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Judge B Davidson – corrupt elitist pig – New Zealand

Below is the ruling of Judge B Davidson in a private prosecution I tried to take against the government – I only chose John Key because I didn’t know who I should do it to, so I chose the boss.  This judge recently discharged a rugby player without conviction for a violent assault of four people.  Following the ruling I’ll put the details of my case and how I told the judge I couldn’t get a lawyer to help me so just did what I thought was right.  Also this judge is the one who put me on to the Imperial Laws Application Act, which proves without doubt neo-liberalism is illegal and magna carta is being violated.

I made a formal complaint about him to Office of Judicial Conduct – they ignored me.

23 June 2015   CRI 2015-035-000633





1.    Ms Routhan seeks to file five charging documents against the Prime Minister alleging offences under the Crimes of Torture Act 1989 and Crimes Act 1961 and the Magna Carta 1215.

2.     Each is supported by a brief explanatory note and a statement from her dated 19 June 2015.  As well she has lodged 179 photographs and a copy of a book.  The black book of poetry, apparently dedicated to ‘casualties of abuse and neglect’.

3.    For reasons which I will explain shortly it is unnecessary for me to detail those particulars, her statements, the photographs and the book content.  I have however, read it all.  In essence the material provides widespread and broad allegations of her torture and abuse at the hands of the state.  The charges are levelled at the Prime Minister for failing to provide her appropriate protection, treatment and care.

4.     Under s 26(3) I direct that the five charging documents not be accepted for filing as each is an abuse of process.

5.    In particular:

5.1    The charge document alleging an offence under s 3 of Crimes of Torture Act 1989 requires the Attorney General’s consent, under s 12 to prosecute.  No such consent has been provided.

5.2    The charging documents under Sections 150A and 151 Crimes Act 1961 do not disclose any offence with any degree of particularity at all.  The sections referred to set out the standard of care required of certain persons and the duty itself to provide necessaries and protect from injury.  Neither charging document contains any particulars of the time, date, place or occasion of breach, who by and how.  The only detail given is as to date (between January 2009 and June 2015) and place (various addresses in Wainuiomata and Wairarapa).

5.3    The charging documents under sections 39 and 40 Magna Carta 1215 rely on sections that are not part of New Zealand law.  The only clause of the Magna Carta applicable in New Zealand is section 29: Section section 3 and schedules 1 and 2 Imperial Laws Application Act 1988.



The following are the statements I made attached to each form for filing these private prosecutions – I tell him I don’t know what I’m doing and can’t get a lawyer that I am entitled to.

19 June 2015

 Statement by JER Carterton

 I have been chalking section 40 of the Magna Carta around Wellington streets since 2009 when ACC illegally withdrew all my health care.  There is a copy of what it says on my wall.  “To no-one will we sell, to no-one will we delay or deny right or justice.”

 If I could afford a lawyer I would have one to ensure I was getting the professional health care I know I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, human rights and bill of rights laws.  I would also ensure I was getting the right and justice I am seeking in regard to my health care and ability to represent myself.  It is imperative a judge adjudicates on the issues I have with the government (through ACC, mental health services and welfare agencies) and the corruption of neo-liberal political theories disabled poor people are currently suffering under in New Zealand.

 People are very angry, I am very angry watching what I know to be cruel, immoral, inhuman treatment of thousands of abused, mentally injured (like myself) and mentally ill people in New Zealand.  Every police officer I have ever discussed this with agrees what is happening is wrong.  When I am before a court for protesting (wilful trespass) about this issue every person, including the judge have their heads about as low as they can and most cannot look at me.  They know what I am saying is right.

 It is not right that the government can cut health and welfare services to mentally injured and mentally ill people, who are then ending up in the justice system as a matter of neo-liberal process.  I don’t end up in the court system for violence or crimes against innocent people, I am there for passionately protesting about what is happening to me and others as I know it to be so wrong.

 I can read law, I was studying to be a lawyer in 2001 before I was raped and mentally injured.  I know what I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, human rights and bill of rights laws.  I know this but I have never been able to take my claims of criminal negligence and injustice to a court because of impairments related to my disability and a lack of money.  As I have been forced to live on welfare for the past 13 years.

 I have done EVERYTHING in my power to have these injustices dealt with to no avail.  I have proof of complaints to Health and Disability Commission, Human Rights Commission and Review Tribunal – I was not believed. 

 The lawyers who took me years to find are John Miller and another woman I cannot remember her name now.  John Miller had my case for a year then told me it was too complicated and he could not act for me (he took the $1000 legal aid though).  The other woman had my case through ACC, after I had won my first review to get my care from 2009 back and ACC refused I went on a 46 day hunger strike.

 My lawyer at the time begged me to stop as she could not get the case heard before I would have died.  I stopped and became severely suicidal waiting for her to take my case to the District Court we had agreed.  I waited for weeks in the most terrible torment, trying to stay alive and not let my dysfunction impact on my children.  She had even given me a date she would be taking it to court, when this date passed and I heard nothing I phoned her and she told me she had lied and taken my case to a second review hearing.  I sacked her on the spot – if your lawyer is prepared to lie to you when you are that ill then she is incompetent and corrupt.

 I won the second review, though was unable to participate in it as I was very unwell.  That was around four years ago now and it wasn’t until two months ago that ACC phoned me and said they were going to reinstate my care similar to what it had been in 2009.  I am supposed to be seeing a psychiatrist next week for yet another assessment, which they refused to waive, in order to have my care reinstated.  I have seen Dr Alan Doris before and he has been extremely critical of ACC for the way they dumped me from care in 2009.  The report is in my boxes of files somewhere but I cannot find it or look for it as I become highly suicidal and want to self-harm.

 This letter to accompany the charging documents under Section 40 of the Magna Carta 1215 is to also show that I desperately need a lawyer in order to get protection and justice.  I have phoned so many lawyers and been told they were not trained in the area of law I was discussing, were too busy, my case was too complicated and others would not do it because I would have been needing legal aid.  Please refer to my poems about John Miller Law and Something’s Wrong Tony Ellis.

 Please refer to my book of poetry The Black Book (ISBN 978-0-473-31199-5) and photographs submitted to the court in relation to the five charges.  I am not in a position to replicate this information five times.

 My only criminal charge is of the Law Society in Wellington when I went there and refused to leave until they provided me with professional representation and protection of a lawyer to force ACC and mental health to provide me the care I knew I was entitled to, and protect me from the police who were being used to intimidate and bully me. 

 I will be in court again on 8 July in Masterton for wilful trespass of Masterton Hospital for a protest I did on the law outside the DHB offices earlier this year. 

 Having exhausted all formal avenues for justice over the past 13 years since I was raped, activism and protesting are all that is left for me.  Speaking truth to power was my new year’s resolution (after I was violently arrested Xmas Eve, when sick with the flu and distraught about my unstable living situation).

 In this submitting these Charging Documents I knowing they don’t have all the stories of what has happened to me and I cannot repeat them again as my disorder Complex Post Traumatic Stress disorder is also compounding.  What this means is if I recollect too many traumatic experiences at one time I become severely traumatised and cannot function, will be prone to self-harm and could commit suicide.  (Although with prayer and will I have managed to stay alive this long – not that it is a real life – being constantly bombarded with thoughts of suicide and death at the hands of yourself is no different to being threatened with death by another person on a daily basis – the impact on the psych is the same.)

Because of the impairments related to my disability (which under law must be accommodated if possible) it would not be right or just to refuse to allow this charge against John Key Prime Minister to go through to the next stage in front of a judge to decide. 

In that time I hope either the courts will appoint me a lawyer or I will have the strength I need to gather together the further evidence to prove my case of injustice and being denied right and justice because I do not have the money to pay for legal representation.

I have become emotional and can’t stop crying, so I will have to end here and pray with all my heart that what I have said and given you to-date will be sufficient to succeed through to a court hearing.

Earlier this week the government had a function organised by Chistopher Finlayson to commemorate the Magna Carta – the very people who are abusing it are pretending they abide by it.  This is not true and this must be addressed, thousands of innocent abused and disabled people are suffering prolonged neglect and poverty.  They are being left in inappropriate, unstable, unsafe housing in the community and from a recent poll of discrimination it was found over 50% of people would not like mentally ill people living next to them.

This document and charge is related to five other charges I am bringing against John Key under various criminal laws, all filed today 19 June 2015, the 800th Anniversary of the signing of the Magna Carta.

I would like to refer you to the NZ National Anthem and the line that says we will be protected from dissension envy and hate – I can assure you this is what we have in New Zealand now after 30 years of austerity against the poor and vulnerable while advancing the wants of the rich and powerful.

I have attached a copy of a statement of account for legal aid debt from last year when Michael Bott represented me against the Law Society wilful trespass charge and two other charges (that were dropped) of ACC and Ministry of Health in Wellington.  I get $400 per week on invalid’s benefit and have to apply for this every three months or it would be $315 (it is nothing more than repeated degradation).  My rent is $250, I am unable to sustain flatmates as I am continuously victimized by people I have lived with (including two attempting suicide) and even further traumatised.  I would like to tell the court about all these experiences when it is appropriate and in a safe place.

If I do in fact get my care back, which I don’t believe I will, as ACC have lied repeatedly then I hope to be well enough to talk about what has happened to me as a disabled abuse victim begging for care, being a parent, daughter, sister, friend and citizen.  It is happening to me and it is happening to many I meet when I am protesting, the stories break my heart and motivate me to go to such extremes as taking a private prosecution just so I can get this gross miscarriage of justice exposed and stopped.

 Kia kaha to us all


19 June 2015

Statement by JER, Carterton

 I am about to start this and the emotion is overwhelming me, how the police have been used to intimidate and bully me for demanding and needing the professional health care promised under ACC, health, disability, criminal, human rights and bill of rights laws is persecution and torture.

 How I am treated by the police varies greatly depending on the person,  I would like to refer to my police file at this point to highlight all the times I have been seen by police, have been detained by police and been prosecuted by police. 

 I am not able to look at my police file as it makes me very unwell, I got a copy of it a few years ago and on page 3 it said I was ‘mental’ and a danger to police safety.  I wasn’t able to read past that and have had a rocky relationship with police since ACC illegally cut all my care in 2009, after National became the government and installed neo-liberal Business Round Table advocate John Judge, then Paula Rebstock.

 Can the judge please consider my police file as being evidence to what has been happening me as I fight for the care I know I am entitled to.  Please note that all complaints to police about me being suicidal are from people who are public servants and/or agents of the government.  I would tell these people I was begging for help or justice from how bad I felt and they would phone police but never help me get care.  This is a gross miscarriage of justice and proof what is happening in the real world I live in is very different to what the government and these agencies promote.

 It makes me want to be violently ill when I think that forcing suicidal people to take their clothes off and put on the crazy suit is police policy and when I tried to challenge it as being extremely degrading and against human rights laws I was ignored.  They only got my clothes off me once, during my first protest, chalking Journalists are Maggots on the Times Age building in Masterton.  When I got down to my underwear I was told to take them off as well, I had my period and said I couldn’t – I was told I had to.  That is when my respect for the police and the government ended.  I told the officer I would fight her for my underwear as there was no way I was going to let blood run down my leg in front of so many men.  This policy is not law and therefore was not subject to scrutiny under Bill of Rights and Human Rights laws.

 Over the past 30 years as neo-liberalism has relentlessly destroyed our unique Kiwi culture these attacks and laws on suicidal people have steadily increased.  It are the policies that are driving people to suicide and then the government and authorities blame the victims for a completely human response to an inhuman living environment. 

 New Zealand is a beautiful country, there is enough resources for everybody to have the necessaries of life.  Giving massive tax cuts to the wealthiest people and organisations in this country while at the same time stopping poor people (rich people can still get this care and justice) from getting the health care and justice they are entitled to is immoral and against the law.

 Also the massive social issues that have arisen due to high unemployment and concentration of wealth into the richest 20% of society – are being somehow blamed on the victims of these social issues, like violence, mental illness, poverty, ill health etc.  It was very sad to see all the changes that have been made to the Social Welfare and Social Security Acts over the past decade, all aimed at blaming those who can’t get work.  When we all know deregulation, free trade and neo-liberalism was instrumental in hundreds of thousands of manufacturing jobs moving offshore to be done by people who are treated like slaves in poorer countries.

 I will be addressing this issue in another private charge in the near future.

 I told a judge recently, when going through the court system over my protests at Masterton Hospital that I will take no more – and I won’t.  No more are you going to treat disabled, abused, mentally injured and ill people like you are.  Everybody knows it is wrong – EVERYBODY.

 I know other people who are degraded and persecuted by police for being suicidal and I have experiences of people who attempted suicide who were living with me that I would like to be able to present to the court.  I cannot talk about them now I am too unwell.

 I would like all book of poetry The Black Book ISBN 978-0-473-31199-5 to form part of this case but I do not have the resources to do a copy for each of the five charges.  I would also like all my photographs to form part of this.

 Please help me get a lawyer, there is so much you don’t know, so many things.  These people have driven me insane, they have turned my family and community against me, just because I couldn’t get the professional health care I was entitled to.

 I can’t go on with this document.

 Kia kaha to us all.


19 June 2015

Statement by JER, Carterton

My evidence of this torture is contained in my The Black Book of poetry ISBN 978-0-473-

31199-5 and in the selection of 179 photographs I have presented showing my ongoing years of protests and the art works I have done.  If this charge goes through to the next stage I will be able to discuss in more detail what was happening in many of these photos.  There are also videos I wanted to submit as part of this complaint but was unable to download them, due to lack of knowledge.  These also would form part of my case if this goes further.

I have also included a few letters of the type I have been sending since 2002, when I was raped and started trying to get the professional health care I was entitled to and needed to heal from my mental injury, return to work and study as well as parent my two children to the best of my ability.

I have years of letters and emails to prove my case of torture, but I am only able to give you what I have now as I do not have legal representation to help me.  I hope and pray with all my heart that this evidence will be proof enough that my private prosecution case is sufficient to go to the next step and I get these injustices against me decided on by a judge.  As required under the Magna Carta 2015.

Please consider all evidence for the five charges I have levelled at the prime minister under this charge.  I do not have the resources or fortitude to provide all documents for each charge.

I find it desperately sad that I am having to take this action when I know the law and know how I should be treated and what justice I am supposed to be receiving.  I know I am extremely insignificant and you will see from some of my poetry and songs, consider myself human sewage.  My poetry repeatedly refers to being traumatised and tortured.

 Because of my stress disorder I have been discredited by other justice and health agencies.  However I do have a report (ordered by the court when mental health refused) last year by Justin Barry-Walsh that states, I am intelligent, do not have a personality disorder and am not delusional.  This is what mental health and justice services had been saying for years (not Alan Doris) just those services who were rejecting me over and over again.  Mostly because of underfunding of mental health services to the point of abuse and criminal neglect.

 If Justin is right –which of course he is then I have every right and every reason to take the government and John Key to court for torturing me.  It also hurts me deeply watching other people I know being harmed in this way and so many stories when I am protesting of people suffering and killing themselves.  I cannot take a charge of murder or manslaughter because I am not dead – no matter how many times I have come so close following abuse and discrimination by mental health and justice services.  For me it has to be torture and it is.  Being told there are services, reading in the law how disabled sick people are supposed to be treated and experiencing exactly the opposite drives you insane.

 I can’t go on with this statement.

Kia kaha to us all.


19 June 2015


Statement by JER, Carterton

 Please refer to all the information I have given for the other four charges I have bought against John Key, I do not have the resources or ability to reproduce everything for each charge.

Please ensure this charge goes through to the next level so I can prove and gather together the years of evidence I have that my standard of care was unprofessional and influenced by neo-liberal political theories rather than scientific fact.

I am feeling very unwell and would like the opportunity to present my evidence in the future, when hopefully I have the support of the health providers I know I am entitled to and the legal representation the Magna Carta guarantees me.

Kia kaha to us al


19 June 2015

 Offence description:

 That John Key had legal duty to provide professional health care to me as a mentally injured disabled person and did not.  Also the standard of care did not follow international and professionally recognised models of treatment care and rehabilitation. 

 It was him as leader of National who coerced public servants and health professionals to discriminate and neglect those people who had mental health issues and were living in poverty.


19 June 2015

 Statement by JER, Carterton

 The horrendous and unsafe situations I have been subjected to while supposedly disabled and under care of the NZ government are varied and across all sectors of welfare, health and justice.  This is why I consider John Key, the Prime Minister as ultimately responsible.  It is his power and influence that has created this gross miscarriage of justice against abused and traumatised people who become dysfunctional and suicidal – due to neglect and lack of professional health care.

 Please refer to the photographs and book of poetry I have submitted under Crimes of Torture as being part of this charge.  I do not have the resources or ability to replicate this information for all five charges.  Please refer to all information I have supplied during these five charges.

 Please give me the opportunity to find justice by allowing this charge to progress – of not providing the necessaries of life and to protect from further injury.  To disclose this now would cause me considerable harm – nothing less than any violently raped or abused person would experience when challenging their abuser.

 Please get me a lawyer and refer to my rap song Wherefore Art Thou ACC about how I have won two other cases in the Environment Court and Employment court representing myself/my business (as president of Capital Offroaders and owner of Enzo’s Pizza).  It is obvious I was capable of presenting myself then, but am not now – which was caused by my disability and mental health issues.

 When the person who raped you is found not guilty by a jury of nine white haired old men, one old woman and one woman who looked intellectually handicapped, even when admitted he was asleep and had plied you with alcohol before he did it – it degrades and destroys you in ways you cannot even imagine.

 Kia kaha to us all


19 June 2015

 Offence Description

 That John Key failed to provide necessaries and protect from injury a recognised sick person.

 Especially with regard to accommodation, provision of professional health services and protection from further injury after a series of unsafe living situations.  


Offence Description – Crimes of Torture Act 1989 – Section 3

 That John Key as Prime Minister of New Zealand has committed acts of torture against disabled abused mentally injured and mentally ill people like myself by not providing professional treatment, care and rehabilitation as required under New Zealand’s ACC, health, disability, criminal, human rights and bill of rights laws.

 This particularly refers to those people removed from ACC care in 2009 (of which I was one) as a result of government pressure and the appointment of John Judge a well known proponent of neo-liberalism and member of the Business Round Table and NZ Initiative group.  They did not change the law and caused harm to hundreds of people on ACC.

 These acts of torture also were perpetrated by the Ministry of Social Development and the ongoing ‘reforms’ aimed at disabled poor people on welfare.



I have been told repeatedly by Legal Services Agency I am can get legal aid but am told by hundreds of lawyers I have rung that there is nobody doing civil legal aid currently.  When I challenged the Ministry of Justice about this through email they stopped replying to me, when I went into their office at the High Court I was told there was nothing they could do and was trespassed when I started singing and reciting poetry about this gross miscarriage of justice.

Then when I went back to try and watch Tony Ellis take a case of torture against the Attorney General and 3 DHBs – so I would know how to do the case myself – I was assaulted by security (which I made a complaint to police about) and refused entry.

Now I’m in court for using chalk pen to draw a swastika on the High Court and breach of trespass.  Also for chalking a swastika and LIES etc on Appeal Court building that has words all around it talking about human rights and justice.

Sadly NZ media know all of this and so do several MPs but they do nothing.


Human Rights in New Zealand – what is a Civil Society?

I have been avoiding beginning my response to the new book by Judy McGregor, Sylvia Bell and Margaret Wilson called Human Rights in New Zealand – Emerging Faultlines.  One of the hurdles was their book structure included in each chapter, the involvement of ‘Civil Society’.

I do not believe we have a civil society after the years of discrimination and failure of the Word of Law I have experienced.  So my first chapter will be dedicated to establishing what a Civil Society is and prove New Zealand is no longer operating in one.

It has also been necessary to start this at my local library on my website because my home computer no longer operates without an electrical cord and I become so traumatised and unwell when alone at home doing this it isn’t safe.  Being around people helps, even if they do not know what I am doing – although it does make me feel further alienated, marginalised and isolated at the same time.

You have to go to Wikipedia of course when you are looking for definitions  I was drawn to the root of the phrase – the Etymology

The term civil society goes back to Aristotle‘s phrase koinōnía politikḗ (κοινωνία πολιτική), occurring in his Politics, where it refers to a ‘community’, commensurate with the Greek city-state (polis) characterized by a shared set of norms and ethos, in which free citizens on an equal footing lived under the rule of law. The telos or end of civil society, thus defined, was common wellbeing (τὸ εὖ ζῆν tò eu zēn), in as man was defined as a ‘political (social) animal’ (ζῷον πολιτικόν zōon politikón).[5][6][7][8] Though the concept was mentioned in Roman writers, such as Cicero, it entered into Western political discourse following the translation of Aristotle’s works into Latin (societas civilis) by late medieval and early Renaissance writers such as William of Moerbeke and Leonardo Bruni, where it often referred to the ancient notion of a republic (res publica). With the rise of a distinction between monarchical autonomy and public law, the term then gained currency to denote the corporate estates (Ständestaat) of a feudal elite of land-holders as opposed to the powers exercised by the prince.[9] It had a long history in state theory, and was revived with particular force in recent times, in Eastern Europe, where dissidents such as Václav Havel employed it to denote the sphere of civic associations threatened by the intrusive holistic state-dominated regimes of Communist Eastern Europe.[10]

I am also drawn to the United Nations declarations on human disabled civil economic political etc rights, along with agreements about torture etc.  Their booklet on Civil Society and the role of Civil Society Actors has become important in establishing this definition.  I suppose it is particularly important when dealing with the violence issues I do as an activist in the area of mental health care for mentally injured abuse victims.  As expressions of violence have become so abhorant to our entire society at the same time as we create an environment that drives many traumatised people to violence.  It appears from my extensive study and observations violent people are the new JEW when comparing to the rise of the NAZIs and the resulting emergence of the United Nations as a vehicle of preventing violence and keeping the peace.

I have noted that no organisation government or non-government in fact advocate for or represent mentally injured or ill people who have violence as an impairment related to their disability.  Organisations related to mental health do not want to be associated with people who become violent as a result of their disorders.  I have heard it myself at a mental health art facility in Lower Hutt where it was expressed how many more violent and dangerous people attended the art workshop in Upper Hutt – that the people in Lower Hutt weren’t like that.

The most definitive proof of course are the numbers of mentally ill people in or going through our justice and prison system for violence offences.  It is estimated 70% of prison inmates have mental health issues and the majority of these have histories of their own abuse.

I myself have violence issues, uncontrollable rage that I manage by turning the violence on myself and vent verbally at those who are supposed to protect and care for me.  Not that I threaten them with harm myself, but I pass it over to spirit and tell them that they are going to get the violent karma they deserve with the passive/aggressive and physical violence they perpetrate against 10,000s of abused and traumatised mentally injured men women and children.  Because the government and people in the VIOLENCE/ABUSE INDUSTRY are now so corrupted/uncivilized they currently have me in court for Misuse of a Telephone for expressing my rage, hatred and desire for karma against ACC – the agency most responsible for my worsening mental health, poverty, unemployment etc.

Thankfully I have a senior psychiatrist I was allowed to see last year who understands what is happening to me and can express this as a mental health issue – not dissimilar to tourettes.  As I tick in times of severe stress and have other attributes of tourettes it is related in some way to this disorder – plus when I am ‘venting’ there is no way of stopping it, until it has run its course.  His testimony, along with Bill of Rights defence should get me acquitted of this charge and police deterred from attempting this sort of prosecution again.


New Zealand govt using Social Workers as health professional for abuse victims to save ACC $

Have just watched One News and was horrified at the Social Worker complaining she was being bullied and not getting help she needed for her PTSD.  Then the government comes on and says they’re going to train more people.

SOCIAL WORKERS ARE NOT HEALTH PROFESSIONALS AND SHOULD NOT BE DEALING WITH MENTALLY INJURED ABUSE VICTIMS THE WAY THEY ARE BEING FORCED TO BY NZ GOVERNMENT AND ACC – especially if they have serious mental health issues themselves.   Social Workers are not Occupational Therapists, not counsellors, not psychologist/psychiatrists and as part of a multi-disciplinary team  of professionals working with a mental injured abuse victim should only be there to co-ordinate housing, welfare, maybe advocacy and a few other things.

The New Zealand government are telling the public of New Zealand that what they intend to do is helping abused children and their families – what they are actually doing is avoiding paying for the extensive rehabilitation and multi-disciplinary team of health professionals ACC are supposed to be providing under law.  Under law, under all the laws I refer to on the pages of this website.

Care that I was receiving in 2009, that ACC continue to refuse to reinstate after winning two reviews and waiting seven years – now why do you think that is when I have a leading psychiatrist that supports everything I say I need.  I know what the law says, I know my disorder, I know what I need and I know ACC and the NZ government are corrupt in not providing that.

I worked as a temp for six months at ACC in 2000, while I was there I saw some horrendous things and fraud.  One department was really bad, they were data entry operators – half of them had RSI and had to have at least 2 days off a week – WHY were ACC employing people with RSI as data entry operators – it obviously aggravated their disorders – they should have been retrained and doing a different job.  Using mentally unwell people as social workers is about as bad as that.  How can a person with PTSD support people who have even more serious CPTSD.  Also that data entry department was headed by a woman who her staff loved and fawned all over – I later found out she was recording many of those having lots of days off as being at work.  Everybody just ignored it.

After receiving a disgusting email from one of the data entry operators, who thought she was sending me a joke I had to speak up and went to the Manager of Funding and Pricing where I was working.  I told him about the email and he needed to say something to these people sending such emails – he did talk to them and boy was I the most hated person in ACC, I had ratted on staff.  Thing is I didn’t want to get into trouble for having such disgusting material on my computer, I was only a temp.  Also I didn’t like the manager and her staff, they weren’t nice people and as I saw it stealing taxpayers money with their bludging.  Not sure if it is the same now but back then ACC staff had unlimited sick days – how many companies in NZ give that to their staff?

The person I was covering for had been in ACC for decades and told me ALL THE GOOD PEOPLE LEAVE – so ACC is run by the dregs of our workforce- however they get paid so much they don’t leave no matter what they are expected to do in order to save money and stop people getting entitlements.  I was also told when IRD (building around the corner) was overhauled because of the numbers of people who owed them money committing suicide, those that were doing most of the damage were moved to ACC.  Another reason ACC is so corrupt and criminally negligent, many of those people are right-wing psychopaths.  I used to hear them talk – they were all right-wing National party.  My contract was not renewed after I was seen on TV at a NZ First party conference.  Only weeks before I had been asked to stay and they would have paid for my Law studies I intended to begin the following year.  Stupid me said no – how could I work for an organisation that was morally bankrupt and treated people so badly.

Anyway a bit off topic.

Also wanted to comment that the social worker on One News tonight was severely traumatised by a young abuse victim phoning her while attempting suicide – bleeding out on the phone.  I’ve had two flatmates attempt suicide and begged for help from ACC, got nothing – I still havn’t dealt with them and will never get the image of opening the door to our garage and seeing Josh with a rope round his neck standing on a chair.  And what happened with the other flatmate I can’t even talk about it was so bad.  This social worker got help – I got nothing, not even mental health would help me.  And they wonder why I protest the way I do and flip out at them on the phone and am still suicidal, self-harming, bulimic and much much more.

After I was raped in 2002 I fought for 7 1/2 years to get the professional rehabilitation I was entitled to under the Act.  In 2009 that started and I had Dr Alan Doris psychiatrist leading my care (or I thought he was but ACC refused to let me speak to him again), I had the most amazing health professional I ever worked with Occupational Therapist Glenda as the central person in working out what my needs were and how to overcome the phobias/dysfunction that had developed because of the ‘untreated’ PTSD after the rape.  I had a mental health worker for 3 hours a week, which helped me put in place those things Glenda suggested – both these women walked beside me, they didn’t do it for me.  We had just identified why I couldn’t go for job interviews – was related to not wanting to be judged after the person who raped me was found not guilty.  We were about to start role playing being in an interview so I could overcome the fear when ACC ILLEGALLY DUMPED ME FROM ALL CARE.  I also had a doctor who was OK because he was being fed information by the OT, psychiatrist and psychologist – not providing and deciding on the care like NZ government now do.

Oh yeah I had a psychologist but the woman was useless and I found myself counselling her because her methods were so bad (I know consider them brainwashing) – a good counsellor would have been far better.  In fact just before I was dumped I had written to ACC saying to get rid of her, she wasn’t helping and cost a lot.  I also asked at that time if I could go away for six weeks to deal with the deep psychological trauma that was causing my continued suicidal thoughts.  I couldn’t do that and parent my children at the same time – I couldn’t do that in the community – Dr Doris agreed with this at a later date.  INSTEAD EVERYTHING WAS TAKEN AWAY and I felt like I had been thrown out of a six storey building.

Plus I had help in the community from a local gym who my OT talked to about how to help me – those guys were so amazing, I still appreciate what they did for me back then.  At gym I could deal a bit with my eating disorder, building my physical strength with lots of encouragement and support, being in my community with others (as I was very isolated) etc etc.

These are the things I had, when National got in 2008, they put John Judge in charge (then Paula Rebstock) and all my care was taken – they said my mental health issues were not related to the sexual abuse – even though they had been providing me on and off counselling under ACC for 7 1/2 years.

I can’t go on much more I’m getting upset.  These are the sorts of things ALL mentally injured abuse victims are entitled to – BUT BEING REFUSED.  ACC are saving their money $4billion per year I was told in order to invest in banks, shares, dams and businesses around NZ and overseas.  This is money that should be invested in our own people – especially mentally injured abuse victims.  When I think of how much most car accident victims get it makes me cry – when you compare it to that of mentally injured.

When I was dumped they said I could go to mental health services – but when I talked to them, who had let me down multiple times already they said they didn’t do any of the things I had been receiving.  There only options were medication, how can a person be receiving around 12 hours per week rehabilitation with several health professionals, based on professional advice and go to absolutely nothing?

Someone in power, in media, in parliament has to speak up and expose this gross miscarriage of justice – so many are suffering because ACC and NZ government are corrupt, criminally negligent abusers.  This is why I protest at police stations, because I know under Sections 150a 151 155 and 157 of Crimes Act ACC and mental health are breaking the law.  I also know under Crimes of Torture they are breaking the law,  these crimes have sentences that would see politicians and government employees (including Rebstock) jailed and lose their right to be an MP.  Who would disagree with me that our current government does not have anybody honourable running it – NOBODY.

Can’t go on for now – kia kaha to us all.  Will send this link to every opposition party and all media outlets so they know – I know they probably won’t do anything because I am so discredited but I can’t stop telling the truth – I can’t stop trying to get mentally injured abused men women and children the treatment care and rehabilitation they are entitled to – not only under ACC law but also health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.

Kia kaha to us all

God of Nations at thy feet
In the bonds of love we meet
Here our voices we entreat
God defend our free land

From dissension envy hate
And corruption guard our state
Make our country good and great
God defend New Zealand


I am an activist not a terrorist – a Civil Society Activist in area of mental health in New Zealand

Just felt the need to post the following on my social media.

Just had a weird follow on twitter from someone with all arabic so blocked them. Also sent a very angry email to John Key early this morning about his remarks about violence towards women and children and blaming him and his policies for most of it.

A note to those who spy on me – I AM AN ACTIVIST NOT A TERRORIST – I hate the corrupt immoral mthr fkrs who stop me and other mentally injured abuse victims (traumatised people like in ChCh and mentally ill) from getting the… health care and justice we are entitled to under NZ ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws with a passion.

I will do everything within my power and that I am guided to do by spirit, to bring your reign of terror to an end you disgusting NAZIs. I believe in Rule of Law not being controlled by a majority who is manipulated and kept ill-informed by neo-liberal NAZIs.

I am a very angry good person who has been driven mad by ongoing trauma and criminal neglect. I have no intention of committing any violent act at any time – except of course against myself in the form of self-harm etc to release the rage and frustration I feel at the gross miscarriage of justice going on in mental health.

SCREW YOU MAGGOTS feeding off the puss filled sore that is neo-liberal social decay.

Suicide Prevention in New Zealand = PERSECUTION

Yes Suicide Prevention day yesterday and the media said a few things about what was happening around New Zealand and what the Minister of Health said about it.  A few people had events with the same bullshit I have been watching for years about everybody being valuable and loved and there are services out there to help you – DOUBLE BULLSHIT!

What suicide prevention actually means is how can we get police to bully and intimidate you further so you are too scared and humiliated to approach anybody for help – especially mental health services.  How can we get police to keep coming to your home so your neighbours despise you and are scared of you as well – while we refuse you the professional treatment care and rehabilitation you are entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.

What suicide prevention means is how many psychotropic drugs can we get into you, when we refuse you professional care/rehabilitation, the necessaries of life (like a safe home) and experiment on you using radicalised neo-liberal economic theories of personal responsibility.

What suicide prevention means is how can we get complete control over you, so we can commit you, pump you fill of any drugs we like to shut you up and forever onwards have you labelled as mentally disturbed and therefore a liar and your knowledge and opinions are of no value whatsoever – because you’re a nutter.

What suicide prevention means is all those families and friends that contributed to the death of someone (and there are 20% who don’t) can come out, be sad in public and get sympathy.

What suicide prevention means is the government and radicalised neo-liberal terrorists can take absolutely no responsibility whatsoever for their illegal degrading immoral vicious attacks on the poorest people, while advancing the rich.  They can also disadvantage and screw over middle classes and put out propaganda through mainstream media to ensure most working people blame disabled poor for there being little money.

What suicide prevention means is the government don’t have to use professional rehabilitation models or follow the law.

What suicide prevention means is police and justice agencies (including Human Rights Commission) can ignore the gross miscarriage of justice being perpetrated against mentally injured abused men women and children and mentally ill.

What suicide prevention means is a whole lot of ignorant NICE (passive aggressive) people can pretend that suicide prevention has to do with talking to someone on a phone, or telling people they care and love them (not that they want them as a neighbour or friend of course, that would be far too dangerous), telling people there is a reason to live when for some there is not.

What suicide prevention means is ‘the community’ are doing everything they possibly can to stop people from committing suicide but nothing about ensuring these people have the treatment care rehabilitation and living environments that ensure they are safe and cared for that they are entitled to under New Zealand laws.

What suicide prevention means is the New Zealand government can continue to use police to intimidate and persecute people who are driven to suicide by inhuman living situations and medical neglect.

What suicide prevention means is police are soon not going to attend all people who are suicidal a mental health team will go and tell those people there are no services, no safe places to live and no point moaning about it because we live in a society where individuals are responsible for themselves if traumatised by violence and neglect.  Of course police mostly follow Bill of Rights, where mental health services wouldn’t have a clue what that is and will persecute people as they want.

What suicide prevention means is the New Zealand government don’t want to be responsible for anybody who has been driven to suicide, they want the community to discredit, insult, degrade and persecute them until they actually do it.

What suicide prevention means is how many ways can we reject you when you beg for professional care you are entitled to by law.

What suicide prevention means is our country is refusing to accept the extreme harm neo-liberal terrorists are causing in such a beautiful country, where everybody could easily have their needs met as required in Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs.

What suicide prevention means is some very overpaid mental health professionals and Public Relations experts can get paid for ignoring the fact people are not receiving professional mental health care and come up with a marketing plan to try and stop people committing suicide by brainwashing them.

What suicide prevention means is people can say they care – when really they do not – but exchanging a day shopping to go to a suicide prevention event shows you care.

What suicide prevention means is police can strip you naked, make you put on silly suit, humiliate degrade and insult you for begging for help and protesting about it.  They can demand you remove your underwear even when you have your period, they would prefer blood all over the place than protecting your dignity in any way.  (NOTE: They’ve only done this once, never again, even though they’ve threatened it – I curled up in a ball in the corner screaming at them they were perverts and no way they would get my clothes off me – if you tell them you will fight them to keep your clothes on, USUALLY they won’t do it.)

What suicide prevention means is police can hold you in the cells for six hours while mental health take their time to turn up – then do nothing and leave.


Victoria University run by right-wing extremists from law/business/politics Pipitea Campus

Last year I tried yet again to return to university (I was there prior to my mental injury in 2002 successfully studying law etc) – sadly I failed because my stress disorder got the better of me, I became highly suicidal and my living situation was making things much worse.  Very hard to make information go in and come out of your brain when you living in a life and death situation.  I love university, wish I could be back there 🙁

Anyway – below is a letter to the editor of Salient which I think explains a bit why Victoria University behave in the way they do, putting money before EVERYTHING.  Also I was studying economics and can assure you they teach American neo-liberal economics as the only form of economics – in fact they pour it down your throat, I liken it to those ducks they force feed in France!  Check out the set text if you don’t believe me.  I asked questions about it of the faculty and challenged some of the revolting lecturers but was told to shut up and do my work.

” Dear Shitlient,

Congratulations and welcome to the new editor.  Do you still run letters?  I’m asking because I completely lost interest in Salient last year (election year).  The editors were too busy voting for the Green Party and showing us pictures of their dicks to bother with actually editing anything.  I would call last year’s Salient a pandering leftist shitrag but it failed even at that; leaving my arsehole raw and print-stained.

All I ask is that this year’s publication spend a bit less time catering to the smug, quinoa munching, Fair Trade yoga vegans that are so prolific at Kelburn campus and be a bit more accommodating to us future office drones at Pipitea.  And if you can’t do that, can you at least start printing Salient on softer paper perhaps.

Yours sincerely
Angry Arsehole”

I was horrified by this letter, it showed graphically just how different those at the business and law school are from EVERYBODY ELSE – especially our writers, humanities, arts etc.  The idea that these people are drones – like the drones they use in war is what I imagine.  The comment about Fair Trade and the insults about EVERYTHING that was in Salient.

Now I have watched over the past two years $millions being spent on the Pipitea campus, government money that comes from the poorest most vulnerable people in this country who cannot get safe stable homes to live in, professional health care (especially mental health), access to justice and much much more – BECAUSE THERE IS NOT ENOUGH MONEY ACCORDING TO OUR GOVERNMENT.

Recently I read a news article that says there has been a large drop in the numbers of New Zealanders who are going to University – THAT’S BECAUSE THEY CAN;T AFFORD TO!  Talked to a meter man earlier this year, while doing a protest outside Treasury, an intelligent academic young man – we talked about economics.  He said he would love to go to university but could not afford to leave his job, he had rent and bills to pay.  He did not like the government or the way NZ was being run at all.


Troll abusing me for comments about ACC Minister Nikki Kaye MP – I do have cancer!

Actually I do have cancer, skin cancer.  It took me 3 weeks to get to see a doctor about it, another six weeks before she would put me on a waiting list and 12 weeks before I get any treatment.  Wonder if any politician gets this sort of health care.

Most of those delays are related to my stress disorder because ACC refuse to reinstate the treatment care and rehabilitation I had illegally removed in 2009 – when National got in.  I have won two reviews but still ACC refuse to do it so I am very unwell and find it difficult to communicate in times of stress – especially with health professionals.

I should have a mental health worker, who would have helped me access services but ACC refuse.  My doctor despises me, just like the previous 10 doctors who hate all people with mental health issues because there are no services – so they just attack the person.

Nikki Kaye has been instrumental in ensuring I did not receive the care I am entitled to, so I cannot return to work and have to live in unsafe living situations with this nightmare CPTSD disorder.  I have written to her, she knows my case and refuses to do anything about it.

I found it interesting you have suggested what has been happening to me is karma, when this was happening a long time before Nikki Kaye got cancer.  You obviously do not understand the principles of karma and the corruption and criminal behaviour of our government, who have been denying 1000s of abused men women and children the professional treatment care and rehabilitation they are entitled to and need under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.

Next time police physically assault you and strip you naked in the cells for having cancer please feel free to contact me for some sympathy and advice.

Karma coming to all those in denial about how bad this country has become after 30 years of radicalised neo-liberal terrorists advancing rich, disadvantaging middle class and persecuting disabled poor – particularly people with mental health issues.


Guerrilla Activism in New Zealand by Civil Society Actor – Mental Health/Justice

Hi all,

Had to write about my day yesterday, from up at 5am to get to court in the morning until train home at 10pm.

Thought I had court all sorted was going there to plead not guilty and collect disclosure documents because my lawyer too busy in Wairarapa.  Hadn’t had any bail conditions prior to this, was in the dock when police wanted bail condition that I live at ..Ave, and I didn’t want any bail conditions.  I see this as just a way of police wanting to control me for no good reason and had previous bad experience having to leave a house where flatmate attempted suicide.  There had to be an urgent court hear so I could move.  Doing it now is an abuse of power, victimisation and of no value whatsoever.

Was really stressed going in anyway, so when they refused to remove condition I gave them a bollocking – with lots of swearing.  Bought up about police assaulting me and all the shit I get from them, 3 women in the room, one held onto the glass door so I couldn’t get out – which freaked me out.  Being locked up when you feel like that is revolting.  Security were called, who were AWESOME, said all the right things, that they would sort it out and I sat down.  Started freaking out anyway, rocking backwards and forwards, hitting myself as hard as I could, crying, eyes closed, hands over my ears.

Got so bad I had to crawl into the corner with the walls behind me to calm down.  Couldn’t hear what went on after that, not even sure how long I was there.  They sent in some clown from mental health, big tall bald white guy in a suit – ewww.  Sat down beside me, as soon as he said who he was I started swearing at him, big time, fucking mental health – they’re one of the reasons I’m in this mess.  Told him he was a maggot making money out of the people who were being refused care.  Called him a murderer, etc.  He got up pretty quickly and declared I was definitely not mental health and left – was hilarious and not unexpected – that’s what always happens.  (What do they expect when they refused me services for years, now best to give them shit and remember all those people who have committed suicide etc because of these maggots.)

Eventually I managed to de-escalate enough to open my eyes and ears and a security guard came into the dock and told me what was happening.  I was to see the judge at 10am – I asked him if I could get out of there – go outside and wait, so he saw me out, was almost running – escape mode.  Sat outside for an hour before seeing next appearance.

As I walked back in said sorry to Security, started crying, said I would never hurt anybody – they said they knew that.  Were really nice, though I had an escort when I went back to court – how important am I.  I was 2nd up – they know I want to get out of there fast as I can and what sort of disruption I can be.  Judge wouldn’t listen to my argument, got upset which he was concerned about.  When I didn’t like his decision started giving him shit – not enough to get contempt charge or anything.

Was removed from the dock by some ape pom, with a bad attitude – didn’t help things much, started swearing at him so he was threatening to keep me in the cells for 2 hours if I didn’t keep quiet.  Still told him go back to his own country, etc etc – just can’t keep my mouth shut some times.  Got out of bail room in about 5 mins, the guard was outside and I stopped looked around – there about 30 whipped looking people standing around waiting.  So I walked away from the guard and started singing full voice – Why Am I Arrested For Being Disabled.  Was awesome, so empowering, filled the whole room – keep singing all the way down the escalator and outside.

Once I started up poor security guard has to get me out of there, so I follow him but slowly, don’t like being manhandled and they won’t if you follow them.  Heard a call come through on his radio about getting me out of there – you would have been able to hear it from the courts – they don’t like to be disturbed by a rebellious citizen – might inspire others to rebel.

So left and went for a cuppa and morning tea with friend who had turned up.  There planned the final details for my Swastika and guerrilla poetry mission to The NZ Initiative, IPCA and Ministry of Justice.

First stop Wellington library to get organised, write up the poems put blue tak on Swastika paintings etc, so all ready for when I get to my target I can get it up quickly.  Then off to Bayleys building and NZ Initiative (business round table), photos on my facebook page and video of the poem I did on my youtube channel.

Left there regrouped and got out next painting, then headed off to IPCA only couple of streets away.  Got up there, nobody around put up my painting and did the poem then left – cause I’m trespassed from there – so I am expecting police to call in if they complain.

Finished there, it was raining, so headed for Bus terminal got out a rain poncho I carry and changed into that, heading off the back way to Justice House in Aitken Street where ACC and Ministry of Justice are.  Put up the painting, recited a poem and left.  Headed down Molesworth Street, past Appeal Court, Backbenchers and High Court, did a loop inside the courtyard of the High Court – I know they hate that.  Waved at security, did a little dance too I think – didn’t give them the finger even though I wanted to.  The guys watching the screens aren’t necessarily the ones I’m pissed off with.

Then went back to the bus terminal and court bus up to Victoria Uni Kelburn, stay out of the way while police might be looking for me.  The ESRA (left wing think tank) launch, was awesome, there had also been 3 days of workshops etc  Got there and had something to eat and a cuppa, talked to some really interesting people, good brain food.  Told a few what I had been up to, walking the talk.

Should offer them a talk on being a lone Civil Society Actor, how to deal with police etc.  Trespass Law and Bill of Rights.

Had to wait around until late train at 10.30pm, just people watched and McDonalds and the train station for 1 1/2 hrs.  Was good talk with a few exceptions, but gotta remember they all middle class people, mostly passive aggressives as well, who all idealistic and don’t like what I do.  Knew several people, was good, my reputation preceeds me with those who know my work.

Had been taking photos and uploading things to facebook all day.

All day today I’ve been smiling every time I think of what I did – challenging the system, pushing their boundaries – taking some power back.  Although the melt-down at court was not good, I recovered pretty quickly once I got into the mission.  The thought of the faces of the people who found the posters and poetry kept me smiling and imagining what they were thinking of.


Murray Jack GOTCHA!

Murray Jack you piece of crap
Controlling this, controlling that
Me and others know what you do
Advance the rich, degrade the few

Murray Jack you piece of crap
On the board of this and that
Neo-liberalism’s wrong
You harm the weak, protect the strong

Murray Jack you piece of crap
How could you choose this and that
Just another one percentre
Greed and fear’s what you engender


Yesterday went out with some pieces of art which had a swastika on them and placed them at three differently places I thought were violating human rights.  NZ Initiative (aka Business Round Table), IPCA Police Conduct Authority and Ministry of Justice.

Left a poem, videod it on phone and put it on my youtube channel JR Murphy Poet.  This is one I had found in my visual diary, written a couple of months ago after seeing Murray Jack at court hearing about unsafe workplace at WINZ where John Tully shot the two workers.  Know he was part of the inquiry into these killings and ignored me when I spoke to him about how desperate things had become for long term disabled.  He one who suggested all the security guards, which have made things worse.

When I saw him at court case, before I was escorted out by security for wanting to put up a sign about the case.  I told him I was going to get him, told him he was neo-liberal scum and his lot had caused this tragedy.  Gave him a bollocking.

Writing this poem about him and sticking it up at NZ Initiative – where he is a board member – was what I meant.  I couldn’t find out where his office was and I hate this neo-liberal think tank.  I wrote GOTCHA at bottom of poem.  Putting it on youtube is also another GOTCHA (if you are reading this Murray, or any of your neo-liberal mates that created this hell for me and others).

Quite an honour to get a poem written about you – John Millar, Ruth Dyson, Tony Ellis, John Key are the others.

Now I want to meet with you for an hour at least and tell you my story and how I know the government are corrupt and experimenting on mentally injured abuse victims, traumatised and mentally ill – also persecuting many of them and denying them professional health care and rehabilitation.

Come on you coward, front up – contact me through my email, facebook or twitter.  I don’t check comments on my website because of trolls.