Category Archives: Songs

I Don’t Want To Live

I don’t want to live in this cruel evil place
When charities are used to degrade & disgrace
Where self-righteous bigots work for the rich
Enjoying disabled & poor thrown drugged in a ditch

I don’t want to live in this cruel evil place
When naïve artists are used to ignore a disgrace
Where lawyers & doctors & wealthy elites
Enjoy driving mad those not allowed to compete

I don’t want to live in this cruel evil place
When media are used to brainwash & disgrace
Where idols on TV bullshit every word
Enjoying the fact those hurting aren’t heard

I don’t want to live in this cruel evil place
When landlords & agents exploit poor a disgrace
Where those profiting from the economics of hate
Enjoy their houses, our money, their holidays, our fate

I don’t want to live in this cruel evil place
When being suicidal and poor is Number 1 a disgrace
Where suicide prevention is police violence, forced drugs
Enjoying abuses of power being fascists and thugs

I don’t want to live in this cruel evil place
When I’m called a bludger, a nutter, a disgrace
Where they make me a criminal for doing what’s right
Enjoying the fact they profit while I fight

I don’t want to live in this cruel evil place
When I’m treated as worthless, rejected a disgrace
Where I’m only a burden to those that I love
Enjoying life’s not possible while the ground I’m above

I don’t want to live in this cruel evil place
When everybody ignores the injustice disgrace
Where charities and governments inflict blow after blow
Enjoying the profits and power from their marketing show.

I WOULD RATHER BE AN ANGLE!

(Like the one at the park next to Trust House – well meaning ignorance.)

……..

A sad testament to Jacinda Ardern’s Labour government – still Libertarian at heart with the perversion of the charity industry.  New Zealand 2019 after that marketing show in front of the United Nations.  I know dozens of things they could do immediately to relieve the pressure on those with disabilities, could be done under urgency and would put money into the community at the grass roots level.  For example, making ACC provide full entitlements, including money and safe stable culturally appropriate, disabled enhanced homes – as required by law.  Putting all people who suffer an illness/injury on invalids benefit within six months, poor people who spend in the community are being defrauded of $60 per week for YEARS.  Law says 2 years, but doctors were encouraged not to do it.  These people are forced to get WINZ documents signed four times a year rather than once a year which takes up time for health services already overstretched.  Now nurses are going to do it the chances more women will be denied ongoing disability allowances is going to get worse – from my extensive experience.

I at library and left other page of poem at home, another four verses, might make it into a punk or metal song, I love the restriction of rhyme and word, makes the art even better.  Also love repetition, I’ve woken up two mornings in a row with two new verses, but havn’t written them down, not good to dwell on those things that drive your despair.  They’re there waiting though, very stressed and very creative at the moment.  Havn’t been on my website for ages, computer out of action, I’m sure it a virus as those in power try and shut me down.

Only reason I can think I am such a threat is my demand for drug free methods of treatment – the pharmaceutical industry is extremely powerful and profitable.  I have been posting a lot on my youtube channel through my spare phone, but its not easy with 2 hour downloads for 5 mins.

Definitely know corruption in mental health is at the top in the Directorate of mental health, was discussing this with Stephen Enright in that office.  Far as he is concerned us peasants supposed to look after ourselves, traumatised terrorised unwell people, being exploited and further harmed by traumatised terrorised unwell people.  Thats the Libertarian Utopia Peter Thiel, Helen Clark, Ruth Richardson and John Key etc wanted.  That is illegal under Sections 150A and 151 of the Crimes Act 1961 – see other pages for links.  Grrrr

Doing heaps of art at the moment, got several guerrilla protest missions planned, should be scary fun, have asked the police to keep a sense of humour.  Lots more I havn’t done because I’m really frightened after the assault with handcuffs, my wrist never fully recovered, putting away my firewood for winter isn’t pleasant – and makes me dislike the police and IPCA intensely.

I havn’t been typing, just realising how much I miss it, how therapeutic it is for me, been doing it for so many years.  Been hand writing things and photocopying at a local shop.  Always fighting in the red tape war, like I said, check out my youtube channel.  JR Murphy Poet

ADDED 12 March – things really rough at the moment, I go from passionate and strong to terrified and weak, my brain trying to cope with the insanity of being so poor I have to beg for food while being owed $10,000 by the government and even have a legal decision to say they were supposed to pay me $18 a week for the past 10 years.

Got told by head person at WINZ that now deals with me, when I had to beg for money for firewood today (that I HAVE TO PAY BACK), ACC was my problem and nothing to do with them.  She got angry and aggressive because I was crying and distraught, told me she would hang up if I didn’t calm down – calm down – how do they expect people to react to what I am being subjected to.   More examples of corruption, just asking for health care, welfare and home I’m entitled to by law and that is what I get, purposely made to beg for money from the government rather than get the $10,000 for my Independence Allowance I could use to help me get help and create a business from my art or the multiple other ideas I have.

And as for Jacinda Ardern saying this morning Kiwibuild wasn’t doing well due to MARKET FAILURE – WTF – not Market fkn failure its failure of the government and neo-liberal terrorist elites.  How that marketing maggot sleeps at night is beyond my comprehension.

New Punk Song – Handcuffs Are Not a Weapon – New Zealand police!

Handcuffs are not a weapon
Police are not there to harm
Freedom of speech is a right under law
Cruel cops now the Devil’s right arm

Poverty’s the worst form of violence
Begging degrades and does harm
Homes, jobs and care are rights under law
Charities now the Devil’s left arm

Suicide prevention’s promotion
Now killing good people’s a job
Media and money controls everything
Devil’s got the minds of this mob

New Zealand is not a democracy
Rule of law protects only the rich
Judges and lawyers are unjust and cruel
Devil’s got them as his bitch

 

Just wrote suicide prevention verse, wrote the others over past few months, knew there was one more to be written.  Each of the verses a separate poem in its own right.  Put together with my punk riff, metal pedal – Am, open string, G, open string –  its a wicked song I love singing and all of it true.  can’t wait to perform it outside court house.

Human Sewage

A minor & G, song

I am human sewage, the DHB decided so
Bob Francis said do nothing, pretend we don’t know

I am human sewage, ACC decided so
Nick Smith said lets do nothing, keep up this torture show

I am human sewage, the commissioners decided so
The Ombudsman said do nothing, we don’t wanna know what you know

I am human sewage, the government decided so
John Key said lets do nothing, keep up this hypocrite show

I am human sewage, our MPs decided so
When they all said “We can’t do nothin, go away we don’t wanny know”

I am human sewage, mental health decided so
In the Wairarapa are ignorant bigots, running a suicide show

Turning me to human sewage, standing here just so
A witness to the lies they’re telling, cause they’re cruel & I know

I am human sewage, many people decided so
When they all stood back and did nothing, that’s why I’m here on show

Singing we have human sewage, created some years ago
When neo-liberals took over this country & a right-wing agenda took hold

Aye aye aye aye aye
Aye aye aye aye aye aye
Aye aye aye aye aye
Aye aye aye aye aye aye

enD

God of National – song based on the NZ National Anthem

God of national at thy feet
In the bonds of fear we meet
Hear our voices we entreat
We must defend our free land

Guard our country’s loving state
From those who only want to take
Care for all show no-one hate
God defend New Zealand

All who sing this song are bound
A solumn oath to stand their ground
When there is injustice found
We must defend our free land

From dissension, envy, hate
And corruption guard our state
Make our country good and great
God defend New Zealand

Peace not war shall be our boast
But should those cruel asail our coast
Make us then a mighty host
We must defend our free land

Lord of battles in thy might
Give us strength, take up the fight
When our cause is just and right
God defend New Zealand

Let our love for all increase
Our quest for fairness never cease
Give all plenty, give all peace
We must defend our free land

From dishonour and from shame
Guard our country’s good deeds and name
Be guided by an eternal flame
God defend New Zealand

Never let democracy fall
Teach compassion, love and truth to all
Let the facts, not fear stand tall
God defend New Zealand

EnD

Stay Stay Away – song dedicated to Wairarapa Police

Stay Stay Away

My voice shatters the silence
This shit I’m in is grave
If only you had listened
If only you’d stayed away

CHORUS
But you jumped in your car
And you sped it this way
If only you had listened
Wouldn’t be singing in the cells today

(stay, stay away)

As I sat there and I waited
Police could see the tears on my face
Of your time and my honour
It’s such as bloody waste

CHORUS
Cause you jumped in your car
And sped it my way
If only you had listened
Wouldn’t be singing this song today

My voice cuts through the silence
As you drove me home today
Wish you your tazer gone for good
With my life you would not play

You just jumped in your car
And sped it away
To me you’ll finally listen
And away you then will stay

(stay, stay away)

End

Awesome – love it – can’t wait to sing it outside the police station in next couple of days. They needn’t think I’m gunna sit back and just accept this treatment.

 

 

Arrested (sorry detained) by police again today outside supermarket – WTF

Get this phoned Stephen Joyce’s office about this new app to find out best job to get and I have decided on studying to be an ICT Business and Systems Analyst, high earnings, average education costs and high number of jobs.  Will help with my activism and have a couple of Victoria papers I can probably count towards the degree.  Only 3 years full time – hope I can do it.

Anyway, I got upset because of being unemployed so long and everything that is going on, but I did not say I was going to fkn kill myself.  This guy phoned police, who not long after phoned me and said they were on their way round – completely freaked out, took off in the car, ended up at the local park until I had calmed down.  I knew I had to go back and face the music but my first reaction was to run, all I could think of was what happened on Xmas Eve, and these guys were on their way to hurt me.  Plus another possible showdown with CATT team.

I was away about 45 mins, decided to go home and on the way saw the police car coming out of a nearby street, my street, I decided to go and get something from the supermarket.  They had seen me and followed me, the got me coming out, were waiting for me, I saw the car arrived.  This was in front of all the staff, people I know, people who already dislike me because I don’t work and am called Crazy Jayne.  It was so fucking humiliating – even though they were reasonably ok cops.  Didn’t like the older one, they wouldn’t let me get in my car and follow them to the police station, they made me get in their car, threatened handcuffs the wanker – told him be better fucking not in a quiet voice.

I noticed when I was in the car one of them had a tazer – this is really threatening shit – how the fuck did the system get so fucked.  I am reminded of the verse ITS ALL BULLSHIT, RUN BY COCK SUCKERS, BACKED UP BY SOME VERY STUPID MOTHER FUCKERS!

So ended up in Masterton, singing my heart out, Why Am I arrested, Human Sewage and some poetry, very loud, heaps of echo, a prisoner gave me shit because I was annoying him.  Told him tough fucking shit I’ll do whatever I fucking want while I’m in this fucking cell.  Was there about an hour I think, taken home the long way, had to stop at Carterton.  Was ticking and rocking backwards and forwards, crying for most of the way, my head down and hands over my ears.  I couldn’t look out the window on the way back, what if someone saw me.  This is bullshit and I am going to fucking change it.  Already left a message for Brent Register and put a comment on Wairarapa Police site, now I’ve written a song.

Have been asked to perform at a gig in Wellington in a couple of weeks and I needed a new song, something not quite so dark, this will be perfect as no instrument, just voice.

Stay Stay Away

There’s a cold stoney silence
As I stand at my grave
If only you had listened
If only you’d stayed away

CHORUS
But you jumped in your car
And you sped it this way
If only you had listened
Wouldn’t be singing this song today

(stay, stay away)

As I sat there and I waited
They could see the tears on my face
Of your time and my honour
It’s such as bloody waste

CHORUS
Cause you jumped in your car
And you sped it this way
If only you had listened
Wouldn’t be sitting in the cells today

There’s a cold stoney silence
As you drove me home today
Wish you were gone for good
With my life you would not play

You just jumped in your car
And you sped it away
To me you’ll finally listen
And away you then will stay

(stay, stay away)

End

Awesome – love it

 

Must Stand Jerry, new song – dedicated to Jerry Mataparae – COWARD!

Must stand Jerry, yes you gotta know you must stand now
Must stand Jerry, now general, yes you gotta know you must stand now
Government’s running poor people down
Now its time to stop, stamp your royal foot on the ground

All you ever do is ride around Jerry (and hide Jerry hide)
All you ever do is ride around Jerry (and hide Jerry hide)
All you ever do is ride around Jerry (and hide Jerry hide)
All you ever do is ride around Jerry (and hide Jerry hide)
One of these early mornings, you gunna be seeing our weeping eyes, yeah

National bought the news so you must stand – against their hate and lies
We’re coming round, poor child man and woman
Cause we’re hurt, and they don’t, hear our cries
Must stand Jerry, now general, yes you gotta know you must stand now
Government’s running poor people down
Now its time to stop, stamp your royal foot on the ground

All you ever do is ride around Jerry (and hide Jerry hide)
All you ever do is ride around Jerry (and hide Jerry hide)
All you ever do is ride around Jerry (and hide Jerry hide)
All you ever do is ride around Jerry (and hide Jerry hide)
One of these early mornings, you gunna be seeing our weeping eyes, yeah
Our weeping eyes, our weeping eyes
Our weeping eyes, yeah yeah, our weeping eyes.

End

The words are really flowing at the moment, especially after I was told by Jerry’s office yesterday that there was no way I would be allowed an hour meeting with Governor-General.  He couldn’t possibly see all the people who were making complaints like me, the line would be out the door and down the road. Bloody coward – he knows who I am though, I’ve sent letters and been protesting when he was opening Parliament – creep.  Good to know there are lots of people making complaints then and adds to my legal challenge about being able to look these people who are supposed to protect us in the eye.

Song also gave me idea for a Guerrilla Protest Mission to government house, near the Basin Reserve.  Will make sure I get there early and chalk the song plus some other comments I want to make about this COWARD.  Got to take my video camera and get some of this stuff on Youtube.

 

Hold On – JR Murphy

Just wrote these new lyrics, been listening to Pete Seeger and Bruce Springstein singing Keep Your Eyes on the Prize, Hold On.  Was fuming after watching TV One coverage of ‘independent’ review of WINZ shootings. Government and media spin sickening.  Makes you want to give up when the lies are at the top level of government, ‘consultants’ & news media.

JR Murphy’s bound for court
Cause they’re not doing what they ought
Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on
Says disabled are treated like dirt
People in suits inflict more hurt
Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on

Freedoms aims are a muddy street
Soon the highways of hell are gunna meet
Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on
Keep your hands on the gospel plough
In the fires of hell here now

Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on, hold on, hold on
Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on

Mentally ill are rotting in jail
Cause health services designed to fail
Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on
Being told you’re just no good
Just an addict, could if you would

Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on, hold on, hold on
Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on

Been watchin ‘the man’ telling you lies
Media bigots in disguise
Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on
Day after the election was lost
Armour went on and the gloves came off

Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on, hold on, hold on
Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on

That thing that you did wrong
Is not listen to us and our songs
Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on
That thing that we did was right
Was for good to keep up the fight

Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on, hold on, hold on
Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on
(Repeat)
Hold on (repeat x 6

(slowly)
Wanna go to heaven cause I’ve been told
The streets are paved with gold, instead
I’ll keep my eyes on the prize and hold on

ENd

Note that verse referring to Bill English telling an audience all people on long term welfare were like addicts – WTF – that was so insulting and corrupt.  Bill English knows my situation and I can’t get health care – lying pig.

The Torture Wheel – JR Murphy

I’ve written a thousand letters
Phoned a thousand times
Been ignored by hundreds of people
Been told hundreds of lies

I’ve been arrested for saying in chalk
A truth they don’t wanny hear
Stripped naked because of disorder
Neglected because of fear

CHORUS
I’m on that torture wheel
A hot potato am I
I’m on that torture wheel
And I keep on asking them why

I’ve written dozens of poems
About the plight I am in
Written dozens of lyrics and songs
Almost committed a moral sin

I’ve cried a river of tears
Grieved and grieved again
Screamed and wailed at injustice
Been driven to the point of insane

I’m on that torture wheel
A hot potato am I
I’m on that torture wheel
And I keep on asking them why

Rehabilitation must be the goal
And the care ’til you heal
Not the current ‘hot potato’ way
The current torture wheel

This poem’s just one of many
Exposing lies, exposing facts
Until we all get the help that we need
I’ll stay upon these tracks

I’m on that torture wheel
A hot potato am I
I’m on that torture wheel
And I keep on asking them why

If you’re on the torture wheel
If you’re one just like me
At the mercy of ignorant bigots
In mental health and ACC

If you’re on the torture wheel
If you’re one just like me
It’s time to stand up for your rights
Get all the care that you need

I’m on that torture wheel
A hot potato am I
I’m on that torture wheel
And I keep on asking them why

End

What the NZ government does to long term disabled people on welfare is psychological torture, it is degrading, it is experimental and follows no known health or rehabilitation models and to make this failure palatable to their right-wing bigoted voters they brainwash everybody into thinking it is ok.

 

Wherefore Art Thou ACC – JR Murphy

Wrote this poem at a time I was listening to heaps of Eminem, still remember the night I started rapping the poem to I’m A Soldier.  Cheers for the inspiration Marshall.

Wherefore art thou ACC x 2

No matter how you phrase it
The law tells me the rules
They’re meant for my interpretation
You bureaucratic fools

The times I’ve used the law before
I havn’t needed help
But now I am incapable
Of fighting for myself

Don’t tell me I am wrong
I’ve read it in the act
How ACC is there for us
Why do you ignore that fact

You’ll come and clean my toilet
To get me on my feet
But when I ask for help with parenting
You tell me not to bleat

No matter how far down the cliff I’ve gone
I’m never far enough
Until I lose my sanity
Thing’s gunna be real rough

I want to scream it in your face
I’ve tried with mental health
But I know you just won’t listen
Because I have no wealth

I am a body and a mind
No more important than the other
I don’t deserve this treatment
It just keeps me in the gutter

Cause I had no status in your eyes
As I was just a student
It’s a case of human rights abuse
To you it’s fiscally prudent

Wherefore art thou ACC
Wherefore art thou ACC

And as I write this rap
I feel better about myself
I’m not a wasted loser
Just a product of ignorance

I don’t have cuts and bruises
Leg’s not severed at the thigh
And I never got the help I needed
Keep on asking why

The blood pools all around me
Drips from every piece of art
What does a person do
With such a badly broken heart

Every time I ask for help
It gets increasingly harder
Rejection’s like a hunger’s knife
Giving deep wounds to my mana

I’m filled with toxic shame
A festering type of wound
But all you want to give me
Are drugs to change my mood

It seems so obvious to me
What needs to be done
Treat the mentally injured
The same as anyone

Ignore me at your peril
I’m not about to go away
I will demand that you obey the law
And stop – this – twisted – game you play

Wherefore art thou ACC
Wherefore art thou ACC

End