Complaint about Masterton Hospital’s abusive health processes A & E

This is a complaint about services at Masterton Hospital A & E, I am writing them on my blog and sending the link and a copy to the PATIENT EXPERIENCE (laugh out loud) person at the Wairarapa DHB, who always refuses to address any complaints,  This is not about the A & E doctor and nurses I dealt with on Monday 1 April when I presented with my badly grazed hand full of footpath grit I couldn’t get out myself, they were kind and professional.

This is about what happened on Wednesday 3 April when I went back to have the x-rays the doctor at A & E ordered only to discover the request had been removed and I was severely traumatised by the series of events that followed.  What should have taken 20mins to get an x-ray took 2 hours due to the negligence and unprofessional behaviour of unknown medical staff who cancelled the X-ray.

As part of the impairments I must deal with regarding my Complex PTSD, when stressed my flight and freeze response is set to extreme, so it is very difficult when that feeling you don’t want to be somewhere comes on, because your homing beacon goes off and the feeling to run away is overwhelming.  I missed out fight response because I can usually deal with that now, but I do believe it makes the other two much worse.

On Monday I fell over, I hurt my hand, I tried to get the stones under my skin out, but they were lodged and the pain was excruciating, I had no Panadol or alcohol to dull it.  The only way to get them out was the hospital A & E, I currently do not have a doctor and the Carterton Medical Centre is extremely hostile towards me, also I am not registered I would have to pay $75 to see a nurse – maybe more.  I don’t have $75, I live terrorised and poor on invalids benefit in a rental I can’t afford.

It was a huge decision for me because the last few times I have been at A & E were extremely traumatising.  There is a TV screen at A & E that constantly says not to go there if you can go to your GP, which makes me feel really really bad.  It says other things that are very upsetting about suicide and violence, about how there is support when I know what they offer is worse than no support at all.

The last time I was there for myself was when the police violently assaulted me with handcuffs and caused permanent damage to my right wrist.  I can’t talk any more about that as it is triggering me again.  Because my injury was again my right wrist I became triggered by continuous flashbacks to my hospital visit after the last two acts of unwarranted criminal violence towards me.  Both I made complaints about, both ignored, two officers even lied in court about what happened.  And my visits to A & E were both traumatic because SOME staff were unprofessional, did not know how to accommodate impairments related to my disability and made the experience worse.

Even now I am starting to became distressed about what happened and I really don’t want to write this because I HATE BEING UPSET AND CRYING, but I know I have to and I know I am not going to have to write it again.

I had to wait less than an hour, the receptionist didn’t like it but allowed me to stay to have the wound on my palm dealt with.  I was doing all I could to not be triggered by the flashbacks I started to have and being surrounded with government propaganda of police and threats to be removed if you become abusive.  As I now have a tourettes type response with triggered it is very distressing that might happen and staff wouldn’t understand and have me removed or police called – I am terrified of most police.

I managed to not cry and not tick for most of the time I was waiting, thank God.  Where once I could have easily dealt with such an event, with my disability I am unable to cope (without the health care ACC were supposed to reinstate in 2010, or the services mental health say they provide but just not to me).  I was seen by Dr Smith, I had to wait 45 mins for a numbing cream to work before he started to remove the skin and grit, I was also given gas.  I asked him if there was a hospital volunteer or someone who could sit with me while I waited alone in the cubicle as I was trying not to freak out and resist the urge to run away (leave the hospital), cry, rock and curl up in a ball in the corner of the room (which had happened after the first police assault and threats of worse violence when I was left alone for a long time by health staff).

They couldn’t get anybody like that so the nurse sat with me and talked for as long as she was able.  I was very grateful they had listened to my request, this is what I do to manage impairments related to my disability so I am not further traumatised/harmed (my disorder is compounding) and my life extremely stressful anyway.  When Dr Smith finished dressing the severe grazes he felt around my wrist and I winced when he touched the inside of my wrist.  This was very painful, but had remained sore to touch since the police assaulted me in August? 2018.  He suggested I have an x-ray, I told him I had one last year when I hurt it and there was nothing, he wanted me to have another anyway.  I told him I had not been able to have any follow up after the wrist injuries last year because of my stress disorder and not being able to stay in A & E, as well as having no doctor, or being able to go to a doctor.

I started to cry as I wanted to have the x-ray but I had been fighting myself for the entire time I was there so I didn’t run away, now he added on some more time my psych just couldn’t cope.  Dr Smith understood why I couldn’t stay, he understood I wanted the x-ray but had reached my coping limit, he suggested I come back for the x-ray when I was feeling better.   I cried again because he understood and offered me an option that accommodated my impairments and would allow me to get the health services I needed.  So few hospital and health staff ever do this, or even know they should.   The continuous propaganda about EVERYBODY HAS CHOICES seems to make most people callous and cruel towards people who can’t do things out of extreme fear (based on past experiences), and of course serious mental health & psychosocial issues.

Dr Smith was so nice, he did a great job, hurt me as little as he could, though it did hurt.  He reassured me several times that he would leave the x-ray request at the x-ray department and all I would need to do was come back to there, without having to go through A & E (which traumatises and triggers me).   Can someone please make sure Dr Smith sees the x-rays as I think they gave me some other person to view them and I don’t know if that person is trustworthy.

My discharge summary says under Advice to Patient.

Jayne we have cleaned and dressed the abrasions – all the sand has been washed out.
Keep the dressing on for 5-7 days – replace as needed
You can get it wet – just dry it gently.

Your urine tested positive for infection – herewith the script

You are still tender in the wrist – I have put in for an xray – attend when suits if you don’t want to today.

Come back any concerns

I had been trying to make myself go to A & E for months about my ongoing bladder/kidney infections as I havn’t seen a doctor for years due to my disability and appalling unprofessional behaviour by Carterton Medical Centre and others.  I now also can’t afford to see one as it will cost me $75 from my invalids benefit.  I have had these infections getting worse for years, corresponding with my period on a monthly basis.  I have to wear a pad every day and have humiliating experiences with wetting myself, especially when my bladder is infected.  About five years ago, while living in Wainuiomata I tried to have the worsening incontinence addressed and was supposed to go for ‘invasive’ tests.  My mental health was very bad over there due to my dangerous living situation at the time and ACC continuing to reinstate my care from 2009.  The nurse I was working with organised for the tests but when I said I needed my mental health care reinstated so I had psychosocial support to attend she was very callous and cruel.  She said if I didn’t want to go that was my choice, also there was nothing she could do about getting me the ACC or mental health care I was asking for, no  matter how many tribunal hearings I had won (I had won two).

This current infection has lasted more than three weeks so far and I manage it with parsley tea a few times a day, I can’t drink coffee or even a small amount of alcohol or it sets it off.  I had to go to the toilet to pee twice while waiting at A & E.  I desperately need to see a doctor, mental health know this, the Minister of Health and several MPs know this, Kieran McAnulty knows this, Stephen Enright at Director of mental health’s office knows this, DHB mental health services know this, Carterton Medical Centre know this, police know this, court staff know this, Simon Watt from Compass Health/Bell Gully knows this, so do Masterton Medical and Whaiora (who both said they weren’t taking more clients, which I don’t believe is true, when at MMC with my sick friend recently I watched a young man come in and sign up on the spot, he wasn’t told they weren’t taking patients – which is what emails from MMC told me).  I have made previous complaints to the DHB about not being able to access health care and being discriminated against, all are ignored.

I told the nurse about the infection and she did a urine test to confirm, Dr Smith gave me some antibiotics but I didn’t really want them because I knew this was an issue that required surgery, not continuous antibiotics.  My bladder doesn’t empty properly due to a kink in my urethra (this is an hereditary condition), I already have a pelvic sling, put in 17 years ago.  Bacteria builds up and causes infections, which move up into my right kidney and cause me pain.  My right kidney doesn’t work properly from being sick when a baby, my left kidney is 1.5 times normal size to compensate – according to ultrasound tests done before my pelvic sling operation.  I tried to have this health issue addressed years ago but failed due to ignorant cruel negligent health staff.

I went to have the xray on Wednesday, I don’t like going to the hospital because of what the DHB have done to me in the past (ie they had me arrested and dragged through court for wilful trespass for doing a legal protest about abusive negligent mental health staff) and because of my flashbacks to police violence I have had to go there to get treatment.  I had prepared myself, I was relatively calm (although a good friend of mine is very sick at the moment and I have been having to support her, spent hours with her at A & E the Monday before my accident and every day since – she refused to stay in hospital like they wanted – she also has a stress disorder).  I have also become very isolated and terrified of being around people as I am subjected to a lot of discrimination and have little money to go out due to the grinding stressful terrifying poverty I am being subjected to.  I never drink much alcohol, I go out to socialise with people, I can sing and used to go to karaoke every week but I don’t do that any more after several horrible bigotry events at the venue.

I got to the x-ray department, I said Dr Smith has left an x-ray request for me.  I had to get money out of my very small savings account ($55) to pay for the petrol to get there.   I am too terrified and unwell to catch public transport in Wairarapa, most people in this region are horrible to people like myself, it is very sad and completely ignored by our community leaders.  The woman at the desk said there wasn’t a request and I became very upset, being told there is health care and being refused it at the cliff face is the story of my life since I was hurt in a crime in 2002.

She was very nice and said she would sort it out when I told her what Dr Smith had said.  The sorting out was horrendous for me, I was forced to go back into the A & E department and wait to be seen again, which took a long time, I was very unwell and traumatised, rocking, ticking, crying, almost curled up in a ball at times.  The posters and TV screen were subjecting me to constant flashbacks and it was all I could do not to run out of the building.  Then one of the advertisements on the DHB controlled TV THAT CANNOT BE SWITCHED OFF BY STAFF came up as Speak out about violence towards women.  The same words on the banner in the Masterton police station I threw red washable poster paint on in January 2018 in response to police lying and getting away with violently assaulting me and threatening me with ‘as bad as police could be’ – eg Louise Nicholas I assumed.  The same banner I am currently in court for, that I still can’t get a lawyer for and have strangely and illegally been denied legal aid.

I became distraught when I saw that on the screen, I asked the receptionist to turn it off, begged her to turn it off.  She came and turned off TV that was on some TV show off, I told her it was the other one that was triggering me, she said she couldn’t turn that one off.  That screen was also showing advertisements for how great mental health services were and to go to your doctor, all things I know are not true.  Anybody who has read George Orwell’s book 1984 would be horrified – I was horrified, they were even advertising the private hospital as better than public hospital waiting times – ie driving privatisation by illegally causing unnecessary suffering and death.

Under the Official Information Act can I please have a copy of all the advertisements that were playing in the morning on Wednesday 3 April in the A & E department at Masterton Hospital.

Several nurses came to see me, through my distress I told them Dr Smith had requested the x-rays.  Nobody would tell me why they had been cancelled, nobody would tell me who cancelled them, because I know Dr Smith wouldn’t have, he was quite adamant I was to have the xray and I would be seen at the department when I could make myself go there.

I want to know who cancelled the xray and why they would do that knowing I was going to come in, they had verified all my contact details with all their forms on the Monday, they could have phoned or text me to say not to come.  They also would have had to give me an explanation why  Dr Smith had changed his mind, which I bet they didn’t have.  The person who cancelled the xray was a cruel ignorant spiteful person who violated my rights as a disabled person by refusing to accommodate impairments related to my disability.  Impairments Dr Smith had recognised and dealt with so professionally and SOMEONE had removed which will make it even more difficult to go to A & E or the hospital.  My Complex PTSD is compounding, so trauma on trauma just makes me more unwell and being denied mental health, ACC and other necessaries of life by our cruel corrupted neo-liberal controlled health system is killing me.

Note I have not taken the antibiotics and Dr Smith said I should keep the script if my bladder infection gets so bad I can’t stand it and parsley tea doesn’t work.  I havn’t picked up the script for paracetamol either and don’t have any in the house, because it would be $5 through the chemist.  I don’t have spare money for things like that, plus I self-harm and going through pain unnecessarily is part of my disorder.  Its to do with being suicidal, knowing there is absolutely no hope for my future and wanting to die – you don’t want to care for yourself if there is no reason to live.

I would also like to note from being with my friend at A & E the Monday before and my visit, that the time until we are seen by a nurse is different to that put on the Discharge Summary.  Also both of us said we were smokers and it says we don’t smoke, what’s that about?  Funding perhaps?  I don’t drink, I don’t do drugs, I do hardly anything I used to before I was hurt and my life is extremely stressful so sometimes I smoke.  I wish I didn’t but self-harming to cope is really really horrible & smoking is less and of course social.  The friends I have now have disabilities, can seldom get work and all smoke, dying slowly at least will end our lives early.  Living poor in New Zealand is a living nightmare after 30 years of illegal austerity, advancing of rich and persecuting of poor to profit rich.  I’m sure DHB Chair Paul Collins knows exactly what I am talking about, he has been instrumental in driving Wairarapa to No 1 in NZ for suicide, No 1 for compulsory treatment orders and psychotropic drug prescriptions, No 1 in NZ and the world for self-harm and youth suicide, etc etc.

 

 

I Don’t Want To Live

I don’t want to live in this cruel evil place
When charities are used to degrade & disgrace
Where self-righteous bigots work for the rich
Enjoying disabled & poor thrown drugged in a ditch

I don’t want to live in this cruel evil place
When naïve artists are used to ignore a disgrace
Where lawyers & doctors & wealthy elites
Enjoy driving mad those not allowed to compete

I don’t want to live in this cruel evil place
When media are used to brainwash & disgrace
Where idols on TV bullshit every word
Enjoying the fact those hurting aren’t heard

I don’t want to live in this cruel evil place
When landlords & agents exploit poor a disgrace
Where those profiting from the economics of hate
Enjoy their houses, our money, their holidays, our fate

I don’t want to live in this cruel evil place
When being suicidal and poor is Number 1 a disgrace
Where suicide prevention is police violence, forced drugs
Enjoying abuses of power being fascists and thugs

I don’t want to live in this cruel evil place
When I’m called a bludger, a nutter, a disgrace
Where they make me a criminal for doing what’s right
Enjoying the fact they profit while I fight

I don’t want to live in this cruel evil place
When I’m treated as worthless, rejected a disgrace
Where I’m only a burden to those that I love
Enjoying life’s not possible while the ground I’m above

I don’t want to live in this cruel evil place
When everybody ignores the injustice disgrace
Where charities and governments inflict blow after blow
Enjoying the profits and power from their marketing show.

I WOULD RATHER BE AN ANGLE!

(Like the one at the park next to Trust House – well meaning ignorance.)

……..

A sad testament to Jacinda Ardern’s Labour government – still Libertarian at heart with the perversion of the charity industry.  New Zealand 2019 after that marketing show in front of the United Nations.  I know dozens of things they could do immediately to relieve the pressure on those with disabilities, could be done under urgency and would put money into the community at the grass roots level.  For example, making ACC provide full entitlements, including money and safe stable culturally appropriate, disabled enhanced homes – as required by law.  Putting all people who suffer an illness/injury on invalids benefit within six months, poor people who spend in the community are being defrauded of $60 per week for YEARS.  Law says 2 years, but doctors were encouraged not to do it.  These people are forced to get WINZ documents signed four times a year rather than once a year which takes up time for health services already overstretched.  Now nurses are going to do it the chances more women will be denied ongoing disability allowances is going to get worse – from my extensive experience.

I at library and left other page of poem at home, another four verses, might make it into a punk or metal song, I love the restriction of rhyme and word, makes the art even better.  Also love repetition, I’ve woken up two mornings in a row with two new verses, but havn’t written them down, not good to dwell on those things that drive your despair.  They’re there waiting though, very stressed and very creative at the moment.  Havn’t been on my website for ages, computer out of action, I’m sure it a virus as those in power try and shut me down.

Only reason I can think I am such a threat is my demand for drug free methods of treatment – the pharmaceutical industry is extremely powerful and profitable.  I have been posting a lot on my youtube channel through my spare phone, but its not easy with 2 hour downloads for 5 mins.

Definitely know corruption in mental health is at the top in the Directorate of mental health, was discussing this with Stephen Enright in that office.  Far as he is concerned us peasants supposed to look after ourselves, traumatised terrorised unwell people, being exploited and further harmed by traumatised terrorised unwell people.  Thats the Libertarian Utopia Peter Thiel, Helen Clark, Ruth Richardson and John Key etc wanted.  That is illegal under Sections 150A and 151 of the Crimes Act 1961 – see other pages for links.  Grrrr

Doing heaps of art at the moment, got several guerrilla protest missions planned, should be scary fun, have asked the police to keep a sense of humour.  Lots more I havn’t done because I’m really frightened after the assault with handcuffs, my wrist never fully recovered, putting away my firewood for winter isn’t pleasant – and makes me dislike the police and IPCA intensely.

I havn’t been typing, just realising how much I miss it, how therapeutic it is for me, been doing it for so many years.  Been hand writing things and photocopying at a local shop.  Always fighting in the red tape war, like I said, check out my youtube channel.  JR Murphy Poet

ADDED 12 March – things really rough at the moment, I go from passionate and strong to terrified and weak, my brain trying to cope with the insanity of being so poor I have to beg for food while being owed $10,000 by the government and even have a legal decision to say they were supposed to pay me $18 a week for the past 10 years.

Got told by head person at WINZ that now deals with me, when I had to beg for money for firewood today (that I HAVE TO PAY BACK), ACC was my problem and nothing to do with them.  She got angry and aggressive because I was crying and distraught, told me she would hang up if I didn’t calm down – calm down – how do they expect people to react to what I am being subjected to.   More examples of corruption, just asking for health care, welfare and home I’m entitled to by law and that is what I get, purposely made to beg for money from the government rather than get the $10,000 for my Independence Allowance I could use to help me get help and create a business from my art or the multiple other ideas I have.

And as for Jacinda Ardern saying this morning Kiwibuild wasn’t doing well due to MARKET FAILURE – WTF – not Market fkn failure its failure of the government and neo-liberal terrorist elites.  How that marketing maggot sleeps at night is beyond my comprehension.

New Punk Song – Handcuffs Are Not a Weapon – New Zealand police!

Handcuffs are not a weapon
Police are not there to harm
Freedom of speech is a right under law
Cruel cops now the Devil’s right arm

Poverty’s the worst form of violence
Begging degrades and does harm
Homes, jobs and care are rights under law
Charities now the Devil’s left arm

Suicide prevention’s promotion
Now killing good people’s a job
Media and money controls everything
Devil’s got the minds of this mob

New Zealand is not a democracy
Rule of law protects only the rich
Judges and lawyers are unjust and cruel
Devil’s got them as his bitch

 

Just wrote suicide prevention verse, wrote the others over past few months, knew there was one more to be written.  Each of the verses a separate poem in its own right.  Put together with my punk riff, metal pedal – Am, open string, G, open string –  its a wicked song I love singing and all of it true.  can’t wait to perform it outside court house.

More Propaganda from the Suicide Show – The Project

The following news item might be good advice for middle class and wealthy people who don’t really have many problems compared with the poorest in our society.  Particularly the 20% of the people that experience 80% of the crime according to police statistics – I’m in that ‘cultural’ group.  A string of mentally unwell flatmates has seen to that.  I have a song called Human Sewage, check out my Youtube Channel its on there.

I’m also contributing to crime according to police – through my non-violent challenging activism.  I am challenging unjust authority within my rights to freedom of expression under International and NZ Constitutional laws.  I follow the guidelines of the UN Charter for a Civil Society and a Civil Society Actor/Activist.

I would be out on the streets with my signs, guitar and chalk much more, but I am getting over a recent violent assault with handcuffs and have a lot of fear.  They permanently damaged my right wrist and it would be extremely painful to be in handcuffs again – although I still have my wrist brace and will wear that on any future protest.

Below is the news item that set this post off, I am tired of this, when the most unwell people don’t even have safe places to live or necessities of life.

http://www.msn.com/en-nz/entertainment/tv/the-project-host-kanoas-inspiring-mental-health-plea/ar-BBOxFdy?ocid=ientp

#metoo lawyers from New Zealand, this is my legal situation

I am currently up on charges of wilful damage for throwing red paint on the white ribbon banner inside Masterton police station and leaving a piece of art on the counter.  I also went outside and did a chalk spray swastika on the wall.

I then drove to Lower Hutt and chalked on Lower Hutt Court house Judge PJ Butler and a swastika.  I left there unchallenged and went to Wellington Central police station and handed myself in at the counter.

I was protesting about the miscarriage and perversion of justice for the recent graffiti charges I had been facing – other charges had been removed.  ACC demanded their misuse of a telephone charges be removed, so the judge didn’t know my motivation behind other non-violent protests with chalk, I have done.  All in regard to my health care and access to a suitably qualified lawyer.

Police in Wellington are way nicer and more respectful, I have made multiple complaints about  unnecessary violence and threats of worse violence by some Wairarapa police, all have been ignored.  This was at the end of January 2018, I have been unable to get a lawyer and been manipluated and discriminated against by Legal Aid Services.  I was in court last week and the judge ordered I be given a Amacus Curiea lawyer, or some shit, they going to get back to me about it.

Far as I can see its a lawyer that won’t listen to what you have to say and will just get the case through the courts as fast as possible.  So far I’ve been told they don’t want to deal with my other legal issues, but my protesting is part of all that.

I need to get with some decent legal brains and work out how I am going to get my case moved out of the District Court, into the High Court.   (NOTE:  My case last year for graffiti has grounds to be appealed, and that would reinvestigate the violent assault by police and other threats.) And I demand a JURY TRIAL due to the constitutional nature of my case.

There is no jury in New Zealand would find me guilty of wilful damage when they consider why I did it.  They have the power to give the Bill of Rights more power.   I DO NOT WANT A JUDGE ALONE TRIAL!!!!!  Our judiciary are grossly corrupt with regards to people with mental health issues, especially as a result/or aggrivated by degrading soul destroying poverty.

Is there any lawyer out there or law student that would be interested in talking this through with me?   I know they will say my wilfil damage charge is too minor to warrant a jury trial – how do I use the law to refute that.  What is the law that says I have to have a judge alone trial.

Come on, there must be someone out there that’s interested in the constitutional issues I am grappling with here.  I do not believe our Bill of Rights to be as impotent as they are saying, I want to take a case to court where these laws are given the constitutional status they should have.

I belive the fact I am a poor person, with the issues around health care, disability, non-violent activism and legal representation, gives me the right to take this case.  And brings up legal issues that really need to be sorted out, or we cannot call our country a democracy, free, or one that adheres to Rule of Law – which was of course designed to keep the peace.

I also have other legal issues I wish to challenge in the ILLEGAL gentrification of Carterton.  The driving out of the poor and disabled by wealthy foreigners and city people.  With a Libertarian and conservative elitist agenda in power throughout our local and central government representatives – who I believe only represent business interests.

I want to use Imperial Laws Application Act 1988 – Westminister STatute the 1st – common right be done to all rich as poor.

It is not right that rich people get to live in a town and poor people do not.  Carterton once had at least 35 state houses, mostly three bedroom with decent yards to grow food etc.  They were all sold off and an Official Information Act request revealed the details and numbers of these homes were removed from public record – which I thought was illegal.  I have been around Carterton and counted them, given state houses were of a distinctive style.

It is not right disabled people who have chosen Carterton as their home do not have the opportunity to live here.  Many to be around family and friends for support.

These are also our cultural rights, no matter anybody says – we have a culture.  New Zealand has ratified the UN treaty on economic social and cultural rights, which should be used in this legal issue of ‘gentrification’.  I know it is happening in America and UK, however I believe our 200 year old European history proves we prefer a more egalitarian society and we do not like injustice.  As a society we care for the less fortunate, when we do that we have peace, now we don’t do that we have suffering, violence, addiction and suicide.  Note I do not consider charity as care, it is a degrading nightmare and there are many highly corrupt institutions – Trust House in Wairarapa is one of the worst examples.

I also have legal issues under Magna Carta as to be destroyed, by being denied health care a court ordered to be provided eight years ago.  Along with not having a suitably qualified lawyer for the past 15 years, being denied legal representation for 16 years, just for asking for the health care and justice I was legally entitled to under multiple laws.

I have multiple legal issues with Indepedent Police Conduct Authority, Wairarapa and CCDHBs, Health and Disability Commissioner, Human Rights Commission etc.  Privacy issues the Commissioner refuses to address because of my disability, apparently police are allowed to say anything derogatory about you to other police and security staff who transport you between courts.

I have Magna Carta issues with police coming to my home so many times, I was terrorised.  They came once very late at night for a welfare check, I started having nightmares after that.  Now I just get scared whenever someone knocks at my door or I hear noises outside after dark – that police are coming to get me.

Several officers have said they don’t like what is happening to me.  One of them is my neighbour.

I have $10,000 Independence Allowance sitting with ACC because I can’t fill out the forms and they want me to go to yet another assessment, which are now so traumatic, I become extremely unwell.  I am so broke, I can barely afford food and am so unwell cannot go to the food bank.  Or the doctor, I havn’t had a doctor for over two years and not spoken to one about health issues other than my mental health for many years.

There must be people in our country or the western world who can help me with this, make this happen to stop the divisions in society we are seeing and the damage that is doing to peace on this planet.

Kia kaha and aroha to us all, leave a comment, lets work out how to do this.

 

Foodstuffs supports gentrification & impoverishment of poorest in Carterton

Recently I had the most horrendous and humiliating experience in the local Carterton New World supermarket.  After reading Jacinda Arderns comments about regulating the food industry that were price gouging us I felt the need to share what happened as I am sure it proves it.  Also proves a violation of Westminister Statute the 1st – common right be done to all rich as poor.

My poor disabled friends and I have been noticing changes at the Carterton New World over the past few months, they are slowly getting rid of the cheapest products .  That includes basics like Weetbix – or the cheap equivalent and in my case the cheapest sanitary napkins.  I have bladder incontenance and the products I used – which were still dearer than other supermarkets – just stopped being stocked.  I asked about it but they were never reinstated.

Carterton is one of those small towns – travelling distance of the city – that has sold off its homes to wealthy foreigners and cashed up city people.  Disabled and poor that made Carterton their home, or have lived here for many years are being driven out.  It is a well known phenomina in UK and USA, in New Zealand people are so naive or cruel they refuse to accept it is happening to their neighbours and family members.  They also refuse to accept it is actually illegal – nobody wants to accept that, especially the wealthy leaders of our community/region.

The council and business people welcome these affluent happy people, they spend money.  They won’t even entertain the idea they are causing harm and gross violations of other people’s most basic rights in a democratic country that says it adheres to Word of Law and UN treaties.  For those of us rotting on welfare, denied prof health care, justice etc, we are forced to beg for food, housing and justice to charities.  Charities full of people who are only too happy to do it – they think it is their roll in life to hand out food to people the government deny these things to.  Try to criticise these people and you get insulted degraded and abused.

Those on the council driving poor from this community know the people who own the supermarket.  Foodstuffs and the owners will be basing their change in store and products sold to match the increasingly wealthy demographic of Carterton.  Poor people don’t spend much money, rich people do so they get more things they like.

Carterton has its $1 bread and milk on the other side of the supermarket from the front door, so poor people have to walk through the entire shop of things they are not allowed to buy just to get to these staples.  I cry when I go to the supermarket now, I have so little money and feel completely denigrated by the experience.  It confronts you with inequality.

So two weeks ago a friend texts me and says they have cold chickens for $4.99 at the supermarket again.  That is a lot of protein and very cheap, some of the chickens were Organic and down from $15.00 each.  I went down within half an hour, with less than only $30 in my account to get the much needed food and some other items.  I got two chickens, one for someone I know who has agrophobia, is disabled poor and I knew needed the food, like me too proud/humiliated to beg for food from the local food bank – or tell those around her who did have everything.

I went to pay and it was more than I expected, I was so humiliated I had to put things back.  I thought I had calculated in my head to be under the amount I had in the bank.  I started to cry quietly.  When I got out to the car I discovered they had charged me $15 for one of the cold chickens.  Obviously the scanner had picked up the previous full price bar code and not the one on the sticker that said $4.99.

I went back in the store to get the $10 I overpaid, the woman at the kiosk looked at the docket, looked at the two cold chickens in my trolly with their $4.99 stickers on and said she would go and sort it out.  I had started to cry and was about to have a serious panic attack, I handed the woman the receipts but I could not wait, I don’t like crying, ticking, shaking and curling up in a ball on the floor of a public place.  So I told her I could’t stay I wasn’t well and I would come back.  I ran out crying, people I know saw me.

I didn’t get back the next day I was too upset about what had happened, I was so humiliated.  When I did go back I phoned the supermarket first and spoke to the manager I think – I don’t know who that was.  Told him what happened and I was going to come back and get my money and some more items.  I did this because I know how unwell I get when I am humiliated because of my poverty like that.  I did it so there would be no fuss and everything would be sorted, I could get my things and leave without incident.

When I got there I believed everything was sorted but at the checkout I found out it wasn’t, this man started harrassing me and insinuating very strongly I was a liar about what had happened and a thief, I became extremely distressed – I have a stress disorder.  I tried to defend myself, the woman had thrown out the docket, she didn’t realise I was having a panic attack and had to leave and still wanted my money returned.  The manager on the phone didn’t understand the situation either – I don’t think he did anyway.  The man who challenged me at the checkout went on and on and on, he was insulting and rude and I told him that, I got louder and louder, so people could hear what he was doing to me.  Another staff member came up and tried to stop him as I became more and more traumatised and terrorised.  I wanted to run from the shop but I was desperately poor and needed the food.

I had the cheapest food in my trolley, that included pack of 4 chicken carcus for less than $3.00 I stuff and roast them – this man was accusing me of buying a $15 Organic chicken and lying about it, when I had to buy chicken carcus as my food.  He gave the impression I did this because I wanted what rich people ate ewwwwww.

Because of my disorder I am not able to beg to food banks for food, even my WINZ case manager offered me a food grant I refused because I couldn’t bring myself to be degraded in front of supermarket staff with that card.  These people are the community, they know who is poor and make their own judgements based on things they often do not understand.

The people who saw/heard what happened will now marginalise and discriminate against me even further because I was insulted and degraded like that – they will believe it is my fault and I am a thief and liar.  All the owner and Foodstuffs wanted to do was talk about it.  I already got my money back, the woman who took over from the revolting man insulting me gave it back, it was quite obvious I was telling the truth.  I have heard of other instances of people having to go back after being charged full price on specialed items at that store – and being argued with about it.

This hatred of poor people permeates EVERYTHING when you live in ‘relative poverty’ that rich people think is a pathetic joke – but I am sure it drives more people to suicide and violence than any other cause.

The reason we have laws, a democracy and supposed to follow rule of law is to stop those with power and money from persecuting those without.  That is human nature, however it is not what supposed to happen in a civil society!!!!!!!!!

Anybody out there reading this, can help me take a case against Carterton District Council, Foodstuffs and Carterton New World for violations of Westminister Statute the 1st.  It says on Foodstuffs website about CORPORATE RESPONSIBILITY – so obviously they are part of the oligarchy that knows it price gouges citizens when it can get away with it – profit is everything.

 

Tony Ellis Sitting In Your Palace

Just heard the story of another terrorised abuse victim and her experience with this misogynst, insulting, vicious, corrupt pig Tony Ellis – so thought I’d post this old poem of mine.

Tony Ellis sitting in your palace
Looking down your nose at me
Saying I’m not here for you peasants
While nothing for men I see

I only deal with important stuff
Violent abuse I’d rather not see
I havn’t got time, now get off my mind
Stories of intimidation, discrimination, bigotry

Tony Ellis sitting in your palace
Could you look me in the eye and say
I’m far to busy, its not important
Now please just go away

I’m trying to expose the truth
Don’t ignore this most serious crime
This crime against those abused
That affects society, the soul, the mind

Tony Ellis sitting in yuor palance
Watch my words upon the web
JR Murphy poet & artist
An activist you all dread

Please come down from your palace
Come visit me I”m real
An intelligent human being saying
Somethings wrong when care’s a torture wheel

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Been changing it as I rewrote it, might have another go at it later, now I know how corrupt Ellis and our justice system truly are, grrrrr.

Changes coming after govt try to take my disability & threaten homelessness

I’ve uncovered even more corruption in social agencies, charities, government, justice and police.  I’m terrified after being subjected to the most vicious fascism at a Wairarapa Voice – power to the people – event organised by Carterton leaders and business people.

Now senior police are having me dragged through court for Misuse of a Telephone again – this time Police Complaints Authority are doing it – LOL.  Yip, for phoning them upset after they allowed police to violently assault me AGAIN during a non-violent protest.  I never threatened them with harm or anything, or they would be able to do me for threatening them, just Misuse of a Telephone – I’m assuming so they can have my phone cut off.

They are also continuing to refuse to release the CCTV footage of this latest violent assault – they told me they would provide it – but then don’t.  I need it for my complaint to the UN – they know that – which is why I received a letter last week from Chief Ombudsman Boshier abusing me for putting up art in their office and begging for help on their 0800 number.

When I watch international news media about the lengths wealthy Libertarian terrorist globalists go to in places like South America, Africa and middle east to keep their cruel illegal version of Capitalism going to advance themselves and their families – it helps me cope with what I’m being subjected to.

Disillusionment in the community is everywhere, our democracy is a farse, so is word of law or justice for all.  Democracy in the western world is on the brink of collapse, so is the banking system – then those of us who have nothing will be able TAKE BACK what these Libertarian NAZI stole from us.

Been reading history books on 19th Century colonisation in NEw Zealand – it has been staggering to realise what is happening 200 years later is just the 21st century version – it was wrong and unjust back then, it is wrong and unjust now.

Kia kaha and aroha to the poor and powerless, you are not going mad, you know there’s something wrong and there is.  Not long now, things are about to blow, DO NOT TRUST anybody in a position of power, you will know what to do when the revolution starts.  Hopefully I’ll know what to do as well 🙂  15 years of protesting and learning about the corruption of Libertarian terrorists around the world, was for something, 15 years of learing about psychology, sociology, political history, human rights, etc – so I’m ready when things as we know them end.

Now I’ll focus on trying to wake people up to how bad it really is, including how bad the propaganda through our media is.

 

New Zealand IS NOT the least corrupt country in the world – WTF!

I have just seen this BULLSHIT about New Zealand government and other powerful people not being corrupt and abusing their positions of power for personal profit.  THAT IS NOT TRUE, look at the numbers of politicians who advance their business interests, get cushy jobs at banks, insurance companies, are on the Boards of private health providers – who deny people health care they entitled to.

Wyatt Creech, Roger Sowry and other extremely wealthy people run the Board of Healthcare NZ, who own Geneva health care, whose OT refused to work with me and refused to say why, even when I made a formal complaint.

Jenny Shipley profited from allowing water to be sold, the privatization of health care has been an abomination where the poorest miss out, while the rich get treated like kings in private hospitals with private specialists.  Jonathan Coleman went from Ministery of Health to a private health insurer that only exists because of illegal cuts to health services – especially mental health.

I looked up the DEFINITION OF CORRUPTION on Wikipedia Transparency International created the  Corruption Perceptions Index (CPI) since 1995, annually ranking countries “by their perceived levels of corruption, as determined by expert assessments and opinion surveys.”[1] The CPI generally defines corruption as “the misuse of public power for private benefit”.[2]

This organisation is run by naive idiots and people who keep hidden how members of political parties are profiting from legislation that harms the poor and

Wairarapa Police The Devil’s Right Arm

In response to being assaulted with handcuffs by police last week.  I will be writing this on back of wallpaper and stapling up in Masterton and chalking around the streets.  Have asked for a meeting with the local new police inspector here and anybody else of a pay grade that can get an investigation into ACC etc under criminal negligence.

Handcuffs are not a weapon

Police are not there to harm

Freedom of speech is a right under law

Local police now the Devil’s right arm!

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