I truly hope you take this opportunity I am offering you to address your horrendous behaviour and share what innocent decent artists and intellectuals like me are going through.  I never used to understand I was intelligent until a psychiatric report said I was intelligent, didn’t have a personality disorder and am not delusional – which of course makes everybody who disagrees with me, all of those things.

Kia kaha and aroha to the poor and powerless

I gave the receptionist my phone numbers, here they are again, 379 6403 or 027 3040120, wonder if your staff think of poorly of you as so many of us do.  Must be shameful for them knowing what you do and how people they know and care about are treated during this government created housing crisis.

Sincerely
JR
UN Civil Society Activist
HUMAN SEWAGE

Corrupt New Zealand Police vs disabled suicidal UN Civil Society Activist

Thought I’d post some emails between me and police at the moment, they follow the general behaviour by cruel corrupt neo-liberal controlled police I have been subjected to over many years now.  Just for asking for health care from ACC (required by law to provide professional treatment care rehabilitation and safe housing to VICTIMS OF CRIME) after winning two court cases nine years ago.

I did everything I possibly could to get Legal Aid and a lawyer, they ignored me.  The Forensic Mental Health assessments I told her were by people who were not legally supposed to be assessing me because of conflicts of interest – all three of them.  Someone associated with Mason Durie was supposed to be, not these neo-liberal terrorist murderers who have made NZ No 1 in the world for driving women to self-harm, youth to suicide and No 5 for suicide in general.  Forensic Mental Health services and Directorate of mental health ARE CORRUPT, THEY KILL PEOPLE, THEY ARE THE ONES DENYING SERVICES AND HARMING PEOPLE.  Its not necessarily those at the cliff face, they often do their best – its the people at the top who are corrupt – the ones getting obscene amounts of money.  I know this is true, I deal with these murderers!
Here is the first email making a formal complaint to police, I should have remained cynical and not got my hopes up 🙁

From: Jayne Routhan
Sent: Tuesday, 14 May 2019 10:19 AM
To: HANSEN, Jennifer
Subject: Report Forensic Mental Health Services perverting course of justice

Hi,
I know you won’t do anything about this but UN staff told me to make sure I do things in writing and get copies.  I know my file says I’m a nutter and only protest about not having my ACC care reinstated after winning two reviews nine years ago because I am a nutter.  Its not true of course, but then what is any more, when you know how corrupt and cruel people in govt, police, health, law etc are because of what is happening to you its overwhelming.
Forensic Mental Health services have perverted the course of justice, they have sent three different psychiatric assessors all with conflicts of interest.   Medical Council rules for health professionals providing third party reports, including for the court, requires assessors to remove themselves from an assessment if they have a conflict of interest.  Which Peter, Justin Barry-Walsh and David Chaplow all have.   Also making the assessment the day after I am due in court on 23 May in order to delay proceedings and I’m guessing so Judge Morris is out of the way is criminal.
Attached are my complaints to Medical Council, but I know the law and I know whoever is sending the people above, rather than someone recommended by Mason Durie is perverting the course of justice.   It has been almost 18months since I threw washable red poster paint over the white ribbon banner in Masterton police station.  In protest at being violently assaulted and threatened with worse by local police for a NON-VIOLENT completely justifyable CHALK protest about being prosecuted for the second time for Misuse of a Telephone for phoning ACC very unwell screaming for my care to be reinstated, after waiting eight years since I won the reviews.
This is a valid report of a crime, please advise if you are not going to act on it – rather than doing nothing so there is nothing in writing to prove you are ignoring serious constitutional crimes against a disabled Civil Society Activist – who has never hurt anybody – who just asking for health care she is entitled to and desperately needs so she can return to work, can live with dignity, not want to kill herself, be safe and have a normal life like you.
Sincerely
JR
Civil Society Activist
HUMAN SEWAGE

From: HANSEN, Jennifer <Jennifer.Hansen@police.govt.nz>
Sent: Tuesday, 28 May 2019 8:26 AM
To: JR
Subject: Complaint

Hi Jayne,

As discussed with you I spoke with both prosecutions and court staff.

With regards to Legal Aid, you were advised in July last year that your application had been denied and had 15 days to respond. I am told you can reapply but do not know what the outcome of that application would be. I recall you saying that you find filling out forms difficult or stressful so please let me know if I can assist with this.

With regards to the medical assessments ordered, these are ordered by Forensic Services. They decide on the date, time and the person to complete the assessment. The court do not have a say in this.

I’m sorry but as it stands I do not see this matter as being a perversion of the course of justice.

Regards,

Jen Hansen

Senior Sergeant JHAA93

Response Manager, Wairarapa Police

jennifer.hansen@police.govt.nz

021909085

 

NOTE:  It is well documented in my health information I am not able to fill out forms, I was never allowed a lawyer to help me in the past 18 months since I threw red paint on the White Ribbon Banner in Masterton police station for police violently assaulting me, lying in court able it and IPCA doing nothing.  In fact the court process I was in when the police lied was a perversion of justice when my lawyer at the time was harassed by ACC lawyers Meredith Connell.  But I can’t get a lawyer to appeal the conviction and I am now so unwell I can’t do it myself – as I have in the past.

I contacted Legal Aid Services many times, I was abused for saying I had a disability, I was insulted and abused for begging for a lawyer.  If I didn’t have a lawyer and I definitely don’t have an advocate – only rich people get advocates, they cost money and I don’t have any money because I don’t have the health care I am entitled to so I can return to work.  I even wrote a formal complaint to the Legal Aid Board saying I couldn’t get Legal Aid – those people refusing me legal aid rejected it and refused to give it to them.

I was in the Masterton police station ABSOLUTELY TERRIFIED within 20 mins of Jennifer offering to help with the form, my car petrol light was flashing all the way home from Masterton.   I had flashback after flashback in the foyer from the excessive violence and psychological abuse I had been subjected to by Masterton police both in the cells and in the foyer.  Jennifer knew this, she watched it happening and me verbalising what was going on, she completely ignored it.  HATE STARTS WITH EX-SILVER FERN JENNIFER HANSEN, ewwwww.  Bet she only got that job for one reason, ewwwwww, she’s good looking and fit, not saying she screwed her way to the top, just saying she got that job because she is completely obedient to authority and hates all people disabled and poor people.

Starting to get overwhelmed posting this, have so many emails that could prove what they are doing to me, but as soon as I start going through them my stress disorder goes off the scale and I start wanting to self-harm and suicide.  God or Jesus or holy spirit or any spiritual entity who cares about suffering of innocent people please send me someone, please send help, please I am begging you, there is nobody else who will help me, I have nobody to turn to, everybody lies about what is going on.

 

Sent: Monday, 3 June 2019 5:43 AM
To: HANSEN, Jennifer
Subject: Can’t stop crying

Woke up this morning, delayed reaction to your hate and corruption, all I can think about is you and what you are doing to me.  Its stupid of me really, to expect justice, honesty and integrity – I should know by now NZ senior police aren’t like that under the rule of neo-liberal terrorists.

Its stupid of me really to want to kill myself because of what you have said and done, to be rejected over and over again when I beg for help I am supposed to have so I can return to work.

Wonder how many other people you do it to???  Do you all get together and laugh about me?  Try to work out more ways to terrorise me and drive me to suicide to shut me up – or of course what neo-liberals want and have me locked up in a psych hospital or prison???  I have never hurt anybody, I don’t understand why I can’t have health care I am supposed to have so I can return to work – they set it up so people can’t live on welfare, they rant on about everybody working, yet they have refused me health care for nine years after winning two court cases?????  I don’t understand why you are letting them do this to me when it is a crime????

Watched a documentary on a country in Sth America somewhere, where neo-liberals were paying violent gangs to drive the impoverished local population from their land.  A leader of one of the biggest gangs told the journalist how they had been approached but refused – others in the gang left and took up their offer.  The reason the gang boss gave for turning down the $millions was this proverb:
“Tears of the poor will catch up with you one day.”
So many local people living in despair after 30 years of American neo-liberals advancing the rich and persecuting the poor for profit.  So many local people FORCED to live off begging and charity to survive.  You were an elite athlete, you must have lived off charity money, how did it make you feel?  Or is that acceptable to neo-liberals and its only if you’re a victim of crime who can’t work full time that you supposed to feel like worthless human sewage.
Actually, my heart has been broken about you rejecting my serious and valid complaints of crimes against me since I came in for you to fill out those forms.  Its like you took Thor’s hammer to my chest and heart, with all your might you swung it and hit me as far as you possibly could from you.  Its part of this ANOMIE thing everybody is talking about now, the complete breakdown of society due to the breakdown of social bonds that is a direct result of neo-liberals advancing the rich and persecuting the poor for profit.
Why are you doing this to me, what did I ever do to you?  How can you even think it is your job to reject and hurt me, when it is your job to uphold the law for rich and poor.  That is why police swear and  oath to the Queen, or has the monarchy issued some statement of hatred and degrading inadequate charity to poor.  If she has and if the government and the police expect human sewage like me to beg for food and shelter every week THEN WHY DON’T YOU ALL JUST SAY THAT – WHY DON’T YOU PUT THAT IN THE NEWS – so at least rich people don’t HATE poor people for the situation they are in.   If middle class and rich working people, family and friends included, knew human sewage like me was expected to be unemployed and beg for food then they wouldn’t abuse or reject me for it – would they.
I don’t understand I really don’t, I thought I lived in a country that followed the law????   I don’t understand, all the marketing I see about police says you are good people, when I know you are not.   I don’t understand why I am not allowed my ACC care reinstated so I can return to work and at least be able to afford to live????   I don’t understand, I keep thinking I understand and then I sink into a place of utter hopelessness and despair, because I really don’t understand why you personally would do this to me – I never hurt you, I never hurt anybody – THEY HURT ME.
So many tears, so many years, so much despair & those in power don’t care.
I’m sorry I would rather die than beg – that’s why young people kill themselves you know – they are proud and don’t want to beg.  They know being given charity is a way of controlling and degrading someone, I know being given charity is a way of controlling and degrading me.
To know how corrupt our government are and how corrupt the police are regarding persecuting disabled mentally injured victims of crime is beyond my ability to cope.  I’m trying to express it through my art, working every day, mostly in tears, sometimes with courage and hope, but mostly with despair and crying.  Feels like I will never stop crying knowing how cruel people are because they believe in religion – neo-liberalism has been classified as a religion.
More police coming on board but less access to them, now we’re not allowed to phone the police station – that’s a neo-liberal corruption tactic by the way.  They do it with ACC, WINZ and so many other organisations put there to help people – help neo-liberals call socialism so they can say they don’t have to do it – even though its still law – we don’t live by rule of law anymore those do we Jennifer.  That’s what rejecting my complaints of crime are about, along with prosecuting me for minor charges for my legal justified protests.  I can’t stop crying, I have to go…. I have no hope, I wish I was dead.
HUMAN SEWAGE

Medical Council complaint, proof of New Zealand government corruption & cruelty

3 May 2019

 

Medical Council of NZ

PO Box 10509

The Terrace

WELLINGTON

 

Dear Sir/Madam,

 

This letter is to form part of my complaint about Justin Barry-Walsh and others using psychological abuse/torture in an attempt to drive me to suicide.

 

I am not sure how to talk about the background to this as it is very traumatising for me, I have communication impairments and need someone to insure I relate all the relevant information needed for the Medical Council to make a decision. Can you please help me work out how to do this, I am not sure myself, whether phone or face to face. I have no support to do this from anybody else.

 

This is in regard to being in court for my legal and valid protests about police violence, being illegally denied health care, punitive use of the justice system, government corruption, gross injustices in mental health and housing sector, etc. Legal Aid refused me legal aid, even when the judge said they were required to provide it so I had a lawyer.

 

On 1 May I heard from Nelda Day court officer that the second psych assessment would be 24 May, THE DAY AFTER I was due in court. The date of 23 May was made four weeks ago, the Forensic Service was required to provide a suitably qualified culturally appropriate ‘impartial’ psych assessment as requested by Judge Morris before the next court date – not the day after. The 23rd was chosen because I have a long term relationship of sorts with Judge Morris and she is determined to do whatever she can to get me the health care and justice I am entitled to under law – so I don’t end up in court repeatedly for my ongoing protests. She was going to be there on 23 May, she may not be there 10 days later.

 

I was advised the assessor was going to be Dr David Chaplow, ex Director of mental health and one of the people I have spent the past 17 yrs complaining/protesting about.   The first assessor was not who the court staff were told it would be, it was a very gay sounding man called Peter who only 18 months before wrote a report saying I didn’t want services – which was a horrendous lie.   Then I got Dr Barry-Walsh who I thought to be trustworthy, but obviously wasn’t from his report. Now they want Dr Chaplow, when I had requested Mason Drury or ANYBODY he recommended who knew Whare Tapa Wha and assessed on a culturally appropriate basis, ie as a Pakeha New Zealander. The judge supported this in her formal request to Forensic Services, it was ignored.

 

Finding out the court had organised the psych assessment for the day after I was due in court made me very angry and I challenged court staff about this.   I was told to contact Forensic Services as they were the ones who organised it, there was nothing they could do. Giving consideration to my extremely poor mental health what they were doing was psychological torture, vindictive, punitive use of the justice system and criminal under Sections 150A and 151 of the Crimes Act. It is also a perversion of justice which is a crime and subject to 7 years jail if convicted and of course many other human rights and disability rights laws.  I looked on the website and tried to phone head of Forensic Services Dr Emery-Palmer http://www.mhaids.health.nz/about-us/directors-of-area-mental-health-services/ given the seriousness of what was happening.

 

I went through to a call centre, the person asked me who I was because psychiatrists did not talk with patients who phoned, I told her I was not a patient. She phoned through to Dr Emery-Palmer and returned to me saying the doctor had said I was a patient and not to put me through. I reiterated I was not a patient and tried to explain the situation, the woman hung up on me.

 

As a writer I have a pretty good grasp of the English language and just to make sure looked up the word patient.   I am definitely not a patient by definition of the word, I am not registered with any health provider (am not allowed to register, the waiting list is 600 people long – mostly wealthy immigrants), I have not received any services from mental health for many years – no matter how many times I begged for professional health care I was entitled to. I have not received anything from public mental health services, except some counselling 25 years ago and the odd bit of social work (which is not health care). I did have some interaction with an Occupational Therapist in 2009 but when ACC illegally withdrew my actual professional rehabilitation the OT couldn’t cope and rejected me also. I had been working with a very professional and amazing OT Glenda vandervenLong at the time who was funded by ACC. The interaction with Hugh Gaywood-Eyre OT was more a therapeutic interaction, there was no ‘health care’ involved.

 

The last interaction I had with Hugh was at Masterton police station, I was on the floor with my arms around the ankles of the social worker sitting beside him begging for health care. Hugh told me to get up and stop embarrassing myself, that I knew as well as him there were no longer services in mental health. He left the service not long after that, I knew him through a club I belonged to for a while, we have discussed what happened, he left MH services as he couldn’t cope with how badly they treated people.

 

Being a patient would require some sort of regular interaction with the same person, I can’t recall that happening for a very long time. It distresses me greatly that other people appear to get professional health care and I do not. I have never understood why and people treat me like I’m a liar and delusional when I tell them what is happening to me, because it doesn’t happen to them. Hopefully the Medical Council and police can work out what has been happening to me. The only possible reason I can think of is my public protests and formal complaints, it is illegal to harm or disadvantage someone who makes a complaint.

 

With everything the media and government say about mental health services and the horrendous ‘suicide promotion’ propaganda we are all subjected to day after day, my mental health is denigrated even further by my experience of EXACTLY THE OPPOSITE to what is expected.

 

It appears to me Dr Emery-Palmer may be part of this appalling abusive behaviour by Forensic Services, I truly believe only a police investigation would be able to explain what is happening and how many it is happening to. I know from the laws I read it is not allowed to happen to me or anybody else.

 

Mental health services have more power over people and the opportunity for more abuses of power than police. What is happening to me might explain New Zealand’s world leading suicide, self-harm, domestic violence and eating disorder rates. Perhaps I am part of a targeted group of disabled people who are prevented from accessing professional health care, using professional health and rehabilitation models and whose valid complaints are illegally rejected.

 

Please make this stop, please, I have never hurt anybody, I barely drink, I don’t do drugs, I don’t steal, I don’t rip people off, I don’t bludge off people, I don’t gossip, I don’t gamble, I am not a sexual deviant or pervert of any sort. I am an honest good person just wanting health care I need and am entitled to so I can return to work for wages, so I can live with dignity and in safety without having to beg for food. My house is tidy and clean, my gardens are done, I share jars of jam & pickle I make with others, most of it goes to waste (when I get given fruit or produce people don’t want). I don’t want to live like this as an outcast of society, I am intelligent, I have reports that say it, I have a report from Justin Barry-Walsh 6 years ago that said I was intelligent, didn’t have a personality disorder and am not delusional. That is still true, unfortunately I don’t know if Justin is as sound minded.

 

I am 54 years old, why are they doing this to me, I am going to be destitute the rest of my life if they don’t help me, there is no point in living if this is what my life is going to be like.   Please I want to meet my grandchildren, please I don’t want to be despised by my family and the community, please I havn’t done anything wrong and I don’t understand why this is happening to me when every law and report I read says exactly the opposite should be happening. Please if I don’t work I know I will be raped, harmed and exploited again, please help me, this is what is happening in the ‘darklands’ where I live every day. Its very hard to avoid junkies and being told repeatedly to interact with very self-righteous wealthy Christians is extremely offensive. The times I have gone to churches for support I have ended up being the one supporting them, working for them for nothing, often doing things for people who were getting health services and had safe stable homes to live in.

 

Did I tell you about them cancelling an x-ray the doctor at A & E said I needed, so I went there and was told there was no appointment?   Did I tell you about mental health staff gossiping to people in the community about what a bad person I was (who then came and told me). If I was a patient of mental health services then I would be able to make formal complaints about this gossip and the horrendous violations of my most basic rights, I am not so I can’t.   How can somebody be a PATIENT of a health system that completely rejects them?   They treat sex offenders and abusive thieving junkies better than they treat their victims, I know that for sure.

 

What is happening to me is a criminal act and a deliberate perversion of justice

 

 

Yours sincerely

 

 

JR

HUMAN SEWAGE

 

Oranga Tamariki is ‘snatching babies’ & fascist Tracey Martin loves it

Here is the news article – and like other people I know there are children who should be protected and taken from abusive parents – I ALSO KNOW FOR A FACT there are many disabled parents who are being illegally denied ACC, health care and safe social housing who are losing their children – THAT IS ILLEGAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  THAT IS A CRIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Refer to NZ Disability Strategy, human rights laws and Signed ratified UN treaty on persons with disabilities.

https://www.newshub.co.nz/home/shows/2019/05/oranga-tamariki-isn-t-snatching-babies-children-s-minister-tracey-martin.html?fbclid=IwAR3jx-Wj0mbCazChVJkx9KJPlZazsunixr2JSeP7itVE4yMW0OpKNJbpWek

I can’t work out if Martin is corrupt or extremely ignorant, bigoted and full of hate towards those people neo-liberals have impoverished and persecuted for the past 30 years – that is obvious from her comments.   Will make sure I send her all my details about how I am being persecuted for my non-violent legal protests demanding the professional treatment care rehabilitation and housing EVERY SINGLE MENTALLY INJURED ABUSED MOTHER, FATHER, WOMAN, MAN AND CHILD VICTIM OF VIOLENT CRIME IS ENTITLED TO UNDER ACC LAW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why am I being targeted Tracey??????  I know a woman who had her children removed from her care AFTER she went in for surgery on a tumour.   The kids  have tried to run away multiple times, a new self-righteous social worker came in and wanted to make her mark ewwww.

Ask Tracey why our government made social workers HEALTH WORKERS a few years ago???  While the continue to refuse to acknowledge counsellors as health workers.   They made social workers health professionals under law SO IT WOULD BE EASIER TO STEAL THE CHILDREN OF MENTALLY INJURED ABUSED VICTIMS OF DOMESTIC/FLATMATE VIOLENCE.   This is a result of our illegal housing crisis and the government refusing to provide housing they are required to by law.

What is happening to me is part of this, NZ First are well aware of what is happening to me, Ron Mark lives in my town and I email him regularly to keep him up to date.

BELOW IS A COPY OF THE EMAIL I JUST SENT TO HER

Sent: Sunday, 19 May 2019 11:23 AM
To: Tracey Martin MP; ron.mark@parliament.govt.nz; winston.peters@parliament.govt.nz; news TVNZ; Breakfast TVNZ; news@newshub.co.nz; United Nations Association of New Zealand
Subject: ACC corruption, torture and criminal negligence in relation to mentally injured abused parents -mostly women #metoo

Hi Tracey,
YOu should ask Ron Mark and others who I am, been writing to NZ First for years about corruption at ACC and them illegally denying disabled mentally injured abuse victims the treatment care rehabilitation and safe stable housing they are entitled to under ACC legislation and multiple other constitutional laws, disability laws and of course multiple ratified UN treaties.
As Ron/NZ First knows what is happening to me and how ACC have perverted the course of justice in several ‘criminal’ cases of my LEGAL AND NON-VIOLENT JUSTIFIED PROTESTS, your part cannot pretend you are ignorant of what is NOT HAPPENING for abused women.
Your admittance that cruel immoral illegal neo-liberal economic terrorism is causing these children to be taken from their families – which causes intergenerational trauma (not wellbeing like the budget) with all members of the family.  Especially the children, I know a family now where the children were taken from their mother when she went in for surgery on a tumor.   One of the children tried to jump out of a moving MSD vehicle because they took her so far away from her family – she was running back home and OT didn’t like it.
We all know there are some children that need to be protected – but we also know there are now far more who are just being removed from families because they are terrorised poor.   You’re taking kids from families who are so poor they can’t function and giving them to foster families where there are two parents and one of them works full time – then you are going to give them even more money to look after these children.  WHY DON’T YOU INVEST THAT MONEY IN THE FAMILIES YOU ARE TAKING THE KIDS FROM – LIKE YOU ARE REQUIRED TO BY LAW????
 
I am absolutely disgusted, you really can’t be that ignorant Tracey – here is my social media, now I have emailed you and told you what is happening to me just for protesting LEGALLY about ACC and health care/housing for victims of crime – you can’t say you didn’t know when the international criminal court become involved.  No hope of getting any sort of justice under NZ court system – Judge Morris at the District Court can’t even get me legal aid or the health care I have been waiting for from ACC for 9 years after winning two reviews!
But then you already know all this, don’t you Tracey, you know and you don’t care because you just want to make money out of these people.
Here are the facts www.jrmurphypoet.com   YouTube JR Murphy Poet and facebook /jrmurphypoetmusician – if you want to know more get Ron and Winston to show you all the emails I have sent over the years since I was raped – when my  girls were 5 & 6.  Thankfully they are gone now and living successful lives, now you can’t take them from me like they tried to do many times, when I begged for the health care I am entitled to under ACC and other laws.
Social workers are the worst, most poorly trained people in New Zealand – ALL OF THEM have histories of abuse and all they want to do is hurt people they perceive as hurting a child that was once like them.  God help us all.  I have had dealings with social workers, they are truly horrendous people who have serious issues with abuses of power.  I was in an assessment and the social worker said it was bad parenting to cry in front of your children.
You’ve been sucked into the American Libertarian fascist hatred we are all suffering under – you need to spend a few days with me, I’ll explain where you are going wrong and how you can ACTUALLY HELP CHILDREN AND FAMILIES AND IT WILL COST A LOT LESS FOR THE TAXPAYER!
Sincerely
JR
Civil Society Activist
HUMAN SEWAGE

 

Email to NZ Independent Police Conduct Authority about my latest complaint –

I had to post this email about my latest complaint of police turning up at my home when they not supposed to be here, they wanted it forwarded to the IPCA who sent me a standard email about the process.  The irony of me currently being up on charges for Misuse of a Telephone because of IPCA is hilarious, couldn’t stop myself from writing what I thought.  Can’t imagine what goes through the head of the person who first reads this email, lol.

Dear Corrupt cruel neo-fascist team,

Any organisation that refuses to put a persons name on the letter is corrupt – everybody knows that.  It wasn’t me who made the complaint, I contacted police extremely distraught trying to find an email address for someone in authority who could stop what abusive local police are doing, they are the ones who wanted me to make a formal complaint –  they are the ones who referred it to you not me.   I couldn’t stop crying when they wanted it, because I am currently up on ILLEGAL CRUEL OPPRESSIVE FASCIST criminal charges for the last time I made a complaint of unwarranted violence by local police that you ignored and I phoned you to tell you what I truly thought of you and what should happen to the corrupt people in your organisation.   What happens to me and others I know should be happening to you and those people you know – that would be justice.
Of course there are other factors in my complaint, the years of illegal harassment and intimidation by CORRUPT police officers and IPCA staff allowing it to continue and get worse.  Please refer to all my previous complaints that you refused to do anything about in the hope I will kill myself or commit some violent crime so you can have me locked up and made homeless.
Other factors like Forensic Mental Health Services staff and Directorate of Mental Health staff and Parliamentary Services and senior police participating in perverting the course of justice in my current case – which I am being denied legal aid and a lawyer for – which includes your charge of Misuse of a Telephone.   From one of the corrupt/unprofessional reports I have received it appears there may be people in your organisation also be involved in illegally denying reinstatement of my ACC entitlements (which include $18/wk for the past 10 years) and using the justice process in a punitive way.
It appears from what the officer on the phone told me, local police are well aware they are not to come to my home unless to exercise a warrant – like when they came to terrorise me for the warrant they issued for your trumped up charges – I self-harmed and went through an extremely terrifying suicide episode because of you people – what you do to me is HATE IN ACTION.   Local police are also supposed to phone me if some self-righteous ignorant bigot has called them saying I was threatening to kill myself,  which they didn’t – even that terrifies me but its better than them turning up at my home.  Which is also a gross violation of the Magna Carta and other laws you neo-liberals/neo-fascists ignore in order to advance the rich and persecute the poor so you can profit from them.  I have new neighbours living on both sides of me, they saw those police officers, having police repeatedly at my home ensures I am consistently and over time marginalised and discriminated against.
Just wrote this for a laugh, its all true but I know how corrupt you are so I know nothing is ever going to happen.  A UN inspector told me once to keep making complaints and one day I would get justice and there would be a useful paper trail to follow to prove what has been happening to me as a Civil Society Actor living under Westminister law in a democracy.   Punitive use of the law and justice system to harm a disabled Civil Society Activist fighting for the health care and lawyer she is entitled to – is about as corrupt cruel and immoral as you can get.
Best of luck with that.
Sincerely
JR
Civil Society Activist
HUMAN SEWAGE

From: Independent Police Conduct Authority <case.resolution@ipca.govt.nz>
Sent: Wednesday, 15 May 2019 12:48 PM
To: jrouthan@hotmail.co.nz
Subject:  Your Complaint To IPCA – Ref: 18-2483,
As required by law, your complaint to Police of 10 May 2019, for an incident that occurred on 9 May 2019, was notified by Police to the Authority.
Your complaint will be assigned to a member of staff within the Authority’s Case Resolution Team who will assess your complaint and contact you in due course. This process may take up to two months.
If you have any other information relevant to your complaint that you would like the Authority to consider, please forward this to the Authority at case.resolution@ipca.govt.nz or to P O Box 25221, Wellington 6146.
Please refer to the Authority’s website [www.ipca.govt.nz]www.ipca.govt.nz for further information about the Authority or the complaints process.
Yours sincerely
 

Case Resolution Team

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NZ Mosque survivors get compensation no other victim of violence gets – WTF?

I can’t believe what is happening, I have spent years fighting for the rights of victims of crime to get professional health care through ACC and other entitlements – which includes a safe stable home!  Now a bunch of muslims get it and I would imagine nobody y else – from the wording of this news item below.

They are talking about compensation for wages ie $$$$$ – not prof health care – they will never get that because ACC doesn’t believe in it.  What enrages me is no disabled person rotting on welfare or even temporarily unemployed, who has lived in New Zealand since they were born gets any of this.   If you sustain or reveal a sensitive claim (which includes sexual and physical violence) when you are unemployed FOR ANY REASON then you get no money through ACC and no professional health care either (you get no professional health models applied).   Mostly ACC drives people onto disability and invalids benefits as fast as they are run by a corrupt terrorist neo-fascist YANK ‘Dame’ Paula Rebstock.

Grrrrrrr what is not said by our government and the media in this article is criminal – telling people half the story and making it look like only Muslims were going to get this help.  Its disgusting our government are only doing this BECAUSE OF the ChCh shooting, this has been happening to victims of crime in NZ for decades.  It is again aimed at people who are working at the time, anybody unemployed or sick or traumatised for any reason and not working is going to be persecuted – just like they are now.

Our government and media are so corrupt its overwhelming – I know they believe their own propaganda – which I suppose is the beginning of the end for a society in deep decay.  I have begged that maggot Megan Woods for help for years and been ignored, FOR YEARS.

http://www.msn.com/en-nz/news/newsevent/govt-to-ensure-traumatised-victims-can-get-financial-help/ar-AABpv9q?ocid=ientp

Building Homes for citizens is the law, building infrastructure is not

Jacinda Ardern and our corrupt cruel criminal neo-liberal extremist government HAVE MADE A CHOICE to use our country’s resources to fund and build infrastructure like, roads, schools, hospitals etc.  This is obviously a sign mass immigration of the world’s globalist rich will continue at illegal levels causing racism, dissension, envy and hate.    NONE OF THESE PROJECTS ARE REQUIRED TO BE PROVIDED UNDER NZ LAW OR  UNITED NATIONS TREATIES – while the disabled and poor local population will be denied culturally appropriate housing and adequate resources to live with dignity – WHICH IS REQUIRED UNDER LAW AND TREATY.

I’ve chalked and protested outside Treasury many times, not for a while because I am so poor I can’t get to Wellington to protest, which costs $22 on the train.  It is quite obvious from everything I have read that Treasury are the ones controlling and demanding extremist neo-liberal economics be forced onto our population.   NZ taxpayer doesn’t even own the Treasury building at No 1 the Terrace, they sold it off and now have to pay massive rent to the foreign owners.  They also lie on their website about how they care about people etc etc.  THEY DO NOT – these people are the money men, they are obsessed with money and greed, they are violent cruel extremists who are the leading cause of suicide, violence and crime in this country.  They are the ones refusing money for housing of disabled and poor, they are the ones demanding people on welfare be kept below the poverty line, etc etc.

Below is our corrupt neolib media maggots telling us half the story as usual.   New Zealand government used to employ the workers for the infrastructure projects they are talking about – now they contract it out to the filthy rich ‘middle men’ of this planet, who employ sub-conractors they can exploit and rip off.   It costs way more in taxes to pay profits to construction companies, middle men and sub-contractors than government to do it – stupid New Zealanders still demand privatisation of course.

https://www.tvnz.co.nz/one-news/new-zealand/government-planning-6-1-billion-worth-construction-projects

Open Letter to WINZ Masterton manager Michelle & Jacinda Ardern & royal family

Dear Michelle & those who control her,

It the next morning after what happened yesterday, I am still incredibly fragile and on the verge of tears, my eyes are swollen I cried so much yesterday.  I can’t believe how inhuman cruel and callous you were, what is it about a desperate destitute terrified persecuted suicidal abuse victim that turns you into this???   The only word I can find to describe your appalling cruelty is EVIL.

You are going to give me an extra $7 when my rent is going up $40.   I know people living in motels for $150 a night and WINZ pay their rent – why won’t you pay mine???????   They don’t have to pay it back either – or do they????  Its the government who required to provide housing to disabled people, under the law, they havn’t and they show no signs of doing it so more people suffer, suicide, harm and are harmed.  WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO US MICHELLE – YOU ARE THE MANAGER OF WINZ MASTERTON – YOU MUST KNOW WHY THE GOVERNMENT CONTINUE WITH THESE SUICIDE CAUSING HATRED AGAINST DISABLED AND POOR FORCED TO ROT ON WELFARE.

When I phoned you I had been unable to get myself out of bed all morning, I had been trying to cope with the huge increase in my rent, trying to forget it was going to happen, trying to forget that things were about to get much much worse when I already couldn’t cope.   Having that sexual pervert contact me though the accommodation sign I put up at the supermarket made me even more frightened.

You do understand my behaviour is related to extreme overwhelming fear after years of medical neglect, criminal negligence, violence and discrimination by ACC, police, MOH, MSD and others.   I am not mentally ill, there is nothing dysfunctional about how my brain is reacting, it is completely normal to be terrorised to the point of Complex PTSD after this many years of persecution by neo-liberal extremist economic religious beliefs being implemented.  The way people who WERE PURPOSELY IMPOVERISHED were treated after 100,000s became unemployed with this new economic religion was criminal.  I still hope and pray one day those who did it and changed welfare laws especially to be cruel and degrading to those who WERE NO LONGER ALLOWED TO WORK will be prosecuted in a criminal court – and of course humiliated in public.

I have a mental injury, not a mental illness and as it sounds my brain is completely normal just my environment causing the damage and ongoing dysfunction – that is what neo-liberals want and get after 30 years, it insures people are kept terrified and they can create jobs and profits for drug companies, lawyers, security industry etc.

Why would you insult me on the phone like that when I was experiencing such overwhelming despair – Tina Hemi would never ever have insulted me like you did.  Obviously you have never been around someone suicidal and HATE them like most people do, like our government do, like neo-liberals do.   Why can’t you listen to the despair you create, I would imagine every single person who has the misfortune of having to deal with WINZ cries themselves to sleep many many times, your organisation is so degrading and demeaning.  Although rich people who turning 65 love it, especially if they are still working at high paid jobs.

How do you reconcile that with the suffering and economic violence you commit against disabled poor people like myself?   That old rich people in good jobs are going to get welfare when they turn 65, I would imagine you would do that so would be in complete agreement with it.  After all they wouldn’t have made you manager if you weren’t doing what neo-liberals in power wanted you to – and do it with conviction – you are certainly good at that.

If you are not going to hear my desperate screams for health care, justice and decent work, then who is, someone on the street perhaps?  A self-righteous Christian perhaps that wants to hug and insult you, telling you its only temporary and things will get better if you are a good person.   I am a good person Michelle, I understand the rape was just something bad that happened, but what the government, ACC, my family and ‘friends’ did to me after was worse than being raped.  What you are doing to me now is worse than being raped, the trauma I felt after yesterday is like getting over a rape or an attempted murder.

That’s what being as suicidal as I was yesterday is like, being the victim of your best friend trying to kill you, you made that feeling so much worse.  I have to sit on the side of my bed rocking backwards and forwards trying not to go to the knife drawer and end it, it is a living nightmare, torment and of course psychological torture.  You did that to me Michelle, I am not mentally ill for what happened – I walk around trying to pretend everything is OK and going to be OK, then it just all comes out and I can’t hold it back.  You would see this a lot with the people you terrorise, degrade and persecute, I would imagine the more intelligent and harmed by violence they are the worse it is.

Someone told me you have a lot fewer people forced to come in begging for food and money to live, that must make it so much easier for you, not having to look these people in the eye.  But then as manager you would seldom see the consequences of your cruelty, easier to keep doing it when you don’t have to face it.  That is what I have found over the years of protesting about being denied professional health care, rehabilitation and state house I am entitled to under ACC and other laws.  Books on abuses of power and cruelty are filled with it.

Check out the Milgram Experiment on youtube or the Stanford Prison experiment – you are the  person flicking the switch to kill people because someone in authority over you says, someone in a white coat says I am mentally disturbed and not to listen to me – but you know that’s not true, don’t you Michelle.   You are the violent guard enjoying his power over others, I am the prisoner they keep putting in the cupboard.

Please explain to me why the meeting Tina & Richard at WINZ were trying to organise between ACC, police, mental health, WINZ and myself was cancelled?   Don’t I at least have the right to know what happened and what was said, under the OIA and Privacy ACt I am entitled to a copy of my file, please provide that.  I would imagine the government is so corrupt they have avoided keeping emails or only done illegal things to harm me by phone, could you please write down WHY this meeting failed.   Please tell me why its OK I don’t have a doctor, why I don’t have professional health care when I won two court cases in 2010/11.  Please tell me why, please help me understand why I am being treated so cruelly when I am so unwell and all I want to do is go back to work and be safe in my own home.

All WINZ and government talk about is how people should work, I want to work more than anything, please help me be able to do that, please I am begging you.  At the moment I am so unwell terrorised being in a social situation wouldn’t be possible.  But my art and creativity is off the scale with the amount of stress and trauma I am being subjected to, why can’t we use that?   I not only do art about how bad my life is and how bad neo-liberal terrorism is, I do other stuff, lots of stuff, plays especially which could be world famous and perfect for tourists.   Stories about birds and races around  The Pinnacles, Palliser bay Sweeper,  Cook Strait, Harbour Hairpin, Wainui hill, Mount Aorangi, it goes over and over in my head.  I can see it as a play done by children in schools, a play done by professional actors at skate parks and other venues and of course a movie on the scale of Avatar.   The race route probably goes over James Cameron’s property, not that a worthless piece of garbage like me would ever get the opportunity to develop a story/myth etc like that.   One that includes Maori legend and disabled people/birds etc.

Please I have so many ideas for jobs, especially the amount of industrial waste I am seeing come from the building industry, its deeply disturbing and would be an excellent way of trying to earn my own money.  Sadly after the last police assault they damaged my wrist permanently this time and as it requires a lot of working with my hands I couldn’t do it for very long, but I’m sure there would be other disabled people I know DESPERATE FOR WORK who would.  So many of them expected to volunteer for free – volunteering should be for people who DON’T WANT TO WORK, not for people who do!  Exploiting disabled people by making them feel guilty if they don’t volunteer is disgusting – these people are so desperate.

I have been in several businesses in the past, I know what I am capable of now and I know I could not run a business, I NEED HELP AND HEALTH CARE I AM ENTITLED TO SO I CAN HEAL AND RETURN TO WORK.   That is all I have ever wanted, I thought that is what you wanted to, that’s what all the marketing and cruel demands to apply for 100s of jobs is about isn’t it.

Please be assured what you are doing for the government is driving people to violence and suicide, that is immoral and cruel.  Until recently NAZI were being put on trial and put in jail even in their 90s because of crimes during their reign of terror – only for those targeted for persecution and blame, not the bulk of the population.  The similarities about what I have read about pre-WWII Germany and what our govt are currently doing to targeted minorty group I am part of is terrifying.   How you cannot see this, when you are one of the GENERALS in this neo-liberal/NAZI persecution and exploitation of poor by insane wealthy elities is beyond me.  Hoefully this letter will get through to you and you will turn on those in the white jackets and not perpetrate the cruelty you are.

You text me with a $50 food grant on my card – I’m sorry I can’t use it and I find it extremely offensive you would do that after yesterday – I didn’t beg you for food did I?????  You remind me of some rich ignorant selfish neglectful parent who doesn’t want to spend any time with their child and just gives them THINGS to shut them up.  Causes a lot of teenage suicide in rich families.    I can’t use the food grant because I would have to go to a supermarket when I am really really fragile and offend the minimum wage checkout operator.  You obviously completely reject the idea that young people and most older women who required to work in these low paid jobs are resentful of people that LOOK OK and don’t work, getting food for free through the government/through their taxes.

You told me the last time I was forced to beg for food that there was no food grant money left for human sewage like me – now all of a sudden you come up with it – only to make yourself feel better about what you are doing to me.  Did the police suggest it perhaps, you phoned them to come intimidate me cause you know what they did to me and how terrified I am of them.  Thankfully they know not to engage with me unless they really have to – that’s because most police officers are disgusted in what is happening to me, but like you do their jobs without question.

I’m sure with having corrupt abusive Forensic Mental Health staff in your building they’ve illegally filled you in on all the lies they tell about me refusing mental health care.  I HAVE NEVER EVER REFUSED PROFESSIONAL MENTAL HEALTH CARE, they have refused me multiple times, then say to others I don’t want care.   Why do you think I am so screwed up, its because they lie and I can do nothing to stop the lies either.   I will be posting my 37 page complaint to medical council and privacy commissioner re Dr Justin Barry-Walsh in next few days.  It was interesting how when he is supposed to consult with my family, friends and others I suggest, he instead went to mental health services, police and lawyers that have never represented me.   I asked told him he could contact Tina, as she has known me for so long and understands the deterioration in my mental health over the years.

I am very sad you hurt Tina for helping me, very very sad and deeply disturbed.   Hopefully if I ever get a legal inquiry into how badly I have been treated, what people in teh system have done to try and help me and been disadvantaged for will be addressed.  Hopefully they will get compensation and recognition of the bullying and cruel tactics they were subjected to by their bosses LIKE YOU.

Did I tell you I can’t use the card because I feel so degraded and worthless when I do, I would rather eat my own feces at the moment.  Wish I could go to the food bank, I just can’t, those people are as degrading as WINZ, except they can go home and gossip about those people they gave food to – because they were losers who didn’t want to work!

I wish I didn’t HATE you but I do, I really really HATE you and everybody doing this to me – all of it illegal.  After 17 years of study I know my rights, I know what is happening to me and I know why, I also know it is illegal uncivilised and cruel.  Unlike majority of people who live in the darklands of this neo-liberal hell hole I spend almost all my waking hours trying to get help so I can work and educating myself as to why I can’t get what the law says, keeping myself informed of local and world events.  I seldom watch TV, can’t stand the advertising and propaganda, have you seen the neo-liberal propaganda ASB Bank is vomiting all over us at the moment.  How we are all one people no matter how many different nationalities.

Its extremely disturbing propaganda, putting so many cultures together who are driving disabled and poor locals out of their homes, jobs, health care, etc and our govt and business leaders committing cultural genocide against PAKEHA, ewwwwww.

Please ask yourself why you HATE me and persecute me, I never hurt you, I never stole your money, I never took food from your fridge and cupboard, I never insulted or patronised you, I never hurt any of your children or your family, I never drove you out of your home, I never made your life a living nightmare – I don’t even know you – so why do you do it to me??????  Is that why you couldn’t handle my phone call and answerphone messages, because I put the blame directly onto you as a human being and woman?   You want to pretend you’re just doing your job and hurting/terrorising disabled people like myself is your job.

I cant go on, I’ve started crying again, my heart is broken, what a evil cruel country I live in.

My heart is low
My head is bowed
From the depths the hell does rise
I can hardly move
Nothing will sooth
My broken heart no longer flies

I can see no future
Now a tortured creature
Looking out from blackened eyes
So much rejection
Like an injection
Of the suicidal size

Our society
Don’t want to see
How the system is full of lies
The market torture wheel
Doesn’t care or feel
They’re paid to ignore your cries

The money men
Shake hands and then
Hide their crimes behind skirts and ties

enD

This is dedicated to you Michelle, to you Jacinda and to you William (or more correctly to your mum who is a distant relative of mine).

Tony Ellis Sitting In Your Palace

Just heard the story of another terrorised abuse victim and her experience with this misogynst, insulting, vicious, corrupt pig Tony Ellis – so thought I’d post this old poem of mine.

Tony Ellis sitting in your palace
Looking down your nose at me
Saying I’m not here for you peasants
While nothing for men I see

I only deal with important stuff
Violent abuse I’d rather not see
I havn’t got time, now get off my mind
Stories of intimidation, discrimination, bigotry

Tony Ellis sitting in your palace
Could you look me in the eye and say
I’m far to busy, its not important
Now please just go away

I’m trying to expose the truth
Don’t ignore this most serious crime
This crime against those abused
That affects society, the soul, the mind

Tony Ellis sitting in yuor palance
Watch my words upon the web
JR Murphy poet & artist
An activist you all dread

Please come down from your palace
Come visit me I”m real
An intelligent human being saying
Somethings wrong when care’s a torture wheel

enD

Been changing it as I rewrote it, might have another go at it later, now I know how corrupt Ellis and our justice system truly are, grrrrr.