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Alan Pollard Trust House Wairarapa PLEASE CONTACT ME URGENTLY

Here is my latest email to Trust House

From: jrouthan@hotmail.co.nz
Sent: Friday, 14 June 2019 11:49 AM
To: info@trusthouse.co.nz
Subject: Attention: Alan Pollard

Dear Alan,
I have yet again left you a message to contact me, which you have failed to do many times before.

The reason this time is my absolute disgust and trauma watching your latest marketing propaganda on Wairarapa TV.  If you look up the word propaganda I am using it correctly.  I know this marketing is in response to my latest graffiti art exposing the corruption, greed, suffering, suicide, social dysfunction, violence, crime and extreme harm being caused to our community in the Wairarapa region.

Harm that is caused by Trust House and their appalling immoral (criminal as all neo-liberal advancing rich and persecuting poor for profit is) behaviour giving money to middle class and rich people though extravagant COMPLETELY UNNECESSARY WANTS through sports, arts, tourist and business promotion.

It is interesting how my years working on getting the treatment care rehabilitation, safe home and justice I am entitled to from ACC alerted me to the gross corruption, suicide, violence, crime etc neo-liberals like yourself were perpetrating in our society.  How you had in fact committed cultural genocide on our unique Pakeha/Maori country that from its inception rejected English elitsm and inequality at its most vile.  Your demand for Trust House properties to have houses removed and filled with high rise apartments for us filthy disgusting poor is proof you are doing this.  I know for a fact 1/4 acre sections are MY PAKEHA CULTURE, these were so people could be self-reliant even if global financial trade and markets crashed and NZ became impoverished.  We could still grow food for ourselves and each other.

Anyway enough of me telling you what you are, you know what you are – that is why every time I do a protest you come back with an intensive advertising campaign to try and brainwash (which is illegal under UN international law) the majority of people with your propaganda.  Backed up of course with the propaganda experts in New Zealand Mediaworks.

Seems to me those in power are starting to realise those being harmed (which is more and more people as immigrants are welcomed to NZ when the government know there is nowhere for them to live and they will be driven into more dangerous and inhuman living situations).

I have many ideas on how corrupt cruel neo-liberal criminals/terrorists like yourself can get out of your predicament.  It will help you all save face a little but it is still going to require admitting what you have done to INCITE hate, suicide, violence, unemployment, elitism, terrorism, homelessness and TERROR into the hearts of the most vulnerable and poorest citizens.  NOTE: THAT DOES NOT INCLUDE ADDICTS – I don’t like addicts, they are the people who most hurt me – I’m sick of addicts getting so much when I GET ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.

Corrupt government officials have purposely made sure I get no health care whatsoever, I havn’t seen a doctor in over three years, I get no professional mental health services, I am not even allowed to go to the foodbank, I am not allowed to phone 1737, I am not allowed to phone Healthline.  When I go to the hospital for anything – which I am terrified of doing because of the police violence and how I was treated after it by nursing staff – things are made very difficult for me.  After a recent accident the A&E doctor ordered x-rays and when I went to get them they had been cancelled and even requests for why and who were refused.

What they are doing to me to hurt me for trying to get ACC care I am entitled to and home I am entitled to under multiple NZ laws is deeply disturbing in the 21st Century.  Proves without doubt, just on my case alone, that New Zealand IS NOT a democracy and DOES NOT follow Rule of Law.  You must of course know this because you do everything you can to censor and oppress the truth I am telling.  That is what happens with bigoted new immigrants, its comparative to the number of step parents who serious abuse step children – they have no connection to them so they find it more easily to be abusive without guilt.

I’ve been talking with Toby at Wairarapa TV who is freaking out currently because I warned him, out of courtesy, I was going to make a complaint to the Broadcasting Standards Authority about your horrendous propaganda about how you are Commercial Strength for Public Good – even saying it now makes me dry reach and cry (that is a literal comment by the way).  The art I am creating in response to this is Corporate Power for Public exploitation.  Corporate power for public persecution. Corporate HATE for public VIOLENCE.  So so many things I will be doing, new process I have is so cheap to do and so effective according to people I know.

Two weeks ago my daughter who lives in Whakatane had a bad car accident and could have died, she is very lucky.  She didn’t end up with any permanent injuries just a lot of bruising whiplash etc.  I was the first person Megan rang the day after, it was her birthday yesterday, she turned 24.  Ask a mother you know how they would feel if they couldn’t go to their child – no matter what age – and hug them.  Like those people around her are doing, like her boyfriends parents are doing, her boyfriends mother who she doesn’t know that well is their holding my baby comforting my baby.  I can’t go because I am too poor because ACC refuses to reinstate my care after winning two court cases nine years ago so I can return to work and afford to live.

Her father has been to see her and her sister (who just built a house in Solway) is going to see her.  I can’t send her a present and Megan only feels sorry for me, so both of my children barely speak to me and nobody ever asks me how things are because they know I would say OK when I am not copying and highly suicidal because of it (on top of the rape trauma that set this ball in motion 17 years ago – 17 years begging ACC for what I know I am entitled to and need).

She was down here several months ago because her father who lives in Palmerston North had a bad turn.  She came to Carterton for the night with her boyfriend and stayed with a friend, not with me.  I met her for a quick coffee first day they arrived.  We organised for them to come for brunch before they left to go back to Palmy the next day.  I had no money, someone had loaned me money to get my car warranted and three months rego, I used that buying food for brunch, only bacon, some nice bread and eggs and a few other things so they wouldn’t see I had no food in my cupboards BECAUSE I WAS SO ASHAMED AND DIDN’T WANT HER BOYFRIEND OR HER TO KNOW.  Why should my children be forced to buy me food when ACC are currently holding $10,000 in unpaid Independence Allowance they were supposed to reinstate 2010/11 when I won the two ACC court reviews.  Money they hold and gloat about it to WINZ who then tell me to go to the food bank because I’ve used up all my food grants.

This is just one of hundreds of inhuman living situations I am being subjected to, one of the hundreds of reasons to have absolutely no hope for the future, for being safe from dysfunctional and addicts in the community as well as violent abusive neo-liberal police.  I can’t save for my retirement like other people do, so when they talk about it I become extremely distressed knowing how dangerous and inhuman my living situation is going to be forever.  Killing myself would be the end to the suffering for myself and my children – rest of my family are just like you so I don’t care what happens to them.  I don’t have any friends who work any more after the last one (who I saved the life of during a heart emergency and was executor of her will) violently assaulted me and subjected me to a tirade of abuse so bad it could easily have been you standing there.  Telling me I was a loser who didn’t want to work, it was my fault I was poor, etc etc etc etc etc.

I look forward to your phone call to arrange a time, but I have no intention of doing anything less than a face to face meeting with you and whoever you think necessary.   It is essential that this meeting is recorded for my protection.  That includes local police or preferably Jason, the security guard at Masterton Court who I trust to protect me and you.  It is part of my extremely life-threatening disability Complex PTSD that I have violence issues.  Nothing I can do about it except understand our government purposely drive terrorised victims of crime and economic violence to physical violence against those around them, police etc.  To create jobs in your CORPORATE TERRORIST world and of course to create self-righteous indignation against those you know are being purposely persecuted and exploited and disenfranchised and marginalised and……….  I also developed a tourettes type aspect to my disorder and had it confirmed by medical professionals, I cannot stop the insults and swearing in my head from coming out of my mouth when I am insulted or patronised.

For 17 years taxpayers have been paying my wages and I have worked tireless and at great personal expense to do EVERYTHING within my power, knowledge and experience to ensure justice and right is upheld in New Zealand.  I have worked for below minimum wage and suffered the most horrific long term persecution, degradation and discrediting in my community because of my work.

I will be making this email public and again try to rally myself from the depths of suicidal hell in the neo-liberal darklands of Death Valley Wairarapa.  You can choose to ignore it or you can choose to stop persecuting people who DO NOT DESERVE IT and work out with me how to change your violent abusive behaviour and that of others who perpetrate HATE, rather than just respond with HATE SPEECH.

Hopefully this email won’t result in further economic, housing and police violence – which I am thinking it has about a 50/50 chance of doing.

To start the ball rolling getting my art, poetry, music etc into the faces and minds of the people I identify as harming people when they don’t understand the consequences of what they do is top priority and imperative.  Ensuring I am not financially disadvantaged for doing this is also important.

PLEASE CONTACT Toby WAIRARAPA TV if you want to engage with me and what I am trying to do – to help all New Zealanders and restore civil society in New Zealand.  Please reassure him my idea of doing shows that explain all the constitutional laws and UN treaties etc NZ government are supposed to act under would be OK with you.  Explaining to people about human rights, disabled rights, civil rights to protest, economic social and cultural rights, how to participate in a democracy and what Rule of Law means etc is actually supported by Trust House and he can go ahead and start to organise it.

You should also go to my website and see my latest idea about redirection of ALL CHARITY MONEY into people in need – where it always should have been, not in extravagant sports, arts, tourism and business projects.  Where Trust House has become a neo-liberal abomination due to this insane focus away from people in need, victims of crime, people hurt at work, home sport etc, people who get sick, etc etc.  You really must know how many people in this community completely despise Trust House, they’ll take money from them of course, but most people in this community are ashamed.  Trust House might have worked when NZ had a mostly decent society prior to 1984 neo-liberal takeover but not now – now what you do is sickening and deeply disturbing.    Tell me do you come up with those marketing phrases to brainwash yourselves that what you do is good, or does someone else????  Ewwwwwww

NOTE: I will be continuing and stepping up my non-violent graffiti, along with encouraging others to do it.  However I know how angry people are right now, angry and unwell after years of this elitist insanity, so make sure you don’t blame me for people blaming you for the HATE you incite.  I’ve spent 17 years trying to stop it and over that time told Trust House many times what was happening, only to be ignored.

I truly hope you are deeply ashamed in the part you and others have played to drive suicide in our region, I truly hope you have the courage, ethics and morals to take responsibility for the violence and harm you have caused with your ignorance and bigotry.  I truly hope you take this opportunity I am offering you to address your horrendous behaviour and share what innocent decent artists and intellectuals like me are going through.  I never used to understand I was intelligent until a psychiatric report said I was intelligent, didn’t have a personality disorder and am not delusional – which of course makes everybody who disagrees with me, all of those things.

Kia kaha and aroha to the poor and powerless

I gave the receptionist my phone numbers, here they are again, 379 6403 or 027 3040120, wonder if your staff think of poorly of you as so many of us do.  Must be shameful for them knowing what you do and how people they know and care about are treated during this government created housing crisis.

Sincerely
JR
UN Civil Society Activist
HUMAN SEWAGE

Wairarapa Real Estate industry & local govt trying to violate my FREEDOM OF SPEECH – AHHHH NAH

Was warned by someone there is a meeting today in Carterton demanded by local real estate agents – particularly Harcourts – with Mayor John Booth and the Carterton District Council.  Here is my email response to various people and I’m putting this on my website TO PROTECT MYSELF.  Please read and contact Mayor John Booth  NZ 06 379 4030 or any member of the council about it, contact your MP about it as well.  Everybody is fine to protect fascists when their freedom of speech is violated – so I need the arts and legal community to protect me.

The more people who know what is happening the safer I am, wonder if my landlord been put under any pressure to evict me yet?   They were here yesterday doing some work, everything seemed OK, but you can’t trust anybody in this neo-liberal terrorist heart of New Zealand.   I only live a few kms from the VERY CENTRE of New Zealand – middle earth.  And I can assure you I am Frodo and this is a fight for our humanity – yipes.


From: JR
Sent: Thursday, 30 May 2019 10:06 AM
To: news TVNZ; Breakfast TVNZ; theprojectnz@mediaworks.co.nz; am@amandamillar.co.nz; radiomediaworks@gmail.com; tdbadvertising@gmail.com; contact@9news.com.au
Subject: URGENT – Freedom of speech and expression for suicidal victims of crime in New Zealand – YEAH RIGHT! – AHHHHH NAH!

Freedom of speech and expression – YEAH RIGHT!
Attention The Rock Suicide Jockeys
Attention Martyn Bradbury
Attention Jack Tame
Attention all the nice presenters who don’t know what is going on in the darklands beyond the cliff face.

From: JR
Sent: Thursday, 30 May 2019 9:37 AM
To: Iain Lees-Galloway MP; golriz.ghahraman@parliament.govt.nz; Andrew Little; Jacinda Ardern MP; kieran.mcanulty@parliament.govt.nz; alastair.scott@parliament.govt.nz; ron.mark@parliament.govt.nz; Ann Rice; Petitions OHCHR; United Nations Association of New Zealand; Bryce Edwards; submissions@theintercept.com; submissions@truthdig.com
Subject: URGENT for you information – so none of you can say you didn’t know what was going on


From:JR
Sent: Thursday, 30 May 2019 9:31 AM
To: HANSEN, Jennifer
Subject: URGENT for you information

You had better be prepared to protect me from what is happening with Mayor John Book, Carterton Council and their illegal secret consultations with local Real Estate businesses.  You are most welcome to be there to mediate and record the meeting as well, in fact it would be a very good idea for you to be there.  Groan
Seems my latest works of art are causing a real stir in the community – and yes I am being told by people who agree with what I say to tone the rage down a bit – after the years of persecution and my resulting disability it is very difficult – I can assure you I am trying.  It would be extremely helpful if I had my ACC care reinstated as required by law and the $10,000 ACC are withholding from me.
Also why would Harcourts be coming to Carterton to have a meeting?  They don’t have an office in Carterton and I havn’t been anywhere near them. I used to work for Harcourts back in the days of Mary & Pat Mahoney, so this meeting should and could be very interesting and very helpful to you and me.
Please contact me 027 3040120 if you are any part of this??? Please remember Westminister Statute the 1st – common right be done to all rich as poor and Magna Carta and my rights to freedom of speech and expression.  Police aren’t there to keep NZ safe – that is neo-liberal corruption – the police are there to keep the peace between rich and poor – AS PEACEKEEPERS not soldier.
Sincerely
JR
Civil Society Actor

From: JR
Sent: Thursday, 30 May 2019 9:16 AM
To: info@cdc.govt.nz
Subject: Mayor John Booth URGENT – MEETING BETWEEN YOU AND REAL ESTATE IS ILLEGAL – VIOLATION OF NZ CONSTITUTIONAL LAWS

Dear John,
I have been told you are getting extreme pressure from Real Estate Agents in Wairarapa to DO SOMETHING ABOUT MY LEGAL PUBLIC PROTESTS in order to violate my freedom of speech and expression.
YOU NEED TO CANCEL THAT MEETING – it is illegal for you to co-operate with these rich people when you refuse to co-operate with a poor person like myself, especially an artist and Civil Society Actor as defined by the United Nations.
You are the government, if those Real Estate Agents want to do graffiti art and marketing on the streets with their views on those things that incite HATE in our community then they are most welcome to.  It is the law that you keep the peace between rich and poor, IT IS ILLEGAL TO ADVANCE THE RICH AND PERSECUTE THE POOR.
If you want to continue with the meeting you need to contact me and see when I am available to also attend.  The meeting will need to be recorded for my safety and legal purposes.  I will be advising the Minister for Local Government of the meeting and what is happening, again for my protection and legal purposes.
You are putting me through all of this just so ACC doesn’t have to reinstate my health care after winning two ACC reviews nine years ago – BECAUSE I AM A DISABLED MENTALLY INJURED VICTIM OF CRIME and criminal negligence and don’t have the necessaries of life I am entitled to under CURRENT NZ LAWS and UN signed ratified international treaties.  Wow, you people have completely lost the plot, abuses of power will do that to pretty much any person.
Sincerely
JR
Civil Society Actor
HUMAN SEWAGE

Complaint about judges comments #metoo “It’s a red tape war & I’m a red tape whore.”

Sent this complaint this morning, couldn’t get it off  my mind, so best to do it and get it sent, letter one of my best I reakon.  It’s a red tape war and I’m a red tape whore (c) ReFuSe

26 May 2019

 

Office of the Judicial Conduct Commissioner

PO Box 2661

WELLINGTON

Judicialconduct@jcc.govt.nz

 

Dear Sir/Madam,

 

It is with the deepest regret and despair I write this complaint after 17 years attempting to get the health care, welfare, housing and justice I am entitled to as a disabled victim of crime in New Zealand. A United Nations Human Rights inspector I met at Te Papa told me to keep making formal complaints so there is a paper trail to follow. Although I am quite sure this valid complaint will fail and I will never get the justice and protection required as a disabled Civil Society Actor – defined by the UN Civil Society Handbook.

 

Years of study, valid complaints of injustice and experience have shown all laws established after the 1984 takeover by radicalised American neo-liberal economic terrorists in New Zealand are designed to defeat justice for the ‘purposely impoverished and persecuted then exploited poor local population’. Commissions are poor man’s justice – ie no justice at all – in fact I find them more proof of widespread government corruption and injustice in a sector.

 

This complaint is justified, as are the other complaints I have made, all ignored of course. Sadly I found myself, after one year studying law at Victoria University 2001, in a 17 year battle for justice for myself and other purposely impoverished, persecuted, criminally neglected victims of crime and trauma. Mostly with ACC, however in fighting for those things I am entitled to under ACC law I was exposed to the extent of neo-liberal/Libertarian corruption and HATE in our society. HATE that grows every day while our most basic constitutional laws are violated (please refer to the Imperial Laws Application Act 1988) – while multiple UN international laws (signed ratified treaties) are also violated.

 

This complaint has its legal origins in Westminster Statute the 1st – common right be done to all rich as poor and the Magna Carta – no person shall be destroyed and every person shall have access to right and justice. I wrote a poem for the 800 year anniversary of the Magna Carta, it can be viewed online at http://jrmurphypoet.com/2015/06/800-years-a-poem-to-commemorate-the-magna-carta-2015/ I was also sent a copy of the speech by grossly corrupt Attorney-General Christopher Finlayson performed at a government comedy event to celebrate it.

 

I feel quite sorry for Judge Barbara Morris having to be the scapegoat for a judiciary who profit from illegally denying people with mental health issues professional health care and necessities of life (eg safe stable affordable housing).

 

WHAT HAPPENED

 

On Thursday 23 May I was in court again trying to get a lawyer after waiting almost 18 months since my first valid protest against illegal police violence in January 2018. Judge Morris knows me quite well after nine years LEGALLY protesting against ACC illegally removing my entitlements and refusing to reinstatement them after winning TWO ACC reviews in 2010/11.

 

Judge Morris made an extremely inappropriate comment about me receiving counselling for the trauma ‘the rapist’ had caused. Firstly she is well aware from my protests that it is far more than counselling I am protesting about. It was established many years ago by health professionals and ACC that COUNSELLING is not sufficient treatment, care or rehabilitation in my particular sensitive claim. There are multiple reports that say this, along with documents I had sent to the judge prior to the hearing. As I am not allowed a lawyer I have been forced to do what I can to defend myself, even when it is extremely harmful and almost impossible to do it, due to impairments related to my disability – Complex PTSD. Part of my CPTSD involves being highly suicidal, CPTSD has a 60% mortality rate due to suicide – inciting someone to suicide is illegal.

 

Part of my CPTSD includes compounding trauma, so when I start bringing up all the deeply distressing injustices I have been subjected to through the justice system I start to become traumatised, have to self-harm etc so I don’t commit suicide (like I have to do multiple times writing this). It is a living nightmare many people in New Zealand are now forced to live with following introduction of neo-liberalism. Wairarapa, where I live, has the highest rate of self-harm in New Zealand, also highest rate of suicide, compulsory treatment orders and prescriptions for psychotropic drugs. I would imagine it also has the most extreme forms of inequality and elitism in New Zealand as well – they must be training rich children to hurt poor people at the multiple private schools here. The elitist hatred is quite obvious to the youth of our region, my children went through the public education system here and told me what they knew about the kids from private schools. It is even more obvious in our community through corrupt elitist neo-liberal organisations such as Trust House and the way ‘community leaders’ advance the rich and persecute the poor.

 

When I was interviewed by a lawyer from the Mental Health Inquiry last year she identified the worst elitism they had so far experienced, after meetings with local community and health leaders earlier in the day. She asked me why I thought it was happening and I told her about the private schools, bias media, inequality between richest and poorest and lack of housing (ie provision for disabled and poor of this region).

 

Elitism is illegal according to NZ Constitutional laws, I continue to wonder why the courts, lawyers and judges allow it. Although statistics about the punishment of beneficiaries (doing what they have to in order to survive and support their children) compared to the punishment of wealthy tax fraudsters tells the true story, also punishments for rapists/criminals who have wealthy powerful family connections).

 

Although the rape, sodomy and not guilty verdict (even when the rapist admitted in court to the jury of 10 white haired old men, one old woman with a blue rinse and one young woman who looked IHC) were what entitled me to ACC, my life-threatening CPTSD is a result of criminal neglect following the crime. I am/was a strong sensible person, bad stuff happens, I know that, I would have recovered from what happened to me if I had received the professional treatment care rehabilitation, safe housing and justice as required under ACC law – and multiple other laws I have read. I can read and comprehend what I read, my mental health issues since the event don’t make me a liar or stupid. In fact based on my extensive knowledge of traumatic stress disorders I would suggest years of severe neglect makes you more intelligent – fighting for your life does that.

 

Many people have been trying to force counselling onto me when the ACC rehabilitation plan illegally removed in 2009 involved around 12 hours a week with a multi-disciplinary team of health professionals and instructed/supported members of the community. I had an Occupational Therapist 2 hrs a week, Psychologist 1 hour, psycho-social rehab at a gym 6 hours, 3 hours a week with a mental health worker and 1 hour a month with a Buddhist massage therapist. I was six months into a 2 ½ year rehabilitation plan when it was illegally removed by ACC GP Peter Jansen. I have seen counsellors through ACC, they were ineffective, most of them would cry once they heard my current living situation, which they obviously could do nothing about, even though they knew it was extremely detrimental to the healing process for victims of crime (ie there are too many serious current traumas to deal with before they can deal with the rape trauma.)

 

Judge Morris should be completely focused on legalities of what is happening to me and how I am presenting in person and with the information I provide her. Her opinion as to my health needs, which she has voiced previously in a closed court based on the experiences of her beloved daughter, is not appropriate. I am a 54 year old women with children and responsibilities of running a household without support from my wealthy parents/family. (Note: my children have left home but of course still need me. My daughter had a life-changing car accident last week – sadly I was not able to be near her as I can’t afford the petrol to get to Whakatane where she now lives.) Being poor insures I am further marginalised, if I had the $10,000 in unpaid Independence Allowance ACC are currently withholding I would have been able to go and see her.

 

Last year lawyers at Masterton Court attempted to force me into something they referred to as a PINC court. Apparently Judge Morris was instrumental in setting this up for PEOPLE IN NEED (People In Need Court). I vehemently refused asserting I was no criminal, my actions in response to gross violations of my rights were completely legal. Also attempting to put me under the grossly corrupt/illegal Mental Health Act 1992 (at the height of National party neo-liberal corruption) to force me to take medication to control me was not going to happen if I could stop it. I am well aware of United Nations international law about my rights to refuse ‘medical treatment’ and why it was implemented after NAZI legalised experimenting on those they chose to persecute – namely disabled who couldn’t work at maximum productivity, govt rape victims, people with brown skin, homeless gypsies, homosexuals and jews.

 

It is interesting to note during consultations for the UN human rights process in New Zealand last year how 95% of the people participating were there about gross violations of human rights against people with mental health issues – particularly abuse victims. People who were not MENTALLY ILL, people who were MENTALLY INJURED as defined by ACC legislation. A normal brain and a normal person experiencing overwhelming trauma – overwhelming trauma that requires a safe place to heal/recover. With neo-liberalism requiring the privatisation and handing over of EVERYTHING TO ‘THE MARKET’, particularly state housing (which is a legal responsibility of the government under international and NZ law) the government stopped providing state housing and sold off everything they possibly could. In the Wairarapa they sold all state housing to either those people in the homes (if they could come up with the money for a deposit) or the ‘pub/gambling charity’ Trust House.

 

There is no need to say what I think of the grossly corrupted, deeply degrading and fraudulent charity industry after 30 years of neo-liberal economic religious beliefs and American Trump advisor Peter Thiel bragging how NZ is a Libertarian utopia – but I will anyway.

 

As you can see from this complaint it is a small/yet extremely significant moment in the gross injustices I experience in the justice, health and welfare systems since 2002. Currently I am excluded from all health services, I have no GP, no health care even when reports say I am very unwell, am disabled and been on invalids benefit for many years. I am not even allowed to phone Healthline I discovered recently, which is quite terrifying and I am sure related to formal complaints I have made about Compass Health board member, government contracted Bell Gully lawyer Simon Watt. Judge Barbara Morris knows about my allegations against Simon Watt, this is part of the information I have given to her in the past few months.

 

Judge Morris also knows I cannot get a lawyer and Forensic Mental Health assessors with conflicts of interest are being used to pervert the course of justice in my case. I currently have a complaint with the medical council about the last assessment and the three inappropriate assessors who agreed to assess me when Medical Council rules plainly state they should withdraw. I won’t go into that as I am becoming very distraught and had to self-harm again.

 

I am quite sure this complaint will be ignored, based on the past 17 years of valid complaints and rejections but if there is any remote chance ‘justice for the poor’ is returning to our legal system then I ask you to uphold my complaint. It seems strange a judge who has publicly identified that mentally ill and poor people are unjustly ending up in the court system and tried to do something about it is the one complained about – one of those neo-liberal abominations I often talk about in my work as a Civil Society Actor. If I had health care so I could return to ‘traditional paid work’ I wouldn’t have time to do as much as I do, wouldn’t you think those in power over me would do something to help me. Perhaps it is part of neo-liberalism for the government to violate the law in order to create jobs and profits for the justice industry and others.

 

Why ACC etc refuse me services was highlighted following the Christchurch Mosque shootings and the need for $millions in charity to support victims. Muslim victims of violent crimes getting help with money, housing, etc while local terrorised population get – counselling. We are No 1 in the world for domestic/flatmate violence, have been for many years due to illegal removal of state housing and people forced into unsafe unstable unaffordable living situations. I have expressed my resentment to Muslim groups involved about all the money and support they are getting. So far rich people have donated $11million, which is being held by government agency Victim Support. Once distributed to the victims of the mosque shootings, I imagine no more than 500 people directly affected that would be $22,000 each – enough for a deposit on a house (so long as they are not permanently disabled as people on welfare ARE NOT ALLOWED TO BORROW MONEY TO LIVE IN THEIR OWN HOME – a violation of disability legislation).

 

I hope with all my heart my complaint is acknowledge and addressed and in doing so will not only change my situation but the situation for approximately 1 million impoverished disabled victims who currently experience 80% of the crime in New Zealand. Sadly Jacinda Ardern deceitfully used these statistics in her propaganda marketing after the mosque shootings as an excuse for complaints in the news from mosque shooting victims.

 

Kia kaha and aroha to the poor and powerless.

Sincerely

JR

Civil Society Actor

HUMAN SEWAGE

 

 

Medical Council complaint, proof of New Zealand government corruption & cruelty

3 May 2019

 

Medical Council of NZ

PO Box 10509

The Terrace

WELLINGTON

 

Dear Sir/Madam,

 

This letter is to form part of my complaint about Justin Barry-Walsh and others using psychological abuse/torture in an attempt to drive me to suicide.

 

I am not sure how to talk about the background to this as it is very traumatising for me, I have communication impairments and need someone to insure I relate all the relevant information needed for the Medical Council to make a decision. Can you please help me work out how to do this, I am not sure myself, whether phone or face to face. I have no support to do this from anybody else.

 

This is in regard to being in court for my legal and valid protests about police violence, being illegally denied health care, punitive use of the justice system, government corruption, gross injustices in mental health and housing sector, etc. Legal Aid refused me legal aid, even when the judge said they were required to provide it so I had a lawyer.

 

On 1 May I heard from Nelda Day court officer that the second psych assessment would be 24 May, THE DAY AFTER I was due in court. The date of 23 May was made four weeks ago, the Forensic Service was required to provide a suitably qualified culturally appropriate ‘impartial’ psych assessment as requested by Judge Morris before the next court date – not the day after. The 23rd was chosen because I have a long term relationship of sorts with Judge Morris and she is determined to do whatever she can to get me the health care and justice I am entitled to under law – so I don’t end up in court repeatedly for my ongoing protests. She was going to be there on 23 May, she may not be there 10 days later.

 

I was advised the assessor was going to be Dr David Chaplow, ex Director of mental health and one of the people I have spent the past 17 yrs complaining/protesting about.   The first assessor was not who the court staff were told it would be, it was a very gay sounding man called Peter who only 18 months before wrote a report saying I didn’t want services – which was a horrendous lie.   Then I got Dr Barry-Walsh who I thought to be trustworthy, but obviously wasn’t from his report. Now they want Dr Chaplow, when I had requested Mason Drury or ANYBODY he recommended who knew Whare Tapa Wha and assessed on a culturally appropriate basis, ie as a Pakeha New Zealander. The judge supported this in her formal request to Forensic Services, it was ignored.

 

Finding out the court had organised the psych assessment for the day after I was due in court made me very angry and I challenged court staff about this.   I was told to contact Forensic Services as they were the ones who organised it, there was nothing they could do. Giving consideration to my extremely poor mental health what they were doing was psychological torture, vindictive, punitive use of the justice system and criminal under Sections 150A and 151 of the Crimes Act. It is also a perversion of justice which is a crime and subject to 7 years jail if convicted and of course many other human rights and disability rights laws.  I looked on the website and tried to phone head of Forensic Services Dr Emery-Palmer http://www.mhaids.health.nz/about-us/directors-of-area-mental-health-services/ given the seriousness of what was happening.

 

I went through to a call centre, the person asked me who I was because psychiatrists did not talk with patients who phoned, I told her I was not a patient. She phoned through to Dr Emery-Palmer and returned to me saying the doctor had said I was a patient and not to put me through. I reiterated I was not a patient and tried to explain the situation, the woman hung up on me.

 

As a writer I have a pretty good grasp of the English language and just to make sure looked up the word patient.   I am definitely not a patient by definition of the word, I am not registered with any health provider (am not allowed to register, the waiting list is 600 people long – mostly wealthy immigrants), I have not received any services from mental health for many years – no matter how many times I begged for professional health care I was entitled to. I have not received anything from public mental health services, except some counselling 25 years ago and the odd bit of social work (which is not health care). I did have some interaction with an Occupational Therapist in 2009 but when ACC illegally withdrew my actual professional rehabilitation the OT couldn’t cope and rejected me also. I had been working with a very professional and amazing OT Glenda vandervenLong at the time who was funded by ACC. The interaction with Hugh Gaywood-Eyre OT was more a therapeutic interaction, there was no ‘health care’ involved.

 

The last interaction I had with Hugh was at Masterton police station, I was on the floor with my arms around the ankles of the social worker sitting beside him begging for health care. Hugh told me to get up and stop embarrassing myself, that I knew as well as him there were no longer services in mental health. He left the service not long after that, I knew him through a club I belonged to for a while, we have discussed what happened, he left MH services as he couldn’t cope with how badly they treated people.

 

Being a patient would require some sort of regular interaction with the same person, I can’t recall that happening for a very long time. It distresses me greatly that other people appear to get professional health care and I do not. I have never understood why and people treat me like I’m a liar and delusional when I tell them what is happening to me, because it doesn’t happen to them. Hopefully the Medical Council and police can work out what has been happening to me. The only possible reason I can think of is my public protests and formal complaints, it is illegal to harm or disadvantage someone who makes a complaint.

 

With everything the media and government say about mental health services and the horrendous ‘suicide promotion’ propaganda we are all subjected to day after day, my mental health is denigrated even further by my experience of EXACTLY THE OPPOSITE to what is expected.

 

It appears to me Dr Emery-Palmer may be part of this appalling abusive behaviour by Forensic Services, I truly believe only a police investigation would be able to explain what is happening and how many it is happening to. I know from the laws I read it is not allowed to happen to me or anybody else.

 

Mental health services have more power over people and the opportunity for more abuses of power than police. What is happening to me might explain New Zealand’s world leading suicide, self-harm, domestic violence and eating disorder rates. Perhaps I am part of a targeted group of disabled people who are prevented from accessing professional health care, using professional health and rehabilitation models and whose valid complaints are illegally rejected.

 

Please make this stop, please, I have never hurt anybody, I barely drink, I don’t do drugs, I don’t steal, I don’t rip people off, I don’t bludge off people, I don’t gossip, I don’t gamble, I am not a sexual deviant or pervert of any sort. I am an honest good person just wanting health care I need and am entitled to so I can return to work for wages, so I can live with dignity and in safety without having to beg for food. My house is tidy and clean, my gardens are done, I share jars of jam & pickle I make with others, most of it goes to waste (when I get given fruit or produce people don’t want). I don’t want to live like this as an outcast of society, I am intelligent, I have reports that say it, I have a report from Justin Barry-Walsh 6 years ago that said I was intelligent, didn’t have a personality disorder and am not delusional. That is still true, unfortunately I don’t know if Justin is as sound minded.

 

I am 54 years old, why are they doing this to me, I am going to be destitute the rest of my life if they don’t help me, there is no point in living if this is what my life is going to be like.   Please I want to meet my grandchildren, please I don’t want to be despised by my family and the community, please I havn’t done anything wrong and I don’t understand why this is happening to me when every law and report I read says exactly the opposite should be happening. Please if I don’t work I know I will be raped, harmed and exploited again, please help me, this is what is happening in the ‘darklands’ where I live every day. Its very hard to avoid junkies and being told repeatedly to interact with very self-righteous wealthy Christians is extremely offensive. The times I have gone to churches for support I have ended up being the one supporting them, working for them for nothing, often doing things for people who were getting health services and had safe stable homes to live in.

 

Did I tell you about them cancelling an x-ray the doctor at A & E said I needed, so I went there and was told there was no appointment?   Did I tell you about mental health staff gossiping to people in the community about what a bad person I was (who then came and told me). If I was a patient of mental health services then I would be able to make formal complaints about this gossip and the horrendous violations of my most basic rights, I am not so I can’t.   How can somebody be a PATIENT of a health system that completely rejects them?   They treat sex offenders and abusive thieving junkies better than they treat their victims, I know that for sure.

 

What is happening to me is a criminal act and a deliberate perversion of justice

 

 

Yours sincerely

 

 

JR

HUMAN SEWAGE

 

Oranga Tamariki is ‘snatching babies’ & fascist Tracey Martin loves it

Here is the news article – and like other people I know there are children who should be protected and taken from abusive parents – I ALSO KNOW FOR A FACT there are many disabled parents who are being illegally denied ACC, health care and safe social housing who are losing their children – THAT IS ILLEGAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  THAT IS A CRIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Refer to NZ Disability Strategy, human rights laws and Signed ratified UN treaty on persons with disabilities.

https://www.newshub.co.nz/home/shows/2019/05/oranga-tamariki-isn-t-snatching-babies-children-s-minister-tracey-martin.html?fbclid=IwAR3jx-Wj0mbCazChVJkx9KJPlZazsunixr2JSeP7itVE4yMW0OpKNJbpWek

I can’t work out if Martin is corrupt or extremely ignorant, bigoted and full of hate towards those people neo-liberals have impoverished and persecuted for the past 30 years – that is obvious from her comments.   Will make sure I send her all my details about how I am being persecuted for my non-violent legal protests demanding the professional treatment care rehabilitation and housing EVERY SINGLE MENTALLY INJURED ABUSED MOTHER, FATHER, WOMAN, MAN AND CHILD VICTIM OF VIOLENT CRIME IS ENTITLED TO UNDER ACC LAW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why am I being targeted Tracey??????  I know a woman who had her children removed from her care AFTER she went in for surgery on a tumour.   The kids  have tried to run away multiple times, a new self-righteous social worker came in and wanted to make her mark ewwww.

Ask Tracey why our government made social workers HEALTH WORKERS a few years ago???  While the continue to refuse to acknowledge counsellors as health workers.   They made social workers health professionals under law SO IT WOULD BE EASIER TO STEAL THE CHILDREN OF MENTALLY INJURED ABUSED VICTIMS OF DOMESTIC/FLATMATE VIOLENCE.   This is a result of our illegal housing crisis and the government refusing to provide housing they are required to by law.

What is happening to me is part of this, NZ First are well aware of what is happening to me, Ron Mark lives in my town and I email him regularly to keep him up to date.

BELOW IS A COPY OF THE EMAIL I JUST SENT TO HER

Sent: Sunday, 19 May 2019 11:23 AM
To: Tracey Martin MP; ron.mark@parliament.govt.nz; winston.peters@parliament.govt.nz; news TVNZ; Breakfast TVNZ; news@newshub.co.nz; United Nations Association of New Zealand
Subject: ACC corruption, torture and criminal negligence in relation to mentally injured abused parents -mostly women #metoo

Hi Tracey,
YOu should ask Ron Mark and others who I am, been writing to NZ First for years about corruption at ACC and them illegally denying disabled mentally injured abuse victims the treatment care rehabilitation and safe stable housing they are entitled to under ACC legislation and multiple other constitutional laws, disability laws and of course multiple ratified UN treaties.
As Ron/NZ First knows what is happening to me and how ACC have perverted the course of justice in several ‘criminal’ cases of my LEGAL AND NON-VIOLENT JUSTIFIED PROTESTS, your part cannot pretend you are ignorant of what is NOT HAPPENING for abused women.
Your admittance that cruel immoral illegal neo-liberal economic terrorism is causing these children to be taken from their families – which causes intergenerational trauma (not wellbeing like the budget) with all members of the family.  Especially the children, I know a family now where the children were taken from their mother when she went in for surgery on a tumor.   One of the children tried to jump out of a moving MSD vehicle because they took her so far away from her family – she was running back home and OT didn’t like it.
We all know there are some children that need to be protected – but we also know there are now far more who are just being removed from families because they are terrorised poor.   You’re taking kids from families who are so poor they can’t function and giving them to foster families where there are two parents and one of them works full time – then you are going to give them even more money to look after these children.  WHY DON’T YOU INVEST THAT MONEY IN THE FAMILIES YOU ARE TAKING THE KIDS FROM – LIKE YOU ARE REQUIRED TO BY LAW????
 
I am absolutely disgusted, you really can’t be that ignorant Tracey – here is my social media, now I have emailed you and told you what is happening to me just for protesting LEGALLY about ACC and health care/housing for victims of crime – you can’t say you didn’t know when the international criminal court become involved.  No hope of getting any sort of justice under NZ court system – Judge Morris at the District Court can’t even get me legal aid or the health care I have been waiting for from ACC for 9 years after winning two reviews!
But then you already know all this, don’t you Tracey, you know and you don’t care because you just want to make money out of these people.
Here are the facts www.jrmurphypoet.com   YouTube JR Murphy Poet and facebook /jrmurphypoetmusician – if you want to know more get Ron and Winston to show you all the emails I have sent over the years since I was raped – when my  girls were 5 & 6.  Thankfully they are gone now and living successful lives, now you can’t take them from me like they tried to do many times, when I begged for the health care I am entitled to under ACC and other laws.
Social workers are the worst, most poorly trained people in New Zealand – ALL OF THEM have histories of abuse and all they want to do is hurt people they perceive as hurting a child that was once like them.  God help us all.  I have had dealings with social workers, they are truly horrendous people who have serious issues with abuses of power.  I was in an assessment and the social worker said it was bad parenting to cry in front of your children.
You’ve been sucked into the American Libertarian fascist hatred we are all suffering under – you need to spend a few days with me, I’ll explain where you are going wrong and how you can ACTUALLY HELP CHILDREN AND FAMILIES AND IT WILL COST A LOT LESS FOR THE TAXPAYER!
Sincerely
JR
Civil Society Activist
HUMAN SEWAGE

 

Email to NZ Independent Police Conduct Authority about my latest complaint –

I had to post this email about my latest complaint of police turning up at my home when they not supposed to be here, they wanted it forwarded to the IPCA who sent me a standard email about the process.  The irony of me currently being up on charges for Misuse of a Telephone because of IPCA is hilarious, couldn’t stop myself from writing what I thought.  Can’t imagine what goes through the head of the person who first reads this email, lol.

Dear Corrupt cruel neo-fascist team,

Any organisation that refuses to put a persons name on the letter is corrupt – everybody knows that.  It wasn’t me who made the complaint, I contacted police extremely distraught trying to find an email address for someone in authority who could stop what abusive local police are doing, they are the ones who wanted me to make a formal complaint –  they are the ones who referred it to you not me.   I couldn’t stop crying when they wanted it, because I am currently up on ILLEGAL CRUEL OPPRESSIVE FASCIST criminal charges for the last time I made a complaint of unwarranted violence by local police that you ignored and I phoned you to tell you what I truly thought of you and what should happen to the corrupt people in your organisation.   What happens to me and others I know should be happening to you and those people you know – that would be justice.
Of course there are other factors in my complaint, the years of illegal harassment and intimidation by CORRUPT police officers and IPCA staff allowing it to continue and get worse.  Please refer to all my previous complaints that you refused to do anything about in the hope I will kill myself or commit some violent crime so you can have me locked up and made homeless.
Other factors like Forensic Mental Health Services staff and Directorate of Mental Health staff and Parliamentary Services and senior police participating in perverting the course of justice in my current case – which I am being denied legal aid and a lawyer for – which includes your charge of Misuse of a Telephone.   From one of the corrupt/unprofessional reports I have received it appears there may be people in your organisation also be involved in illegally denying reinstatement of my ACC entitlements (which include $18/wk for the past 10 years) and using the justice process in a punitive way.
It appears from what the officer on the phone told me, local police are well aware they are not to come to my home unless to exercise a warrant – like when they came to terrorise me for the warrant they issued for your trumped up charges – I self-harmed and went through an extremely terrifying suicide episode because of you people – what you do to me is HATE IN ACTION.   Local police are also supposed to phone me if some self-righteous ignorant bigot has called them saying I was threatening to kill myself,  which they didn’t – even that terrifies me but its better than them turning up at my home.  Which is also a gross violation of the Magna Carta and other laws you neo-liberals/neo-fascists ignore in order to advance the rich and persecute the poor so you can profit from them.  I have new neighbours living on both sides of me, they saw those police officers, having police repeatedly at my home ensures I am consistently and over time marginalised and discriminated against.
Just wrote this for a laugh, its all true but I know how corrupt you are so I know nothing is ever going to happen.  A UN inspector told me once to keep making complaints and one day I would get justice and there would be a useful paper trail to follow to prove what has been happening to me as a Civil Society Actor living under Westminister law in a democracy.   Punitive use of the law and justice system to harm a disabled Civil Society Activist fighting for the health care and lawyer she is entitled to – is about as corrupt cruel and immoral as you can get.
Best of luck with that.
Sincerely
JR
Civil Society Activist
HUMAN SEWAGE

From: Independent Police Conduct Authority <case.resolution@ipca.govt.nz>
Sent: Wednesday, 15 May 2019 12:48 PM
To: jrouthan@hotmail.co.nz
Subject:  Your Complaint To IPCA – Ref: 18-2483,
As required by law, your complaint to Police of 10 May 2019, for an incident that occurred on 9 May 2019, was notified by Police to the Authority.
Your complaint will be assigned to a member of staff within the Authority’s Case Resolution Team who will assess your complaint and contact you in due course. This process may take up to two months.
If you have any other information relevant to your complaint that you would like the Authority to consider, please forward this to the Authority at case.resolution@ipca.govt.nz or to P O Box 25221, Wellington 6146.
Please refer to the Authority’s website [www.ipca.govt.nz]www.ipca.govt.nz for further information about the Authority or the complaints process.
Yours sincerely
 

Case Resolution Team

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Citizens Advice Bureau – Wairarapa – where & how NZ govt lie to people

I wanted to write to Citizens Advice Bureau in Masterton and apologise to the lady who had to endure the result of years of persecution by ACC, police, NZ govt and all neo-liberal terrorism I have suffered.  Also wanted to tell her I admired her for being strong enough to stand there and accept the extreme distress and rage coming out of me – for valid reason.  I know a New Zealander would never be able to do it, the lady I spoke to was from Sth Africa.

It was distressing for her I’m sure, to realise when she came to New Zealand she was driving a disabled and poor local from their home and culture.  Its not her fault of course, our cruel corrupt neo-liberal controlled government didn’t tell her they were going to drive purposely impoverished local population from their homes and give them to rich foreigners.  (Which is what causes fascism and what happened in ChCh).

New Zealanders refuse to accept what has cruelly and corruptly been done to this country over the past 30yrs since American/globalist neo-liberals/Libertarians took over.  They are just like Jacinda Ardern, in complete denial at the unnecessary suffering disabled, poor tenants and unemployed people are being subjected to.  In fact New Zealanders, through multiple media and councils, continue to think people on welfare are all addicts and bludgers and should not have anywhere to live, and should be required to beg for food.

Recently I was photocopying my complaint to the Medical Council about a psych report by head of psychiatry in Wellington Justin Barry-Walsh.  I had to stop when the cost got to $30, I only have $10 discretionary money to spend every week, I was yet again spending food on essentials of living, to try and get health care and justice.   Because I am poor I had to do this at Warehouse Stationery, I became more and more distressed when I was doing the photocopying, tears rolling down my face but trying not to show people I was extremely distressed and highly suicidal at the time.   People really hate you if you cry or become upset in public – especially politicians and rich people.

I became so distressed I ended up at Citizens Advice Bureau – I don’t really know why – I suppose because they keep telling people there is justice, there is health care, that everything is great in Wairarapa.  I had seen them a few times on Wairarapa TV, going on about how great things were – given the people saying it were wealthy immigrants, I can understand why they would think that.  Me being a purposely impoverished, persecuted disabled local victim of crime goes against everything they have been told to believe.

It wasn’t the first time I had been to CAB, to try and get health care and justice I am entitled to by law, which doesn’t exist in New Zealand at the moment.  Lots of organisations tell you to go to CAB when you say you can’t get health care and justice, that’s what they are told to say by their corrupt government bosses.

So more recently I phoned CAB extremely distressed by what was happening to me (ie no safe stable affordable housing, no doctor, can’t afford to live on disability, no health care, no lawyer, police violence etc), I was told by the woman on the phone what I needed was counselling.   I became even more distressed and hung up – what did this woman think a counselor did exactly – they don’t provide you a home, health care, protect you from violence or persecution.  They just sit there and listen, counsellors aren’t part of the medical establishment or health care.  Look up the law, they were purposely removed and social workers were included instead.

Not long after I dropped off one of my poetry posters called I Don’t Want to Live – in this cruel evil place.  I put my details on the back, gave them links to my youtube channel and website which they could have contacted me through – they ignored it.

I then went in a few weeks ago and left a message with my phone number on it to contact me about what was being said on the TV about CAB and how they could change the world and help people – that was also ignored.

So when I got there recently in an extremely distressed state I couldn’t stop the trauma and hatred I felt about what was happening to me coming out.  Those people are all older people who have homes to live in, lots of them are wealthy immigrants, all of them have watched neo-liberals advance rich and persecute poor for years and DONE NOTHING.  But what could they do anyway government and corporate terrorists were hell bent on implementing neo-liberalism and they are prepared to do ANYTHING necessary to do it.

IN fact neo-liberals/libertarians love it that people who purposely made unemployed and homeless have to beg for food, that is part of what they believe in.  I have studied disability I have been working in this field for 17 years, what the government say they do for people with disabilities is either not available or only available to certain types of disability and certain types of people.

Chris Hedges and his guests validate everything I am saying about certain groups of society being targeted for persecution by neo-liberal terrorists.  In New Zealand our hatred is squarely aimed at impoverished victims of crime – which has made the lies she has told about Victims of Mosque shooting even more insulting and incited even more hatred towards those people.   The millions of dollars they were given, when victims of crime in NZ are mostly treated like human sewage, if they are a woman and have children they are denied health care and welfare and their children are taken from them, they are denied safe stable affordable places to live.

The government have just announced children of disabled poor women will be removed because they can’t cope and their kids will be given to working foster parents – who are about to get a pay rise for doing it.   While ACC ILLEGALLY deny abuse victims childcare, homes and professional treatment care and rehabilitation, our government create laws to create jobs for foster parents, who are often also poor.   Ewwwwww

Chris Hedges and others are also saying NOBODY WILL DEBATE THE ISSUE OF NEO-LIBERAL TERRORISM OF POOR BY RICH!!!!!!!!!!!!!   Its true, nobody will, those making money out of neo-liberalism make sure there is no public debate on the issue.  I have been denied a voice and hearing by local and national leaders for years – they don’t want to hear how bad it is – they don’t want to seem me distraught and crying because my life is a living nightmare.   Only because ACC deny me health care I entitled to so I can get better and go back to work.  I PROTEST AND DO EVERYTHING I DO JUST SO I CAN GET HEALTH CARE AND GO BACK TO WORK.

I’ve been awake for hours, my heart is starting to hurt really bad, all these people ignoring what is going on.  Now I see the UN maggot is in NZ validating Jacinda Ardern, KNOWING SHE IS PERSECUTING ME AND OTHERS.   He knows this because I have written to him, last year after a statement he put out THAT WAS A BUNCH OF LIES, but looked good at the time.

WHEN AM I GOING TO BE HEARD, WHEN IS MY ART, SONGS AND OTHER THINGS GOING TO BE SEEN.  When is someone in this community going to protect me from police and economic violence for telling the truth about how bad it is rotting on welfare, denied health care and justice.  When is someone in this community going to protect my freedom of speech and expression.   Elitists are everywhere, they are allowed to have their opinions all over media, yet I am beaten up and terrorised for telling the truth.  How can people let this happen and then wonder why I am angry and distraught.

Carterton District Council CORRUPTION by neo-liberal extremists – Elisa Vorster

This is an email to Elisa Vorster, I spoke to her recently and asked about her neo-liberal/Libertarian beliefs, how they weren’t allowed if you were a public servant working for the government.   She is the marketing and propaganda expert for the council, she runs the council website, totally dedicated to wealthy immigrants driving disabled and poor locals from their homes and lives.  The only response she was capable of was insulting me and hanging up, like all guilt ridden greedy rich neo-liberals do.

Ms Vorster,

I have been thinking how to respond to the knowledge you are a radicalised neo-liberal/Libertarian terrorist that advances rich and persecutes poor.  A government ‘public servant’ who drives disabled and poor locals from their homes to make way for rich immigrants.  That is illegal, that is a crime, that is cruel, that is immoral, that is treason, that is a terrorist act (Terrorism Suppression Act) , that is a gross violation of NZ constitutional laws (Imperial Laws Application Act) and multiple UN ratified treaties signed by our government.

It is unclear if you understand what you are doing, or if you are young and just doing what you are told to do by people who belong to the economic religion people call neo-liberalism, the 21st century expression of NAZI youth, ewwwww.  Even though my interaction with you over the shameful ‘suicide’ propaganda you wrote for the Times Age would suggest you know full well what wealthy Libertarian elites you represent are doing to the disabled and ‘purposely impoverished’ local population.

You know as part of my disability Complex PTSD I am highly suicidal, this is mostly incited by THE FACT there is nowhere safe stable and affordable to live in Carterton where I have spent most of my adult life.  I have owned homes here, worked here, my children were born here, I have relatives buried in the cemetery here.  It is you and your criminal Libertarian cult members who currently running the Carterton Council who are inciting suicide, you all know that, you all know driving disabled and poor people out of this community is doing that.

The ONLY REASON we have GOVERNMENT and LAWS is to keep the peace between rich and poor.  That is why the first Imperial Law of NZ is Westminister Statute the 1st – common right be done to all rich as poor.   Which means you are not allowed to advance the rich and persecute the poor (especially to profit from them), you are not allowed to set up a ‘local government’ that purposely does that.  It is illegal to violate the inherent dignity of a person, that includes forcing them to beg for food – which is what you do through the food bank.

My personal situation involves being illegally denied health care I am entitled to under ACC and other laws, this includes a culturally appropriate home to live in, in my community.  A community run by extremely corrupt and cruel people who are mostly delusional and in deep denial about they unnecessary suffering, violence, suicide, crime and hatred they perpetrate with their elitist radicalised bigotry.   I don’t want food, I want health care and a job so I can live with dignity and in safety – forcing people like myself (ie disabled destitute mentally injured victims of crime) to beg for necessaries of life is EVIL.   I can’t actually think of a word that describes accurately just how cruel and corrupt you all are.

The second law of NZ is Magna Carta which says quite plainly you are not allowed to destroy people and they must have access to right and justice.  You can’t be that ignorant not to understand you are destroying people like me Elisa or that there are gross injustices being perpetrated against disabled and poor members of this community.
Government aren’t there to follow the majority – that’s how we ended up with WWII – that is why the UN was created and the rules of the UN were made – to stop another NAZI Germany.  Sadly, all those UN treaties are being violated by you, your council and our government since 1984 neo-liberal takeover of NZ.  We have Bill of Rights laws about how people who are elected and work for the government are supposed to behave, its how you keep power in check and STOP gross abuses of power (which is happening now and so blatantly obvious in Carterton).
You, the councillors and your colleagues are abusing your positions of power and using them to advance the rich and persecute the poor, as well as exploiting the poor you have purposely created.   You know bringing in 1000s of rich immigrants – which is what you promote on the Carterton Council website is inciting violence, hate and suicide – you know it is going to drive disabled and poor members of this community out of their homes into dangerous and inhuman situations.   THIS IS NOT MY CULTURE, THIS IS NOT MY PAKEHA CULTURE, THIS IS NOT MAORI CULTURE, THIS IS NOT THE culture of any country on this planet.   This is the takeover of our society by wealthy elites who are consumed by greed and abuses of power against disempowered terrorised majority of the population.
There is nothing I can do to stop you of course, I do my best with my art and formal complaints about what is happening to me.  It becomes extremely overwhelming, the more I realise and discover just how cruel and corrupt neo-liberals in power/government/media are, the more terrified I become.   From my extensive study of the rise of neo-liberalism it is obvious things are going to get much worse and we are going to end up in a violent and bloody revolution.  Sadly people  like the ChCh mosque shooter and Wairarapa white supremacists are incredibly stupid and don’t understand it is those in power, controlled by wealthy globalist elites, who are ensuring they have inadequate resources to live, not the person at the mosque.
This email is to make sure you understand what you are doing by encouraging in foreigners knowing locals will be driven from their homes and into inhuman situations is a crime (and uncivilised behaviour).  I will be writing to all other councillors to explain that is what they are doing also and it is also a crime, although I do think those involved in brainwashing propaganda are the worst part of this deceit/cruelty.  Perhaps one day Rule of Law, justice and decency will return to New Zealand local and central government, until then I will do my best to stay alive (although there is no reason to live whatsoever) and hold a mirror to your vile hatred.
I think this needs to be a public letter, so I will put it on my website for everybody to see.  I have youtube videos with your name on them I’m sure, that is how disgusted I was with your attitude towards suicide.  You are part of the rich pig sty that of course creates suicide ewwwwww – the thought of what you do makes me want to be physically sick.   How do you sleep at night, do you hate me and others like me so much, what have I ever done to you?????  What have I ever done to any of you neo-liberal extremists on the local council, I don’t steal from you, I don’t drive you from your homes, I don’t hurt your children, I don’t hurt you – and yet you do that to me and think its LEGAL AND OK?????
It appears local community and business leaders are incapable of discussing and debating the gross violations of constitutional laws in Wairarapa.  My art is censored from exhibition, I am terrorised by police and persecuted for telling people the truth about what it is like living rotting on welfare in this country.   I am violently assaulted by police for my NON-VIOLENT protests, I am censored from exhibition by council staff, police and ‘community’ organisations because they don’t like the art I create about what is happening to me and others.  It is 2019 and everything the United Nations and our constitutional/human rights/civil rights laws say about justice and right is unjust and wrong.  That is why feudalism is back, that is why the rise of white supremists, fascists, racists, hatred and bigotry.
It was shocking to see some woman charged with inciting racism when your marketing of Carterton on the council website is what is ACTUALLY INCITING racism and all those other things that happens to people denied the necessities of life!
You had better hope the bible isn’t true and more people don’t find out what you are and what you do Elisa.  If it is I feel very sorry for you, because you have been tested and failed and you will be going to hell if you don’t act to stop the advancement of the rich and persecution of the poor.
I’ve realised I am not a political person, I used to think I was, but I didn’t understand the VOLDAMORT of politics I was expected to abide by – neo-liberal terrorism of poor by rich.  My only interest is truth and justice and everybody knowing what the truth is and what injustices are being perpetrated by those abusing their positions of power – which is what you and your colleagues do.
How do you sleep at night, women are raped because of you (I know of one only recently due to housing crisis), children are raped and harmed because of you, people kill themselves because of you, people unnecessarily suffer and cry because of you, people die because of you – while on the other side of that those you represent become more greedy, more filled with hatred, more cruel, more violent, more self-righteous, more abusive, more bigoted and more abusive.   I know this because I live in the darklands of this community as an impoverished disabled abuse victim, I know how terrible people have become.
Sarah Greenall is a contract gardener to John Booth the mayor, we were once very good friends, our children grew up together, I saved her life during a medical emergency couple of years ago and supported her many times due to her disability – I was executor of her will until late last year.   She had told John Booth and other leaders of this community she associated with about my situation with ACC, mental health and police etc – they had done nothing but discredited, insulted and turned her against me.  This culminated in her violently assaulting me in December last year, along with a tirade of elitist neo-liberal abuse so vicious and violent I am still in shock.  All those years of good times with her and her son, all now reminders of the hatred and bigotry people like John Booth incite in our community.
I get my information from some very good news sources on the internet, you should educate yourself as well, especially about ANOMIE and what that means in a society in deep decay – which New Zealand society is. Check out Chris Hedges, Noam Chomsky, Prof David Harvey, Glenn Greenwald, Naomi Klein – look up neo-liberalism and what it actually means.  Trying to keep this information and what is happening to people like me censored and secret is illegal and is corrupt.  You are a criminal Elisa – just like in NAZI Germany, everything neo-liberal NAZI are doing in NZ to harm and persecute poor people has been made legal, however these laws aren’t valid.  Neo-liberalism is illegal, you are not allowed to take a country from one of equality to one of inequality by advancing the rich and persecuting the poor in order to profit from them.  Profiting from them includes getting a buzz out of forcing them to beg for food from you.  ewwwww
I truly hope something really bad happens to you and those you love Elisa, I truly hope what happened to me happens to you, then you’ll find out the true meaning of the word persecution and corruption.   I am a non-violent activist but I know for a fact some very disturbed people live in this community (driving mentally ill out of hospitals to destabilise our society was a neo-liberal terrorist act) those people are being driven mad and at the moment harming other poor people and those around them.  They have started working out who is really to blame for their situation, that’s why ChCh happened, that’s why all the MPs shut down electorate offices – they knew they incited the ChCh terrorist attack.
Sincerely
JR
Civil Society Activist
HUMAN SEWAGE

Open Letter to WINZ Masterton manager Michelle & Jacinda Ardern & royal family

Dear Michelle & those who control her,

It the next morning after what happened yesterday, I am still incredibly fragile and on the verge of tears, my eyes are swollen I cried so much yesterday.  I can’t believe how inhuman cruel and callous you were, what is it about a desperate destitute terrified persecuted suicidal abuse victim that turns you into this???   The only word I can find to describe your appalling cruelty is EVIL.

You are going to give me an extra $7 when my rent is going up $40.   I know people living in motels for $150 a night and WINZ pay their rent – why won’t you pay mine???????   They don’t have to pay it back either – or do they????  Its the government who required to provide housing to disabled people, under the law, they havn’t and they show no signs of doing it so more people suffer, suicide, harm and are harmed.  WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO US MICHELLE – YOU ARE THE MANAGER OF WINZ MASTERTON – YOU MUST KNOW WHY THE GOVERNMENT CONTINUE WITH THESE SUICIDE CAUSING HATRED AGAINST DISABLED AND POOR FORCED TO ROT ON WELFARE.

When I phoned you I had been unable to get myself out of bed all morning, I had been trying to cope with the huge increase in my rent, trying to forget it was going to happen, trying to forget that things were about to get much much worse when I already couldn’t cope.   Having that sexual pervert contact me though the accommodation sign I put up at the supermarket made me even more frightened.

You do understand my behaviour is related to extreme overwhelming fear after years of medical neglect, criminal negligence, violence and discrimination by ACC, police, MOH, MSD and others.   I am not mentally ill, there is nothing dysfunctional about how my brain is reacting, it is completely normal to be terrorised to the point of Complex PTSD after this many years of persecution by neo-liberal extremist economic religious beliefs being implemented.  The way people who WERE PURPOSELY IMPOVERISHED were treated after 100,000s became unemployed with this new economic religion was criminal.  I still hope and pray one day those who did it and changed welfare laws especially to be cruel and degrading to those who WERE NO LONGER ALLOWED TO WORK will be prosecuted in a criminal court – and of course humiliated in public.

I have a mental injury, not a mental illness and as it sounds my brain is completely normal just my environment causing the damage and ongoing dysfunction – that is what neo-liberals want and get after 30 years, it insures people are kept terrified and they can create jobs and profits for drug companies, lawyers, security industry etc.

Why would you insult me on the phone like that when I was experiencing such overwhelming despair – Tina Hemi would never ever have insulted me like you did.  Obviously you have never been around someone suicidal and HATE them like most people do, like our government do, like neo-liberals do.   Why can’t you listen to the despair you create, I would imagine every single person who has the misfortune of having to deal with WINZ cries themselves to sleep many many times, your organisation is so degrading and demeaning.  Although rich people who turning 65 love it, especially if they are still working at high paid jobs.

How do you reconcile that with the suffering and economic violence you commit against disabled poor people like myself?   That old rich people in good jobs are going to get welfare when they turn 65, I would imagine you would do that so would be in complete agreement with it.  After all they wouldn’t have made you manager if you weren’t doing what neo-liberals in power wanted you to – and do it with conviction – you are certainly good at that.

If you are not going to hear my desperate screams for health care, justice and decent work, then who is, someone on the street perhaps?  A self-righteous Christian perhaps that wants to hug and insult you, telling you its only temporary and things will get better if you are a good person.   I am a good person Michelle, I understand the rape was just something bad that happened, but what the government, ACC, my family and ‘friends’ did to me after was worse than being raped.  What you are doing to me now is worse than being raped, the trauma I felt after yesterday is like getting over a rape or an attempted murder.

That’s what being as suicidal as I was yesterday is like, being the victim of your best friend trying to kill you, you made that feeling so much worse.  I have to sit on the side of my bed rocking backwards and forwards trying not to go to the knife drawer and end it, it is a living nightmare, torment and of course psychological torture.  You did that to me Michelle, I am not mentally ill for what happened – I walk around trying to pretend everything is OK and going to be OK, then it just all comes out and I can’t hold it back.  You would see this a lot with the people you terrorise, degrade and persecute, I would imagine the more intelligent and harmed by violence they are the worse it is.

Someone told me you have a lot fewer people forced to come in begging for food and money to live, that must make it so much easier for you, not having to look these people in the eye.  But then as manager you would seldom see the consequences of your cruelty, easier to keep doing it when you don’t have to face it.  That is what I have found over the years of protesting about being denied professional health care, rehabilitation and state house I am entitled to under ACC and other laws.  Books on abuses of power and cruelty are filled with it.

Check out the Milgram Experiment on youtube or the Stanford Prison experiment – you are the  person flicking the switch to kill people because someone in authority over you says, someone in a white coat says I am mentally disturbed and not to listen to me – but you know that’s not true, don’t you Michelle.   You are the violent guard enjoying his power over others, I am the prisoner they keep putting in the cupboard.

Please explain to me why the meeting Tina & Richard at WINZ were trying to organise between ACC, police, mental health, WINZ and myself was cancelled?   Don’t I at least have the right to know what happened and what was said, under the OIA and Privacy ACt I am entitled to a copy of my file, please provide that.  I would imagine the government is so corrupt they have avoided keeping emails or only done illegal things to harm me by phone, could you please write down WHY this meeting failed.   Please tell me why its OK I don’t have a doctor, why I don’t have professional health care when I won two court cases in 2010/11.  Please tell me why, please help me understand why I am being treated so cruelly when I am so unwell and all I want to do is go back to work and be safe in my own home.

All WINZ and government talk about is how people should work, I want to work more than anything, please help me be able to do that, please I am begging you.  At the moment I am so unwell terrorised being in a social situation wouldn’t be possible.  But my art and creativity is off the scale with the amount of stress and trauma I am being subjected to, why can’t we use that?   I not only do art about how bad my life is and how bad neo-liberal terrorism is, I do other stuff, lots of stuff, plays especially which could be world famous and perfect for tourists.   Stories about birds and races around  The Pinnacles, Palliser bay Sweeper,  Cook Strait, Harbour Hairpin, Wainui hill, Mount Aorangi, it goes over and over in my head.  I can see it as a play done by children in schools, a play done by professional actors at skate parks and other venues and of course a movie on the scale of Avatar.   The race route probably goes over James Cameron’s property, not that a worthless piece of garbage like me would ever get the opportunity to develop a story/myth etc like that.   One that includes Maori legend and disabled people/birds etc.

Please I have so many ideas for jobs, especially the amount of industrial waste I am seeing come from the building industry, its deeply disturbing and would be an excellent way of trying to earn my own money.  Sadly after the last police assault they damaged my wrist permanently this time and as it requires a lot of working with my hands I couldn’t do it for very long, but I’m sure there would be other disabled people I know DESPERATE FOR WORK who would.  So many of them expected to volunteer for free – volunteering should be for people who DON’T WANT TO WORK, not for people who do!  Exploiting disabled people by making them feel guilty if they don’t volunteer is disgusting – these people are so desperate.

I have been in several businesses in the past, I know what I am capable of now and I know I could not run a business, I NEED HELP AND HEALTH CARE I AM ENTITLED TO SO I CAN HEAL AND RETURN TO WORK.   That is all I have ever wanted, I thought that is what you wanted to, that’s what all the marketing and cruel demands to apply for 100s of jobs is about isn’t it.

Please be assured what you are doing for the government is driving people to violence and suicide, that is immoral and cruel.  Until recently NAZI were being put on trial and put in jail even in their 90s because of crimes during their reign of terror – only for those targeted for persecution and blame, not the bulk of the population.  The similarities about what I have read about pre-WWII Germany and what our govt are currently doing to targeted minorty group I am part of is terrifying.   How you cannot see this, when you are one of the GENERALS in this neo-liberal/NAZI persecution and exploitation of poor by insane wealthy elities is beyond me.  Hoefully this letter will get through to you and you will turn on those in the white jackets and not perpetrate the cruelty you are.

You text me with a $50 food grant on my card – I’m sorry I can’t use it and I find it extremely offensive you would do that after yesterday – I didn’t beg you for food did I?????  You remind me of some rich ignorant selfish neglectful parent who doesn’t want to spend any time with their child and just gives them THINGS to shut them up.  Causes a lot of teenage suicide in rich families.    I can’t use the food grant because I would have to go to a supermarket when I am really really fragile and offend the minimum wage checkout operator.  You obviously completely reject the idea that young people and most older women who required to work in these low paid jobs are resentful of people that LOOK OK and don’t work, getting food for free through the government/through their taxes.

You told me the last time I was forced to beg for food that there was no food grant money left for human sewage like me – now all of a sudden you come up with it – only to make yourself feel better about what you are doing to me.  Did the police suggest it perhaps, you phoned them to come intimidate me cause you know what they did to me and how terrified I am of them.  Thankfully they know not to engage with me unless they really have to – that’s because most police officers are disgusted in what is happening to me, but like you do their jobs without question.

I’m sure with having corrupt abusive Forensic Mental Health staff in your building they’ve illegally filled you in on all the lies they tell about me refusing mental health care.  I HAVE NEVER EVER REFUSED PROFESSIONAL MENTAL HEALTH CARE, they have refused me multiple times, then say to others I don’t want care.   Why do you think I am so screwed up, its because they lie and I can do nothing to stop the lies either.   I will be posting my 37 page complaint to medical council and privacy commissioner re Dr Justin Barry-Walsh in next few days.  It was interesting how when he is supposed to consult with my family, friends and others I suggest, he instead went to mental health services, police and lawyers that have never represented me.   I asked told him he could contact Tina, as she has known me for so long and understands the deterioration in my mental health over the years.

I am very sad you hurt Tina for helping me, very very sad and deeply disturbed.   Hopefully if I ever get a legal inquiry into how badly I have been treated, what people in teh system have done to try and help me and been disadvantaged for will be addressed.  Hopefully they will get compensation and recognition of the bullying and cruel tactics they were subjected to by their bosses LIKE YOU.

Did I tell you I can’t use the card because I feel so degraded and worthless when I do, I would rather eat my own feces at the moment.  Wish I could go to the food bank, I just can’t, those people are as degrading as WINZ, except they can go home and gossip about those people they gave food to – because they were losers who didn’t want to work!

I wish I didn’t HATE you but I do, I really really HATE you and everybody doing this to me – all of it illegal.  After 17 years of study I know my rights, I know what is happening to me and I know why, I also know it is illegal uncivilised and cruel.  Unlike majority of people who live in the darklands of this neo-liberal hell hole I spend almost all my waking hours trying to get help so I can work and educating myself as to why I can’t get what the law says, keeping myself informed of local and world events.  I seldom watch TV, can’t stand the advertising and propaganda, have you seen the neo-liberal propaganda ASB Bank is vomiting all over us at the moment.  How we are all one people no matter how many different nationalities.

Its extremely disturbing propaganda, putting so many cultures together who are driving disabled and poor locals out of their homes, jobs, health care, etc and our govt and business leaders committing cultural genocide against PAKEHA, ewwwwww.

Please ask yourself why you HATE me and persecute me, I never hurt you, I never stole your money, I never took food from your fridge and cupboard, I never insulted or patronised you, I never hurt any of your children or your family, I never drove you out of your home, I never made your life a living nightmare – I don’t even know you – so why do you do it to me??????  Is that why you couldn’t handle my phone call and answerphone messages, because I put the blame directly onto you as a human being and woman?   You want to pretend you’re just doing your job and hurting/terrorising disabled people like myself is your job.

I cant go on, I’ve started crying again, my heart is broken, what a evil cruel country I live in.

My heart is low
My head is bowed
From the depths the hell does rise
I can hardly move
Nothing will sooth
My broken heart no longer flies

I can see no future
Now a tortured creature
Looking out from blackened eyes
So much rejection
Like an injection
Of the suicidal size

Our society
Don’t want to see
How the system is full of lies
The market torture wheel
Doesn’t care or feel
They’re paid to ignore your cries

The money men
Shake hands and then
Hide their crimes behind skirts and ties

enD

This is dedicated to you Michelle, to you Jacinda and to you William (or more correctly to your mum who is a distant relative of mine).

Complaint about Masterton Hospital’s abusive health processes A & E

This is a complaint about services at Masterton Hospital A & E, I am writing them on my blog and sending the link and a copy to the PATIENT EXPERIENCE (laugh out loud) person at the Wairarapa DHB, who always refuses to address any complaints,  This is not about the A & E doctor and nurses I dealt with on Monday 1 April when I presented with my badly grazed hand full of footpath grit I couldn’t get out myself, they were kind and professional.

This is about what happened on Wednesday 3 April when I went back to have the x-rays the doctor at A & E ordered only to discover the request had been removed and I was severely traumatised by the series of events that followed.  What should have taken 20mins to get an x-ray took 2 hours due to the negligence and unprofessional behaviour of unknown medical staff who cancelled the X-ray.

As part of the impairments I must deal with regarding my Complex PTSD, when stressed my flight and freeze response is set to extreme, so it is very difficult when that feeling you don’t want to be somewhere comes on, because your homing beacon goes off and the feeling to run away is overwhelming.  I missed out fight response because I can usually deal with that now, but I do believe it makes the other two much worse.

On Monday I fell over, I hurt my hand, I tried to get the stones under my skin out, but they were lodged and the pain was excruciating, I had no Panadol or alcohol to dull it.  The only way to get them out was the hospital A & E, I currently do not have a doctor and the Carterton Medical Centre is extremely hostile towards me, also I am not registered I would have to pay $75 to see a nurse – maybe more.  I don’t have $75, I live terrorised and poor on invalids benefit in a rental I can’t afford.

It was a huge decision for me because the last few times I have been at A & E were extremely traumatising.  There is a TV screen at A & E that constantly says not to go there if you can go to your GP, which makes me feel really really bad.  It says other things that are very upsetting about suicide and violence, about how there is support when I know what they offer is worse than no support at all.

The last time I was there for myself was when the police violently assaulted me with handcuffs and caused permanent damage to my right wrist.  I can’t talk any more about that as it is triggering me again.  Because my injury was again my right wrist I became triggered by continuous flashbacks to my hospital visit after the last two acts of unwarranted criminal violence towards me.  Both I made complaints about, both ignored, two officers even lied in court about what happened.  And my visits to A & E were both traumatic because SOME staff were unprofessional, did not know how to accommodate impairments related to my disability and made the experience worse.

Even now I am starting to became distressed about what happened and I really don’t want to write this because I HATE BEING UPSET AND CRYING, but I know I have to and I know I am not going to have to write it again.

I had to wait less than an hour, the receptionist didn’t like it but allowed me to stay to have the wound on my palm dealt with.  I was doing all I could to not be triggered by the flashbacks I started to have and being surrounded with government propaganda of police and threats to be removed if you become abusive.  As I now have a tourettes type response with triggered it is very distressing that might happen and staff wouldn’t understand and have me removed or police called – I am terrified of most police.

I managed to not cry and not tick for most of the time I was waiting, thank God.  Where once I could have easily dealt with such an event, with my disability I am unable to cope (without the health care ACC were supposed to reinstate in 2010, or the services mental health say they provide but just not to me).  I was seen by Dr Smith, I had to wait 45 mins for a numbing cream to work before he started to remove the skin and grit, I was also given gas.  I asked him if there was a hospital volunteer or someone who could sit with me while I waited alone in the cubicle as I was trying not to freak out and resist the urge to run away (leave the hospital), cry, rock and curl up in a ball in the corner of the room (which had happened after the first police assault and threats of worse violence when I was left alone for a long time by health staff).

They couldn’t get anybody like that so the nurse sat with me and talked for as long as she was able.  I was very grateful they had listened to my request, this is what I do to manage impairments related to my disability so I am not further traumatised/harmed (my disorder is compounding) and my life extremely stressful anyway.  When Dr Smith finished dressing the severe grazes he felt around my wrist and I winced when he touched the inside of my wrist.  This was very painful, but had remained sore to touch since the police assaulted me in August? 2018.  He suggested I have an x-ray, I told him I had one last year when I hurt it and there was nothing, he wanted me to have another anyway.  I told him I had not been able to have any follow up after the wrist injuries last year because of my stress disorder and not being able to stay in A & E, as well as having no doctor, or being able to go to a doctor.

I started to cry as I wanted to have the x-ray but I had been fighting myself for the entire time I was there so I didn’t run away, now he added on some more time my psych just couldn’t cope.  Dr Smith understood why I couldn’t stay, he understood I wanted the x-ray but had reached my coping limit, he suggested I come back for the x-ray when I was feeling better.   I cried again because he understood and offered me an option that accommodated my impairments and would allow me to get the health services I needed.  So few hospital and health staff ever do this, or even know they should.   The continuous propaganda about EVERYBODY HAS CHOICES seems to make most people callous and cruel towards people who can’t do things out of extreme fear (based on past experiences), and of course serious mental health & psychosocial issues.

Dr Smith was so nice, he did a great job, hurt me as little as he could, though it did hurt.  He reassured me several times that he would leave the x-ray request at the x-ray department and all I would need to do was come back to there, without having to go through A & E (which traumatises and triggers me).   Can someone please make sure Dr Smith sees the x-rays as I think they gave me some other person to view them and I don’t know if that person is trustworthy.

My discharge summary says under Advice to Patient.

Jayne we have cleaned and dressed the abrasions – all the sand has been washed out.
Keep the dressing on for 5-7 days – replace as needed
You can get it wet – just dry it gently.

Your urine tested positive for infection – herewith the script

You are still tender in the wrist – I have put in for an xray – attend when suits if you don’t want to today.

Come back any concerns

I had been trying to make myself go to A & E for months about my ongoing bladder/kidney infections as I havn’t seen a doctor for years due to my disability and appalling unprofessional behaviour by Carterton Medical Centre and others.  I now also can’t afford to see one as it will cost me $75 from my invalids benefit.  I have had these infections getting worse for years, corresponding with my period on a monthly basis.  I have to wear a pad every day and have humiliating experiences with wetting myself, especially when my bladder is infected.  About five years ago, while living in Wainuiomata I tried to have the worsening incontinence addressed and was supposed to go for ‘invasive’ tests.  My mental health was very bad over there due to my dangerous living situation at the time and ACC continuing to reinstate my care from 2009.  The nurse I was working with organised for the tests but when I said I needed my mental health care reinstated so I had psychosocial support to attend she was very callous and cruel.  She said if I didn’t want to go that was my choice, also there was nothing she could do about getting me the ACC or mental health care I was asking for, no  matter how many tribunal hearings I had won (I had won two).

This current infection has lasted more than three weeks so far and I manage it with parsley tea a few times a day, I can’t drink coffee or even a small amount of alcohol or it sets it off.  I had to go to the toilet to pee twice while waiting at A & E.  I desperately need to see a doctor, mental health know this, the Minister of Health and several MPs know this, Kieran McAnulty knows this, Stephen Enright at Director of mental health’s office knows this, DHB mental health services know this, Carterton Medical Centre know this, police know this, court staff know this, Simon Watt from Compass Health/Bell Gully knows this, so do Masterton Medical and Whaiora (who both said they weren’t taking more clients, which I don’t believe is true, when at MMC with my sick friend recently I watched a young man come in and sign up on the spot, he wasn’t told they weren’t taking patients – which is what emails from MMC told me).  I have made previous complaints to the DHB about not being able to access health care and being discriminated against, all are ignored.

I told the nurse about the infection and she did a urine test to confirm, Dr Smith gave me some antibiotics but I didn’t really want them because I knew this was an issue that required surgery, not continuous antibiotics.  My bladder doesn’t empty properly due to a kink in my urethra (this is an hereditary condition), I already have a pelvic sling, put in 17 years ago.  Bacteria builds up and causes infections, which move up into my right kidney and cause me pain.  My right kidney doesn’t work properly from being sick when a baby, my left kidney is 1.5 times normal size to compensate – according to ultrasound tests done before my pelvic sling operation.  I tried to have this health issue addressed years ago but failed due to ignorant cruel negligent health staff.

I went to have the xray on Wednesday, I don’t like going to the hospital because of what the DHB have done to me in the past (ie they had me arrested and dragged through court for wilful trespass for doing a legal protest about abusive negligent mental health staff) and because of my flashbacks to police violence I have had to go there to get treatment.  I had prepared myself, I was relatively calm (although a good friend of mine is very sick at the moment and I have been having to support her, spent hours with her at A & E the Monday before my accident and every day since – she refused to stay in hospital like they wanted – she also has a stress disorder).  I have also become very isolated and terrified of being around people as I am subjected to a lot of discrimination and have little money to go out due to the grinding stressful terrifying poverty I am being subjected to.  I never drink much alcohol, I go out to socialise with people, I can sing and used to go to karaoke every week but I don’t do that any more after several horrible bigotry events at the venue.

I got to the x-ray department, I said Dr Smith has left an x-ray request for me.  I had to get money out of my very small savings account ($55) to pay for the petrol to get there.   I am too terrified and unwell to catch public transport in Wairarapa, most people in this region are horrible to people like myself, it is very sad and completely ignored by our community leaders.  The woman at the desk said there wasn’t a request and I became very upset, being told there is health care and being refused it at the cliff face is the story of my life since I was hurt in a crime in 2002.

She was very nice and said she would sort it out when I told her what Dr Smith had said.  The sorting out was horrendous for me, I was forced to go back into the A & E department and wait to be seen again, which took a long time, I was very unwell and traumatised, rocking, ticking, crying, almost curled up in a ball at times.  The posters and TV screen were subjecting me to constant flashbacks and it was all I could do not to run out of the building.  Then one of the advertisements on the DHB controlled TV THAT CANNOT BE SWITCHED OFF BY STAFF came up as Speak out about violence towards women.  The same words on the banner in the Masterton police station I threw red washable poster paint on in January 2018 in response to police lying and getting away with violently assaulting me and threatening me with ‘as bad as police could be’ – eg Louise Nicholas I assumed.  The same banner I am currently in court for, that I still can’t get a lawyer for and have strangely and illegally been denied legal aid.

I became distraught when I saw that on the screen, I asked the receptionist to turn it off, begged her to turn it off.  She came and turned off TV that was on some TV show off, I told her it was the other one that was triggering me, she said she couldn’t turn that one off.  That screen was also showing advertisements for how great mental health services were and to go to your doctor, all things I know are not true.  Anybody who has read George Orwell’s book 1984 would be horrified – I was horrified, they were even advertising the private hospital as better than public hospital waiting times – ie driving privatisation by illegally causing unnecessary suffering and death.

Under the Official Information Act can I please have a copy of all the advertisements that were playing in the morning on Wednesday 3 April in the A & E department at Masterton Hospital.

Several nurses came to see me, through my distress I told them Dr Smith had requested the x-rays.  Nobody would tell me why they had been cancelled, nobody would tell me who cancelled them, because I know Dr Smith wouldn’t have, he was quite adamant I was to have the xray and I would be seen at the department when I could make myself go there.

I want to know who cancelled the xray and why they would do that knowing I was going to come in, they had verified all my contact details with all their forms on the Monday, they could have phoned or text me to say not to come.  They also would have had to give me an explanation why  Dr Smith had changed his mind, which I bet they didn’t have.  The person who cancelled the xray was a cruel ignorant spiteful person who violated my rights as a disabled person by refusing to accommodate impairments related to my disability.  Impairments Dr Smith had recognised and dealt with so professionally and SOMEONE had removed which will make it even more difficult to go to A & E or the hospital.  My Complex PTSD is compounding, so trauma on trauma just makes me more unwell and being denied mental health, ACC and other necessaries of life by our cruel corrupted neo-liberal controlled health system is killing me.

Note I have not taken the antibiotics and Dr Smith said I should keep the script if my bladder infection gets so bad I can’t stand it and parsley tea doesn’t work.  I havn’t picked up the script for paracetamol either and don’t have any in the house, because it would be $5 through the chemist.  I don’t have spare money for things like that, plus I self-harm and going through pain unnecessarily is part of my disorder.  Its to do with being suicidal, knowing there is absolutely no hope for my future and wanting to die – you don’t want to care for yourself if there is no reason to live.

I would also like to note from being with my friend at A & E the Monday before and my visit, that the time until we are seen by a nurse is different to that put on the Discharge Summary.  Also both of us said we were smokers and it says we don’t smoke, what’s that about?  Funding perhaps?  I don’t drink, I don’t do drugs, I do hardly anything I used to before I was hurt and my life is extremely stressful so sometimes I smoke.  I wish I didn’t but self-harming to cope is really really horrible & smoking is less and of course social.  The friends I have now have disabilities, can seldom get work and all smoke, dying slowly at least will end our lives early.  Living poor in New Zealand is a living nightmare after 30 years of illegal austerity, advancing of rich and persecuting of poor to profit rich.  I’m sure DHB Chair Paul Collins knows exactly what I am talking about, he has been instrumental in driving Wairarapa to No 1 in NZ for suicide, No 1 for compulsory treatment orders and psychotropic drug prescriptions, No 1 in NZ and the world for self-harm and youth suicide, etc etc.